Doing so much better. I didnt realize how stressed out I was about the car situation. I got a nice little rental car and it looks like things are looking up. My freedom to just pack up everything in my car in go is such a part of my healthy state of mine and I seem to forgot that part while focusing on not being able to get to work and other more immediate practical concerns about not having a car.
When I was 21 my fiance cheated on me and we broke up, my mother was caught embezzling from the Human Society and arrested and my friends were almost all addicted to drugs and or pregnant and going no where. I saw that my own light was fading when I looked into the mirror. So I made a choice.
I searched inside myself for a dream anything at all and I would pursue it but my light had already dimmed enough not to have dreams anymore. But....I remembered that when I was little everyone used to joke about the fact that I said I would live in Montana one day. They had no idea where I even got that idea. I thought about it and I was always very intuitive when I was young so why not. I packed up my car and moved 5 days later. And that is where my life as I know it now started.
So I think from that day on a car always meant to me freedom. The freedom to just start over if I wanted. The freedom of always a way out as well as a way to whatever I wanted. When my car was totaled in the accident by that driver I lost that and it was that more than anything that caused my tail spinning depression and anxiety over the last two weeks.
When I was 21 my fiance cheated on me and we broke up, my mother was caught embezzling from the Human Society and arrested and my friends were almost all addicted to drugs and or pregnant and going no where. I saw that my own light was fading when I looked into the mirror. So I made a choice.
I searched inside myself for a dream anything at all and I would pursue it but my light had already dimmed enough not to have dreams anymore. But....I remembered that when I was little everyone used to joke about the fact that I said I would live in Montana one day. They had no idea where I even got that idea. I thought about it and I was always very intuitive when I was young so why not. I packed up my car and moved 5 days later. And that is where my life as I know it now started.
So I think from that day on a car always meant to me freedom. The freedom to just start over if I wanted. The freedom of always a way out as well as a way to whatever I wanted. When my car was totaled in the accident by that driver I lost that and it was that more than anything that caused my tail spinning depression and anxiety over the last two weeks.