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Shadiadibiz.

Where are you?

So, you all are curious about good ole Shadiadibiz, eh?

Shadiadibiz yahooed me an offline message & said "Hey I met you on alt.com" I have never been on alt.com & I wonder if he got that confused with SG. Or else someone is using my name, yahoo address & pix for their profile on alt. To which I say: WTF?
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doozer:
I'm gonna try put the name in here as a member name and see if it works....And the results are Shadiadibiz. Guess i/we won't know until I post this. I'd never seen alt.com either, gotta love the kink. biggrin

I saw your myspace page and it was very cool indeed! Is it the bestest? that's yet to be determined shocked Is that your eye in the background? I bet the nails hurt but the barbed wire was only a minor annoyance. The action profile picture was a nice touch. Cool and pretty. The thing I liked best was the lil stars moving around with the pointer icon thing. I felt as i moved it around i was going to either put a spell on whatever was clicked or knock it senceless like old cartoons. Enough about the giant that is myspace.

I look forward to seeing your paintings if you choose to share them. What do you use? paint, pencil, pastel, ash or other stuff. Clearly I'm not the artist in my family. That's my sister. I've been told when I was little and it was "art time" I would just scribble stuff saying that it didn't matter if you stayed inside the lines or not because the faster you got it done the quicker I could go and play. This is hearsay though.

Wow! I wrote much more than I'd planned to. Ending.......Now. smile

P.S. Maybe not the end of the comment or myspace remark. I'm a nervous and anxious person too.

Edit: Well so much for the member name experiment. No dice.



[Edited on Apr 22, 2006 2:31AM]
velvetknuckles:
I need a shrink. And a drink. Maybe a drink with a shrink.
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Ok, so which one of you is shadiadibiz? I don't remember.
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dmac:
Okay so the votes are in: it's a unanimous turnout for Susan Sarandon. (although I did think your "perfect combination of both" was pretty fabulous, I must say!)

So what's up with this "shadiadibiz?" Are you getting grief from this individual? mad
jayenn:
That's funny, you made me LOL!

A T4 is a 'Statement of Remuneration Paid'. What bugs me is that I NEVER throw anything away. But a week ago I decided to clean out some old shit from some files where I had crap like pay stubs from 5 years ago and I think I might have trashed a couple of things I need. whatever
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PASSION OR OBSESSION?

So I was on a walk in the sunshine today & it came to me.

Definitions of PASSION on the Web:
*Strong feeling or emotion
*Heat: the trait of being intensely emotional
*Rage: something that is desired intensely; "his rage for fame destroyed him"
*Mania: an irrational but irresistible motive for a belief or action
*A feeling of strong sexual desire
*Love:...
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doozer:
Sounds to me like you are human after all.

Without a myspace account is it still possible to view some of your art?
candler:
Does that mean that I have Passionate Compulsive Disorder?! I like that better.

Find me on myspace. biggrin
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Today she suggested that perhaps my problem (with dating, with life, with everything) is that I become too attached to outcomes. She is right. But, how do I NOT do that? I rumniate all day long about such things. confused
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cruciatus:
The last time I checked, it is damn near impossible to avoid thinking about such things.
I hope you have better luck with that than I do.
aksiokersa:
Oh, no, we wouldn't want you to become attached to outcomes. Please try not to become attached to outcomes. But don't get too attached to the outcome of those efforts.

whatever
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There are days that I don't even have the energy to complain about the things that bother me most. But, today is not one of those days...

PHARMACEUTICALS
She wrote me a prescription for something with aspartame in it. I am deathly allergic. I would have ended up violently sick in just one or two doses. Sweating, cold, hot, fever, hallucinating, hives, nausea & other...
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cruciatus:
Every single thing about WalMart rips at my nerves. The noise, the horrible music, the employees forcing big fake smiles. Creepy.
doozer:
I live in the pacific northwest. Please forgive my lack of specifics. It's tough to explain but I'll try. My journal is just that, a journal for my throughts, expressions and all the random stuff inbetween. Clearly our journals on SG aren't like "traditional" journals because others can read them, but at the same time I enjoy that it can be kept private from those in my immediate life. Lets me express the good, bad and that which I want to remember. It helps to write stuff down. Again, difficult for me to explain. Anyways...
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Went to the doctor today. Again. Got even MORE drugs today. More, more, more. It never ends.

I carry a list in my purse. I keep it in that place the money would go if I had any. It is a list of all my drugs. I crack it out whenever I am going to be getting a new prescription or a OTC & I...
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frankeng:
maybe you where the hundred custormer on he prescription?
mr_rick:
HAPPY EASTER!!!

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ARRR!!!
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More tv... starting... now. kiss
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bankerboy:
If you were "there" you'd be here. wink
bankerboy:
Dreams/nightmares... whatever
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I think tomorrow is grey day for me. I will be back.

The boy still didn't go to school yet. All swollen & red. Getting better though. I worry alot.

We have been sitting in his room for the last 2 days just watching tv... for hours... & hours...

Today I started up a Spyro game from the beginning. It is a great game for...
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doozer:
Yes, I know. *sigh* Just didn't want to be to much of a downer and mention it since we've just "met."
doozer:
There is a certain comfort level in it and knowing that not much can throw you off.

Given this, I've always liked the quote from "Girl, Interupted" (from the movie, i haven't read the book) when the cabby drops Susanna off at Claimore and says, "Don't get too comfortable."

Anyways...
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WE HAVE A BAD CASE OF THE GREYS.
Everyone is going grey & wants to stay that way. I get very few & sometimes no comments at all anymore. I feel unheard, in real life & now on here too. My grey is coming soon... surreal

POISEN ROCKS! POISEN IVY, THAT IS.
My son has a hella rash. The doc thought it was contact dermatitis yesterday....
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jayenn:
I hope you don't go grey. I read your journal but hardly comment cause I don't have anything really helpful or insightful to say.
cybele:
I haven't been around much, either, dear. (So it isn't that I don't care.) smile

Yes, many lovely people have gone the way of "gray." Thought about it a few times myself, actually. Just can't seem to sever it completely. We'll see...

Sounds as if things continue to be "interesting" for you, Ms. Kitty. Just remember the saying: "that which does not kill us makes us stronger."

Cold comfort, I know.

Take care, hon! (My you soon be freed from dating "purgatory"!)

miao!!

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All my senses are overwhelmed. Every noise makes me jump. My guts are upset. I won't sleep much tonight. I am always this way when my son is sick.

I haven't heard from dude since last Tuesday. I wrote him an email. He has clearly come to his senses. He is a smart one. But, stupid me is still thinking about him every day. surreal
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Here are afew of the stranger side effects of my new med:

~Abnormal secretion of milk (nice)
~Confusion (what?)
~Swelling of the breasts (please!)
~Eating abnormal amounts of food (already there, my friend)
~Worsening symptoms of depression & suicidal thoughts (here is where all that drama from last week may have come in. I have stopped taking it just in case. We will see.)
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I am just waiting for this day to end. Waiting for the days to go by & this dead feeling to pass. Waiting it out takes forever sometimes.

And everyone is out having fun. Being together. And I am here alone. And I start to hate those people.
suicidal_george:
ya, i'm calling around for someone to shoot some pool with me. Best i got is a maybe. But, I did buy a big amp today for my little show. After i feed my belly (i'm rather shakey & ditzy at the moment) i'm gonna feed my spirit and bang out some tube amplified tunes.

ps - you should feed your spirit too and paint something or something.
hypnogogic:
I was out having fun, do you hate me?.......