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I haven't been able to blog for a long time. I haven't been able to tell you about myself because I've been going pretty crazy. Forgive the bad typing, this laptop is on it's last legs. Anyway, I've been diagnosed with "aggravated depression" which means I feel like shit and feel like shit about that I guess. I am in...
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brokenbeatnik:
If you and/or Alpo are up to it, I'll be back in town Thursday to Sunday. Would love to get up.
array:
hey how's it going? hope things are well.
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I feel like the description of this tripping man's behavior (stolen from Shannon Larrat's ModBlog) is a perfect metaphor for my own behavior, choices, and desperation in life. I think it's beautiful.

..."the story begins in a park just south of St. Clair and Bathurst, with both of our friends on single hits of acid. We assumed it would just be a...
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kitschy:
Hey,...... Come back, already!
dannydmc:
Where ye be?
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I'm fuckin' depressed.
It's so cliche to get "the post-holiday blues", but maybe that's all this is.

I don't feel like myself.

I feel like crawling in a hole and never having to face the world again.

Like I'm such a fuckup that continuing in my attempts to make things work is just not worth it anymore.

The weird part...
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quirky:
I've missed you.
xani:
kiss
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I want to say things about my relationship here, but then they seem impossible to say (massive member). It's as if you spend all this time being friendly, sociable, polite, and honest with a person...and then one day you realize that more than friendly, you're being empathetic, more than sociable, you're being generous, more than polite, you're being tender, and...
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rodan:
well whatever works best smile

We just get to listen to what you tell us wink
brokenbeatnik:
I didn't do it. tongue

Hope you are having fun out West. I miss Portland. I will be in SF soon, so if you're in the region, holler at me, happy to meet you and the guy for beverages.
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My computer is still getting buttplundered by a gang of young male elephants driven insane with grief over the deaths of their grandmothers, so I'm still just catching as catch can around here.

Okay, I just gotta get this off my chest:
Natural selection only gets rid of beings so poorly prepared for their environments that they are unable to successfully reproduce.
Your little...
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kitschy:
Yay, I miss you! Your comment was a welcome surprise as checking this site has become "same old same old."

kiss kiss I am waiting with baited breath to hear from the graduate committee. ugh. Work is crawling, as my boss now has pregnancy brain, and the Idjiit's bday and the holidays are right around the corner, AND STILL, people are calling everyday to look at our freaking house but no one will goddamn buy it!

that about covers it.
rodan:
yeah - the only difference 'tween the two is if I'm "let go" or RIF'd I can collect unemployment - so - yay smile.

If th ey'd come across with a bit more moola for letting me go I probably would have taken it - I wasn't very happy there towards the end...

But - c'est la vie!
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I'm temporarily back online. Yay! I miss my SG peeps!

I'm stuck away from home because my pain has been too bad for me to be able to get on my return flight back to San Francisco. This is a pretty great place to be stuck, though, I gotta admit. I'm at my boyfriend's house ("boyfriend" doesn't seem like the...
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zombieelvis:
Buy my book

and stop vanishing. where the hell are you?
gilby:
I might be one of those people. blush
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My computer is taking a vacation.
It was missing it's Z-key.
It's CD/DVD drive konked out.
It was running some nav.exe bullshit that was clogging everything up and that I couldn't effectively expunge from the registry.
So I'm disappeared for now.
But I'll be back to catch up on journals ASAP because I miss you! kiss
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ninadelamorte:
*psst*

have you heard about this group?

members since 2004
kitschy:
*sniff*

I miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111




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You really can escape your problems.
I don't know why people say that you can't.

I just moved home to California. I'm from a teensy town on the coast. It feels like I jumped back into the pile of sludge I hauled myself out of when I moved away to Oregon 4 years ago. All the issues that used to rule my...
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kitschy:
^^ whaa? "Ain't no biggie" ??????


Anyway, How are you? You tell us you're going back into a town of skeletons and tough things to face, and then you drop off the planet. Don't leave us hanging girl!! I hope you are well! kiss
quirky:
I tag you!
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Dude.

I gotta check up on all my SG peops.

I finally have some free time now!

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alpo:

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)



kiss

rodan:
Yup - I don't watch wrestling on TV but it's a blast seeing it live wink - and especially the indies where they're more likely to be smaller and MUCH faster/agile/willing to take afew risks...

Weirdly enough, one of the russian wrestlers from the 80s/90s is a house inspector in baltimore and he gets some local press occasionally wink
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Dude.

You know what he said?

He said "You're the girl who turns a bunch of heads as she walks into a room, but then trips on the carpet as she goes by -- the type of girl I'd fall instantly in love with."

Possibly the best compliment EVAR! biggrin I'd totally trip on the carpet! That's so me.
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alpo:
Good thing your new beau is nice to you or I'd have to strap on my claymore and get all William Wallace on his ass. biggrin

linkismyhero:
Aw, I won't leave. kiss I was thinking about it, but I don't want to abandon my buddies!
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it's a perfect day for getting old
forgetting all your worries
life
and everything that makes you cry
let's get happy!
it's a perfect day for dreams come true
for thinking big
and doing anything you want to do
let's get happy!

but it's much to late you say
for doing this now
we should have done it then
well...
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alpo:
Not "Friday I'm in Love"? kiss
ira:
Thannxxxx!!

kiss kiss kiss
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I get so frustrated with this journal.

The point, at the beginning, was to help me get in touch with myself and to prove to myself that my raw thoughts and feelings wouldn't alienate me from people. I have proved that - I've met a few great folks who check in and seek out my friendship no matter what I write here.

But now...
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kozmikgirl:
Feel free to always speak freely with me. The more honest, the better... especially the deep-down ugly sickening heart-breaking stomach-turning truths. Those have always been my favorite. biggrin
kitschy:
love OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I almost wet myself with surprise and happiness!!!!!!!!!! kiss kiss You're hot!!! And I LOVE your teeth!!! OMG OMG OMG I feel sooooooooo special!!!!! biggrin biggrin biggrin biggrin biggrin biggrin biggrin