goodisdead

This whole "alone" thing is reall foreign to me. I'm a very social person, so being on my own is kind of unnatural. I like being around people, I like sharing experiences with them. Whether it's a show, or a gallery, or a meal, I just have a hard time being relaxed when I'm on my own. I feel like people are watching me, judging me.

But I like my solo time. I try to plan some alone time every day to just go somewhere and enjoy whatever it is I'm doing. I like walking through a mall, people watching, going to a good book store.

I think I'm going to try to go to France alone. I hope I don't back out and ask someone to come with me, unless they GENUINELY want to come for their own purposes. I mean, if I find someone who wants to tour the battlefields of World Wars past for their own reasons, maybe. But otherwise, I think I should go alone. It would be a good test, to see if I can swim on my own.

If I can go to Europe on my own...maybe I can start admitting to myself that I can live without her in my life.