i really don't have much to say thats interesting but in general i am feeling a lack of motivation to do anything producive; hence this entry. yesterday i felt like a crackhead. i didn't sleep the night before thanks to flying back and forth and a horrible fux0rd sleep schedual. talked to brent all morning, then did fun stuff in the sunshine with j. we walked around the market for awhile which was nice. i am gonna miss him so much, really the only person out here who i will REALLY miss. i hope its sunny at least once more before i leave i want to romp around a it more and take some "favourite places" pictures. i also found out some bad news which was that b/c maddie is sick (thanks to her sister kate getting kennel cough at the dog park) she is not allowed to fly with me to cleveland! so i am going to my new home without maddie or gwennums. j said he will ship gwenny out next week but as much as i love my kitten she is not the same as my mad little puppy. hopefully she will be out within 3 weeks. i will miss her so much and she will miss me! oh my poor poor baby girl! /end sappy mommy mode. i also realized that my left flat which was recently punched at 0 is getting infected probably thanks to something germy on the airplane....ouch and yuck.
my gimp ear, lack of sleep, and dealing with maddie related schkreft stressed me out so i went and blew 100$ that i cound't afford to spend on a facial. thank god b/c it was exactly what i needed....and i feel so much more radient now. i am such a spa whore...they better have at least a few decent places in cleveland or i will go insane. (sometimes i realize what a snobby little thing i am and i am almost embarassed but then i realize that simply fullfilling my duties as a jewish american princess so its completely justifiable...just like my new 300$ prada sandals...completely justifiable...)
after pampering was a movie with j. we saw identity which was incredibly predictable but i fully enjoy john cusak and amanda peet gives me a total boner so all in all it was at least slightly entertaining. came home and went to sleep after showering, hair washing, hair mask / deep conditioning, exfoliating / body polish scrub, bodywashing, facial deep clensing, light foaming rejuvinating facial wash, drying, body moisturizing, moisturizing and relaxing hair product applications, hairbrushing, facial toner, facial night time mask and moisturizer, tweezing, ear cleaning, piercing cleaning, deoderant, toothbrushing, A&D ointment application to tattoos, hand washing and finally, nighttime hand moisturizer. *see earlier princess related comments* (and people think its easy being this phenominally goregous...oy vey).
today, after a great nights sleep, has just been one of those sit around in your underthings and do nothing sort of days. this is bad b/c i have a lot to do but the general lack of sunshine coupled with "womanly troubles" has left me wanting to do little else but sit around and devour anything choclate.
and now for my random rant about said "womanly troubles." (i.e. i'm going to talk about my bleeding cunt so if that grosses you out stop reading nowish) i never get my period...never. well, ok, i get it sometimes...every 3-5 monthes or so and then its very light spotting and lasts maybe 3 days at most. the combo of my iud (inter uterine device / 5 yr birth control), and my anemia pretty much rids me of the only bad part about being a woman. unfortunatly, every so often i get a period like this one. the bleeding isn't out of control and is just the same light spotting but it lasts for well over a week (not good when i havn't seen brent in over a month and thats an area that is in dire need of copious amounts of attention from something other then my hand) it also makes me feel fairly schkrefty. i become emotionally weird. i get whiney. and worst of all, i get fat. there is an unusual ammount of bloating but that goes away....what really does the damage is that i consume food like a vacum.
i usually control my eating very very very strictly. (modeling, body image issues, and a penchant for looking hot in latex will do that to a girl) i never really binge, i allow occasional treats here and there, i love to cook so i make yummy healthy meals, i drink 3 approx litres of water a day, and i really don't let myself go too crazy with my cravings. (i.e. i am overly obsessive when it comes to my body...but at least i pride myself on not being one of those "i'm so fat" girls....i'm at least at least quietly and secretly obsessive) on sunday i ate the following: 1 large bag of tostitos gold corn chips, 1 LARGE bag of puffed cheese curls, 1 vanilla ice cream cone, 1 ice creme sandwich, 1/2 bag of chewey, peach rings, a handful of triscuts, an extra large caremelo candy bar, 1 cadbury carmel creme egg, and 12 cadbury creme eggs. i am not making this up and this was not some sort of pot-induced munchie insanity....i actually just ate all of this within about 12 hours. that is more calories then i usually intake in 2 weeks not to mention that it wastwo days ago and i still feel sick / out of balance. thats what i get for eating so much weird icky food that i usually wouldn't touch (excepting the cadbury creme eggs which are equivalent to crack). my body will recover from my hormone induced binge but it will take weeks of being way more good then i want to be. also, my new cheerleading uniform (fun with rollplaying.) came in the mail yesterday and looks hot but is a bit tight in the wait / hip area. please sweet jesus let it be the bloating and not the cheese curls!
so now i am sitting at home, bored but unmotivated, drinking water and daydreaming of next spring when girl scout cookies come out a mere month prior to cadbury creme eggs (why oh why can't my vices surface after summer when i am allowed to bundle up under layers.) b/c when i have my period, as much as i try to fool myself into thinking that Aquafina is better then Godiva, it just doesn't work. for the sake of my fine ass (not to mention that i would like bloodless booty upon my arrival in ohio b/c i am not a big fan of sucking bloody cock and thats not an activity i want to cross of my "to do" list.) someone make this madness stop!
my gimp ear, lack of sleep, and dealing with maddie related schkreft stressed me out so i went and blew 100$ that i cound't afford to spend on a facial. thank god b/c it was exactly what i needed....and i feel so much more radient now. i am such a spa whore...they better have at least a few decent places in cleveland or i will go insane. (sometimes i realize what a snobby little thing i am and i am almost embarassed but then i realize that simply fullfilling my duties as a jewish american princess so its completely justifiable...just like my new 300$ prada sandals...completely justifiable...)
after pampering was a movie with j. we saw identity which was incredibly predictable but i fully enjoy john cusak and amanda peet gives me a total boner so all in all it was at least slightly entertaining. came home and went to sleep after showering, hair washing, hair mask / deep conditioning, exfoliating / body polish scrub, bodywashing, facial deep clensing, light foaming rejuvinating facial wash, drying, body moisturizing, moisturizing and relaxing hair product applications, hairbrushing, facial toner, facial night time mask and moisturizer, tweezing, ear cleaning, piercing cleaning, deoderant, toothbrushing, A&D ointment application to tattoos, hand washing and finally, nighttime hand moisturizer. *see earlier princess related comments* (and people think its easy being this phenominally goregous...oy vey).
today, after a great nights sleep, has just been one of those sit around in your underthings and do nothing sort of days. this is bad b/c i have a lot to do but the general lack of sunshine coupled with "womanly troubles" has left me wanting to do little else but sit around and devour anything choclate.
and now for my random rant about said "womanly troubles." (i.e. i'm going to talk about my bleeding cunt so if that grosses you out stop reading nowish) i never get my period...never. well, ok, i get it sometimes...every 3-5 monthes or so and then its very light spotting and lasts maybe 3 days at most. the combo of my iud (inter uterine device / 5 yr birth control), and my anemia pretty much rids me of the only bad part about being a woman. unfortunatly, every so often i get a period like this one. the bleeding isn't out of control and is just the same light spotting but it lasts for well over a week (not good when i havn't seen brent in over a month and thats an area that is in dire need of copious amounts of attention from something other then my hand) it also makes me feel fairly schkrefty. i become emotionally weird. i get whiney. and worst of all, i get fat. there is an unusual ammount of bloating but that goes away....what really does the damage is that i consume food like a vacum.
i usually control my eating very very very strictly. (modeling, body image issues, and a penchant for looking hot in latex will do that to a girl) i never really binge, i allow occasional treats here and there, i love to cook so i make yummy healthy meals, i drink 3 approx litres of water a day, and i really don't let myself go too crazy with my cravings. (i.e. i am overly obsessive when it comes to my body...but at least i pride myself on not being one of those "i'm so fat" girls....i'm at least at least quietly and secretly obsessive) on sunday i ate the following: 1 large bag of tostitos gold corn chips, 1 LARGE bag of puffed cheese curls, 1 vanilla ice cream cone, 1 ice creme sandwich, 1/2 bag of chewey, peach rings, a handful of triscuts, an extra large caremelo candy bar, 1 cadbury carmel creme egg, and 12 cadbury creme eggs. i am not making this up and this was not some sort of pot-induced munchie insanity....i actually just ate all of this within about 12 hours. that is more calories then i usually intake in 2 weeks not to mention that it wastwo days ago and i still feel sick / out of balance. thats what i get for eating so much weird icky food that i usually wouldn't touch (excepting the cadbury creme eggs which are equivalent to crack). my body will recover from my hormone induced binge but it will take weeks of being way more good then i want to be. also, my new cheerleading uniform (fun with rollplaying.) came in the mail yesterday and looks hot but is a bit tight in the wait / hip area. please sweet jesus let it be the bloating and not the cheese curls!
so now i am sitting at home, bored but unmotivated, drinking water and daydreaming of next spring when girl scout cookies come out a mere month prior to cadbury creme eggs (why oh why can't my vices surface after summer when i am allowed to bundle up under layers.) b/c when i have my period, as much as i try to fool myself into thinking that Aquafina is better then Godiva, it just doesn't work. for the sake of my fine ass (not to mention that i would like bloodless booty upon my arrival in ohio b/c i am not a big fan of sucking bloody cock and thats not an activity i want to cross of my "to do" list.) someone make this madness stop!
[Edit] Jesus Christ almighty you are a JAP. Of course I knew that but its fun to actually read your yiddish filled diatribe. Good thing I don't scare easy.
Anyway relax- get out and go enjoy Seattle while you still can and maybe you won't be sitting at home staring at the munchies. Go to First Thursday Art Walk for one last time. Come over and bother us at the house...we're good people. Spoil yourself rotten with nice pretty handbags that you can't eat. [I know I spoil myself rotten. God knows I fetched a fair price when I sold my soul to M$.]
PS: Are you going to see Postal Service at the Crocodile tonight?
[Edited on Apr 30, 2003]