There's just no justice in the world, but I'm taking it all in stride. I'm missing out on something. Something fundamental. A piece of me is missing. I want it back. I want...her...back. She's it for me. She's not perfect. Hell she's not even good. But she's mine. I'm hers. God dammit. I don't deserve to be happy if I think she's the solution. But I know I'm not complete without her. Vital organs...missing.
But it's funny. When I think of what I missed the most. The thing I want back more than anything...I want our comfort level. I want to be that comfortable with someone again. Just total and complete comfort. That's it.
I can get that with ANYONE, can't I? Eventually doesn't that happen in any relationship, good or bad? Maybe if I just wait long enough, I'll find it again.
Or is it something else? I've been wrong before about this kind of thing.
But it's funny. When I think of what I missed the most. The thing I want back more than anything...I want our comfort level. I want to be that comfortable with someone again. Just total and complete comfort. That's it.
I can get that with ANYONE, can't I? Eventually doesn't that happen in any relationship, good or bad? Maybe if I just wait long enough, I'll find it again.
Or is it something else? I've been wrong before about this kind of thing.