After school yesterday I humbled myself enough to go to the student services office and ask for some of their food stamp vouchers.
I felt kinda bad about it...about myself...because I worked really hard to get this job as a bartender and now I'm begging for money for food. But that's ok.
Arrived at home to find my care package from home sitting on my...
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I felt kinda bad about it...about myself...because I worked really hard to get this job as a bartender and now I'm begging for money for food. But that's ok.
Arrived at home to find my care package from home sitting on my...
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The upside to life being so sucky...is that it's already sucky.
I don't have to sit around and worry and wait for the bad thing to happen, because it already has.
And when the bad things start to pile up, the way they always do...it's no big deal, I'm already down.
In fact, I get a certain kind of satisfaction when shit gets really bad....
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I don't have to sit around and worry and wait for the bad thing to happen, because it already has.
And when the bad things start to pile up, the way they always do...it's no big deal, I'm already down.
In fact, I get a certain kind of satisfaction when shit gets really bad....
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flatblack:
I'm so pumped about this painting thing. After I get all my equipment and paint my toys, I may go steal other people's cars, paint them and then bring them back.
legionnaire:
You're tough, I'm sure you've been through worse than this, and you'll get through just fine. You've got the right attitude already, and that's about 99% of what you need to get through tough shit. I have faith in you. 
So here I am...drinking whatever is left of my alcohol supply.
I haven't had whiskey since Monday or Tuesday when I drank it all...
I tried to pawn some shit to buy some more but apparently my stuff isn't worth anything.
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I'm in a pretty weird emotional space right now.
With The Biker on his 'break' from our dating I find myself with absolutely...
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I haven't had whiskey since Monday or Tuesday when I drank it all...
I tried to pawn some shit to buy some more but apparently my stuff isn't worth anything.
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I'm in a pretty weird emotional space right now.
With The Biker on his 'break' from our dating I find myself with absolutely...
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doll_:
MESS UP YOUR FUCKIN HOUSE.
GET NAKED AND DRUNK AND DANCE FOR YOUR SELF IN THE MIRROR.
YOU ROCK AND YOU KNOW IT. THAT GIRL ISNT GONE... SHE JUST NEEDS TO BE NURTURED RIGHT NOW. INSTEAD OF YOU DOING THE NURTURING FOR EVERYONE ELSE WITH YOUR AWESOME PRESENCE. BRING IT???? YEAH... BRING IT. YOURE NOT ALONE. YOU DONT NEED A PEP TALK. YOUR FUCKIN AWESOME. EVERYONE ELSE CAN EAT SHIT.
GET NAKED AND DRUNK AND DANCE FOR YOUR SELF IN THE MIRROR.
YOU ROCK AND YOU KNOW IT. THAT GIRL ISNT GONE... SHE JUST NEEDS TO BE NURTURED RIGHT NOW. INSTEAD OF YOU DOING THE NURTURING FOR EVERYONE ELSE WITH YOUR AWESOME PRESENCE. BRING IT???? YEAH... BRING IT. YOURE NOT ALONE. YOU DONT NEED A PEP TALK. YOUR FUCKIN AWESOME. EVERYONE ELSE CAN EAT SHIT.
INSPIRATIONAL CALENDAR QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"A relationship is more of an assignment than a choice. We can walk away from the assignment, but we cannot walk away from the lessons it presents. We stay with a relationship until a lesson is learned, or we simply learn it another way."
Here's what I've been thinking about these past few, back to being single, days...
In...
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"A relationship is more of an assignment than a choice. We can walk away from the assignment, but we cannot walk away from the lessons it presents. We stay with a relationship until a lesson is learned, or we simply learn it another way."
Here's what I've been thinking about these past few, back to being single, days...
In...
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flatblack:
Me Over Here! Me! Me! I'll let ya drive the 57 if you leave cute notes for me.
shamunda:
Damn too late for me to respond...
Looks like the only way for me to be a better girlfriend...
...is to not be one at all...
Oh well, at least my house is still clean.
...is to not be one at all...
Oh well, at least my house is still clean.
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thelibra:
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doll_:
im sorry.....but isnt it strange the feeling of peace that a clean house gives you? ill be your girlfriend
ill be your girlfriendAnd...welcome to the new year...
So far it looks pretty much like the old one...
Didn't have such a great new year's celebration, but I won't go into that. Let's just say, I ended up at home alone.
But with all this time to myself, I've done some thinking about what my new year's resolutions should be. Here's what I've come up with:
1. Lose...
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So far it looks pretty much like the old one...
Didn't have such a great new year's celebration, but I won't go into that. Let's just say, I ended up at home alone.
But with all this time to myself, I've done some thinking about what my new year's resolutions should be. Here's what I've come up with:
1. Lose...
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unnecessaryz:
Happy late birthday, baby.
legionnaire:
Happy New Year, hope you can stick to the resolutions (I know I never can.)
Um...VACATION: DAYS seven and eight?
I'm no longer sure...the days have all blended together.
I know that I did get around to surrendering my New York state license and stopping by the bar to try and get my January schedule. I even put all my worldly goods into the car...but never made it to the pawn shop.
When I arrived at the bar to find...
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I'm no longer sure...the days have all blended together.
I know that I did get around to surrendering my New York state license and stopping by the bar to try and get my January schedule. I even put all my worldly goods into the car...but never made it to the pawn shop.
When I arrived at the bar to find...
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harrq:
Happy New Year I miss you we must chat !!!
Happy New Year I miss you we must chat !!!
carryavengeance:
hey...i haven't been keepin in good touch with you because im lazy 
i've been gettin tired of reading everyone's life stories, so i just been seeming like a dick lately cuz i don't ever comment on anyone's stuff anymore, but my new year's resolution is to be a better friend on my friends lists 
happy new year doll
i've been gettin tired of reading everyone's life stories, so i just been seeming like a dick lately cuz i don't ever comment on anyone's stuff anymore, but my new year's resolution is to be a better friend on my friends lists
happy new year doll
VACATION: DAY SIX
Successfully got my lazy ass off the couch yesterday and FINALLY, after about five months, got my little shitbox title transferred and registered!!! Wooo hoooo!!!!!
Now she is truly mine all mine!!!
Of course, it also cost me about $90 which REALLY puts me behind on my rent...which adds to my stress level muchly.
Returned home, and worked some of that stress...
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Successfully got my lazy ass off the couch yesterday and FINALLY, after about five months, got my little shitbox title transferred and registered!!! Wooo hoooo!!!!!
Now she is truly mine all mine!!!
Of course, it also cost me about $90 which REALLY puts me behind on my rent...which adds to my stress level muchly.
Returned home, and worked some of that stress...
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latchbeam:
I love that profile pic that say "Bring It" That's AWESOME!
aries:
If i was Madonna, i would sing you a Holliday/Birthday combo song...
VACATION: DAY FIVE
The agenda...get fucking motivated.
1. Transfer title of the shitbox.
2. Register the shitbox.
That might be all I can do for today...since both of these things are pretty involved.
So I hope to come home from these errands and clean up my house and do laundry.
I know...it's terribly exciting.
I'll save chores 3 and 4 for tomorrow.
3. Surrender my...
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The agenda...get fucking motivated.
1. Transfer title of the shitbox.
2. Register the shitbox.
That might be all I can do for today...since both of these things are pretty involved.
So I hope to come home from these errands and clean up my house and do laundry.
I know...it's terribly exciting.
I'll save chores 3 and 4 for tomorrow.
3. Surrender my...
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plasticmick:
Vacations are always short. We start out so optimistic "I have so much time..blahblahblah" but we never take procrastiation in to account. That's speaking for me anyway
Happy Birthday and Happy New Year!
Happy Birthday and Happy New Year!
irina:
Vacations always move too fast. It sucks.
VACATION: DAY 3 AND 4
After opening our presents on xmas eve...there wasn't much to do xmas morning except manage our hang overs.
The Man left to go do his family thing...
He eventually came over and picked me up to go to his uncle's house for more drinking and merry making.
His family is big and wonderful. I spent most of the night out...
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After opening our presents on xmas eve...there wasn't much to do xmas morning except manage our hang overs.
The Man left to go do his family thing...
He eventually came over and picked me up to go to his uncle's house for more drinking and merry making.
His family is big and wonderful. I spent most of the night out...
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flatblack:
Hey! I just posted about my plans for a project with my toys. I'd like your opinion on what I should do.
VACATION: DAY TWO
After spending most of my day alone and drinking here in my apartment...the man came and saved me from my self-induced misery.
He brought his gifts over, two out of three he explained. He's saved the big one for my birthday...since he knows how everyone always forgets it.
He laughed at my hiding under the covers on my couch and my tipsy...
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After spending most of my day alone and drinking here in my apartment...the man came and saved me from my self-induced misery.
He brought his gifts over, two out of three he explained. He's saved the big one for my birthday...since he knows how everyone always forgets it.
He laughed at my hiding under the covers on my couch and my tipsy...
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carryavengeance:
my xmas was pretty good too, even tho i didnt drink one drop, but still worth the while i spent with Meagan
glad you had a good xmas even tho u couldnt make it home
glad you had a good xmas even tho u couldnt make it home
VACATION: DAY ONE
After a shot of whiskey and my traditional lunch-then-nap on couch yesterday...
I awoke to more drinking, some benedryl just for an extra kick, and more napping.
Woke up sometime around 3:30 am, still laying on my couch, now fully rested...
More benedryl and more liquor...made it to bed this time...
It's hard to say if I'm really just tired or depressed....
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After a shot of whiskey and my traditional lunch-then-nap on couch yesterday...
I awoke to more drinking, some benedryl just for an extra kick, and more napping.
Woke up sometime around 3:30 am, still laying on my couch, now fully rested...
More benedryl and more liquor...made it to bed this time...
It's hard to say if I'm really just tired or depressed....
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thelibra:
Oh sweetie, you should come over and be dysfunctional with us!
You're near impossible to forget, so I wouldn't worry about that. <3 Just enjoy what you've got and keep prayin' for that miracle that'll get you back here for at least a little while. I asked God for it in church last night, so it was extra potent prayer
Merry Christmas
You're near impossible to forget, so I wouldn't worry about that. <3 Just enjoy what you've got and keep prayin' for that miracle that'll get you back here for at least a little while. I asked God for it in church last night, so it was extra potent prayer
Merry Christmas
moralitydies:
Merry Fucking Christmas
Merry Fucking Christmas
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