heres something i posted elsewhere but refuses to take a hint and leave my mind at peace.
apathy is....
lethal
boring
cool
i happen to be currently in a very apathetic state of mind, i think its a natural reaction to being a liberal in america these days. actually giving a shit nowadays is like trying to hang on against a massive current, eventually you tire and let go. going with the flow is so dangerous but what can we really do to stand against an entire nation of mislead haters and political sycophants. actually there are plenty of things we can be doing but other goings-on in my life have made me generally indifferent towards the fate of the nation and the world at large. the recent stolen election wounded me badly, and the emptiness i felt in its wake made me do something i know i otherwise wouldn't have. i'll leave you with this quote so you can get an idea what that was and how it turned out.
from days of war, nights of love: crimethink for beginners...
"love transforms the world. where the lover formerly felt boredom, he now feels passion. where she was once complacent, she is excited and compelled to self-asserting action. the world which once seemed empty and tiresome becomes filled with meaning, filled with risks and rewards, with majesty and danger. life for the lover is a gift, an adventure with the highest possible stakes; every moment is memorable, heartbreaking in its fleeting beauty. when he falls in love, a man who once felt disoriented, alienated, and confused finally knows exactly what he wants. suddenly his existence makes sense to him; it becomes valuable, even glorious and noble. burning passion is an antidote that will cure the worst cases of despair and resignation."
...and when that love is destroyed, gone forever from you. then what.
apathy is....
lethal
boring
cool
i happen to be currently in a very apathetic state of mind, i think its a natural reaction to being a liberal in america these days. actually giving a shit nowadays is like trying to hang on against a massive current, eventually you tire and let go. going with the flow is so dangerous but what can we really do to stand against an entire nation of mislead haters and political sycophants. actually there are plenty of things we can be doing but other goings-on in my life have made me generally indifferent towards the fate of the nation and the world at large. the recent stolen election wounded me badly, and the emptiness i felt in its wake made me do something i know i otherwise wouldn't have. i'll leave you with this quote so you can get an idea what that was and how it turned out.
from days of war, nights of love: crimethink for beginners...
"love transforms the world. where the lover formerly felt boredom, he now feels passion. where she was once complacent, she is excited and compelled to self-asserting action. the world which once seemed empty and tiresome becomes filled with meaning, filled with risks and rewards, with majesty and danger. life for the lover is a gift, an adventure with the highest possible stakes; every moment is memorable, heartbreaking in its fleeting beauty. when he falls in love, a man who once felt disoriented, alienated, and confused finally knows exactly what he wants. suddenly his existence makes sense to him; it becomes valuable, even glorious and noble. burning passion is an antidote that will cure the worst cases of despair and resignation."
...and when that love is destroyed, gone forever from you. then what.
That is my current situation actually. Very well put i also might add. Apathy is my best friend right now, besides pot. Sometimes you need to let go of what worries and scares you the most but only for a little bit. Whilst my problems are slowly dissolving (which they always seem to do around this time of year, and come back around may) my circle of friends has taken its lead as well. Im running out of goodly people to spend my time with which makes me even more apathetic. There really is no winning in the game of life. But i have my music, I have my art, and i have love in my life. I also have you to bother now! Anywho. in regards to your dillema 3 posts ago,..
Ive decided that the girl you so much admire just isnt aware that you care for her. Not because you do not show it, but because it isnt the kind of attention she craves. And there really is no changing her mind. Its sad that there arent as many disgustingly romantic men like you out in the world. I think its sweet that you feel so deeply all the time. Thinking in other ways about the world that it seems no one else can fathom. You truly are special my friend. Dont give up on the female species... as far as im concerned, i know how you feel to always be the "friend". It really sucks sometimes but dont let it discourage you. Im slightly saddened still that you were upset over this. Only because i know your situation, not only from personal experience, but from watching other guys go through the same thing. I also happened to notice that the girl they were after wasnt even right for them.
life is a piece of shit sometimes, and other times you feel like you could die now, because it couldnt get any better.
Let your emotions flow like a tide. Its the most attractive thing a man could ever do.
Kudos,
Gina