Hey SG Land.

This is going to be a really personal post but I hope it will mean something to someone.

I’m back after 8 months, and dropping as many comments as I can to this beautiful community.

But as TLC asked in 1999, what does that mean to me? ‘Unpretty’ was a big radio hit when I was growing up and it had a
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samihain:
This is a really nice blog, thank you for writing it.  I'm sorry to hear about the struggles you've endured. I agree this site is different from most, and that's what I love about it. 😊
iwasagain:
Thanks @samihain I think it could only have come out of alternative culture, as well. You hear a lot of stories about strong communities in metal fans and this is a similar thing in my opinion. I’m sorry for what you’ve been through too. I’m glad we both survived. 🩵

The Matrix was a glitch in the world at the breaking of the 21st century. It was the last vapours of Delphi, and when we inhaled we saw a vision. We followed the White Rabbit because that splinter in our minds was telling us that where we were was not real.

We wanted the red pill, but all the pills were blue. The system coded
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nerestorm:
Amazing Blog!!!
iwasagain:
@nerestorm thanks so much

It’s 3:30am here. I lit this candle for anyone going through a hard night or bad times. Just breathe. You can get through this 🖤

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alexislust:
Thank you. It's comforting 💕
ayanami_:
Thank you dear! 🙏🖤

What are the things that give you pure joy? Make you throw back you head and just laugh? For me it’s finding guitar work as phenomenal as in the video below I just discovered . This guy playing All Along The Watchtower has to be one of the best in the world 🌍 the feeling I get hearing this is beautiful.

It’s the same feeling...
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iwasagain:
You’re a good friend @fredhincanada
fredhincanada:
Likewise!

One thing I discovered while I was away was a local band called AFTERDRIVE. Their single is Stick Around and it’s excellent alternative rock. The lyrics are kinda sad but the riff and drum work are exceptional. I’m hoping I can stick around long enough to talk to you lovely people again.

iwasagain:
https://youtu.be/7rmxxV-bpNo?si=fu5Cvmq_xXvROEww Link to Song
fredhincanada:
Pretty mellow alternative rock.  Decent.
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“I’ve flown through a mirror

Almost disappearing

I glow faintly

You know, this is nobody’s life

I saw the days I lost

Hiding behind tomorrow’s cost

Time going back”

Time Goes Back by John Frusciante, from Shadows Collide With People, 2004. It’s one of the most significant albums of my life, and one of six Frusciante released in that year. I’ve been listening tonight.

What...
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iwasagain:
Thanks @ajsul  - I must listen to Natural Science in your honour tonight! I can see why lyrics like that left their mark 👌
ajsul:
@iwasagain I listened to "Time Goes Back" last night. It was the first time I had heard it, and I thought it sounded great!  My phone threw in a few more John Frusciante songs as I was going to sleep. I like his sound!
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It’s 1am, no one is up, and I don’t have social media. Just gonna send a few thoughts into the ether.

My grandad is dying. It’s near the end now. He’s a very diminished man. It’s only natural but it’s sad. I’m pretty close with him and have been writing about him the last few months.

Last week, after 23 years of mental health issues,
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iwasagain:
Sounds like a conversation would be fascinating @jozsef
rare:
Hugs 🥺
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I have loved being more active on SG, it’s been amazing. I have got all sorts going on at the moment so I wanted to wish everyone well for the weekend and give a 😍❤️🖤 here to all the posts and sets that will go up - I hope to be back next week to ❤️ sets and posts.

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rare:
Such a great pic!
iwasagain:
Thanks @rare  - that was the last of the cherry blossom this year. There was a cormorant fishing in the water too - it’s a beautiful park.
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Also, as a writer who has just discovered Dune, I am in awe of this from Frank Herbert:

Litany Against Fear

I must not fear
Fear is the mind-killer
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration
I will face my fear
I will permit it to pass over me and through me
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye
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fredhincanada:
I found Dune to be an interesting read.  The first couple of books were good, but 3 and 4 were a monumentally boring struggle for me to get through.  Five really picked up in the back half and the sixth book was phenomenally good.  I think you will ultimately enjoy the journey.  I still remember the Litany against Fear almost entirely by heart.  And find an episode of Earthworm Jim with Peter the Puppy in it on YouTube and you'll understand what I'm referring to. lol.
iwasagain:
Thanks for the info and heads-up 👍
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If anyone else struggles with depression, and doesn’t know what TF to do anymore, using incense, oils and wax melts has been the first new thing in several years to alleviate the depression I struggle with every day.
It’s a pure sensory experience that doesn’t require you to think.
Keep fighting 🖤💪



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Keep fighting   ❤️
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I love to chill. I need it to survive. I’ve just completed three years of Chillhop Seasonal Essentials with the Spring ‘23 collection - 12 sequential seasons. They seem to catch the vibes of each season so well. It’s 3am here, this in my headphones, coffee on the brew. The world doesn’t seem quite as bad. I highly recommend the series, released by Dutch label...
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I just want to say I'm sorry. I'm staring in horror at my screen thinking of all the times I could have sent a supportive message that would have brightened someone's day on here.

I don't know how I never realised that it's not ok to be on here and not comment. I am everything that's wrong with the world.

This year will be different....
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gadget:
Awww! What a lovely blog. Though I think saying ' you're everything that's wrong with the world.' is totally overkill! You are certainly not that!
nerwen:
Thanks for sharing this. I also suffer from depression and promised myself to be more active on this beautiful site in this year❤ Keep it up!