jay13

old job officially over. fuck it. businesses fail all the time. I just have to look at it as a bad investment. now, on with the good news. I am going to do what I love. make music any way that I can. I'm starting a band. I don't give a fuck who's in it, but I'll be the only guy if I have anything to say about it. girls rule.

I hang out at the strip club way too much, but fuck it it's fun. the girls there love me. my favorite now is devin. it used to be taylor, but she's having problems. her husband's an asshole. I miss taylor, a lot. jade said she's find out how she is for me. I told her not too. I really hope she does. I just didn't want to admit it. Jade's getting married, but her fiance's in trouble. his bond hearing is next week. I hope he gets out. everybody cross your fingers. it doesn't look good for him. I'm really worried.

To make a long story short, I used to care about everybody more than I care about myself. fuck that. take care of yourself. everyone else will figure out there own shit. I guess. I don't know. anyway, if you try and can help...good. if it doesn't work out...don't sweat it. there'll be another chance. I wrote a song about my strip club. it was called showgirls. that's what the joint is called. now it's called "I'm no alcoholic, I'm a drunk ( Taylor's Song) " She gave really good advice. She's working all nude now. I really want to see her, but not in her new club. If I wanted to see her naked, I would have asked by now. Damn, do I miss that girl.

anyway, this is jay13 a.k.a. Capt. Jack signing off. I thought I was going to go gray, but fuck that. I love suicide girls. I just won't throw down for a year up front this time. can't afford it.

always remember....

I'm just a junkie with a monkey