VACATION: DAY ONE
After a shot of whiskey and my traditional lunch-then-nap on couch yesterday...
I awoke to more drinking, some benedryl just for an extra kick, and more napping.
Woke up sometime around 3:30 am, still laying on my couch, now fully rested...
More benedryl and more liquor...made it to bed this time...
It's hard to say if I'm really just tired or depressed. Probably a whole lot of both.
Waking up at 10am this morning was such a blessing though...and I didn't even do my typical panic-i've slept through my alarm thing.
It's now 11:25am and I'm loving that I'm still in my jammies...still with the shades closed...still with nothing but empty time in front of me.
I vow to do NOTHING until at least noon...when I may or may not open my shades and let whatever light is creeping through the deep cloud cover come in. Really I'll just be watching for the miracle 40% chance of snow they keep talking about.
I've also upgraded my morning coffee to mocha...just for the occassion.
I'm feeling homesick and lonely today...everyone I know has gone home for xmas break except me.
My man is coming over later today with his gifts for me, which makes me feel bad because I couldn't even really afford to buy him the one thing I did.
My big plans for today are to clean my apartment and meditate on something positive. I promise, if I should come up with anything, I'll let y'all know. I'm pretty good at finding something, so I'd say go ahead and hold your breath.
EDITED TO ADD:
Fuck my wishlist...all I want for christmas/my birthday is not to be forgotten.
After a shot of whiskey and my traditional lunch-then-nap on couch yesterday...
I awoke to more drinking, some benedryl just for an extra kick, and more napping.
Woke up sometime around 3:30 am, still laying on my couch, now fully rested...
More benedryl and more liquor...made it to bed this time...
It's hard to say if I'm really just tired or depressed. Probably a whole lot of both.
Waking up at 10am this morning was such a blessing though...and I didn't even do my typical panic-i've slept through my alarm thing.
It's now 11:25am and I'm loving that I'm still in my jammies...still with the shades closed...still with nothing but empty time in front of me.
I vow to do NOTHING until at least noon...when I may or may not open my shades and let whatever light is creeping through the deep cloud cover come in. Really I'll just be watching for the miracle 40% chance of snow they keep talking about.
I've also upgraded my morning coffee to mocha...just for the occassion.
I'm feeling homesick and lonely today...everyone I know has gone home for xmas break except me.
My man is coming over later today with his gifts for me, which makes me feel bad because I couldn't even really afford to buy him the one thing I did.
My big plans for today are to clean my apartment and meditate on something positive. I promise, if I should come up with anything, I'll let y'all know. I'm pretty good at finding something, so I'd say go ahead and hold your breath.
EDITED TO ADD:
Fuck my wishlist...all I want for christmas/my birthday is not to be forgotten.
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You're near impossible to forget, so I wouldn't worry about that. <3 Just enjoy what you've got and keep prayin' for that miracle that'll get you back here for at least a little while. I asked God for it in church last night, so it was extra potent prayer
Merry Christmas
Merry Fucking Christmas