i've come full circle since my last post. i guess when things were going good i had no motivation to write about it, but situations change. the girl and i have been hanging out a lot more this week, we've been growing closer and getting more physical. i cant remember ever feeling as good as i did friday morning, coming home from her place.
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fiendclub:
Some guys just dont learn... I dont even have anything to say to that one. Stay far away from that one mate. Ill only say it a second time.
heres something i posted elsewhere but refuses to take a hint and leave my mind at peace.
apathy is....
lethal
boring
cool
i happen to be currently in a very apathetic state of mind, i think its a natural reaction to being a liberal in america these days. actually giving a shit nowadays is like trying to hang on against a massive current, eventually you...
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apathy is....
lethal
boring
cool
i happen to be currently in a very apathetic state of mind, i think its a natural reaction to being a liberal in america these days. actually giving a shit nowadays is like trying to hang on against a massive current, eventually you...
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fiendclub:
"other goings-on in my life have made me generally indifferent towards the fate of the nation and the world at large."
That is my current situation actually. Very well put i also might add. Apathy is my best friend right now, besides pot. Sometimes you need to let go of what worries and scares you the most but only for a little bit. Whilst my problems are slowly dissolving (which they always seem to do around this time of year, and come back around may) my circle of friends has taken its lead as well. Im running out of goodly people to spend my time with which makes me even more apathetic. There really is no winning in the game of life. But i have my music, I have my art, and i have love in my life. I also have you to bother now! Anywho. in regards to your dillema 3 posts ago,..
Ive decided that the girl you so much admire just isnt aware that you care for her. Not because you do not show it, but because it isnt the kind of attention she craves. And there really is no changing her mind. Its sad that there arent as many disgustingly romantic men like you out in the world. I think its sweet that you feel so deeply all the time. Thinking in other ways about the world that it seems no one else can fathom. You truly are special my friend. Dont give up on the female species... as far as im concerned, i know how you feel to always be the "friend". It really sucks sometimes but dont let it discourage you. Im slightly saddened still that you were upset over this. Only because i know your situation, not only from personal experience, but from watching other guys go through the same thing. I also happened to notice that the girl they were after wasnt even right for them.
life is a piece of shit sometimes, and other times you feel like you could die now, because it couldnt get any better.
Let your emotions flow like a tide. Its the most attractive thing a man could ever do.
Kudos,
Gina
That is my current situation actually. Very well put i also might add. Apathy is my best friend right now, besides pot. Sometimes you need to let go of what worries and scares you the most but only for a little bit. Whilst my problems are slowly dissolving (which they always seem to do around this time of year, and come back around may) my circle of friends has taken its lead as well. Im running out of goodly people to spend my time with which makes me even more apathetic. There really is no winning in the game of life. But i have my music, I have my art, and i have love in my life. I also have you to bother now! Anywho. in regards to your dillema 3 posts ago,..
Ive decided that the girl you so much admire just isnt aware that you care for her. Not because you do not show it, but because it isnt the kind of attention she craves. And there really is no changing her mind. Its sad that there arent as many disgustingly romantic men like you out in the world. I think its sweet that you feel so deeply all the time. Thinking in other ways about the world that it seems no one else can fathom. You truly are special my friend. Dont give up on the female species... as far as im concerned, i know how you feel to always be the "friend". It really sucks sometimes but dont let it discourage you. Im slightly saddened still that you were upset over this. Only because i know your situation, not only from personal experience, but from watching other guys go through the same thing. I also happened to notice that the girl they were after wasnt even right for them.
life is a piece of shit sometimes, and other times you feel like you could die now, because it couldnt get any better.
Let your emotions flow like a tide. Its the most attractive thing a man could ever do.
Kudos,
Gina
fiendclub:
p.s. i spelled dilemma wrong 
great news: i have a friend, i didnt realize i could have friends on here until today. my first and only friend is named beatonbrat. what is this, like a friendster or facebook we pay money for? well in that case i need more friends... i'm off to browse about.
fiendclub:
Dude! Your profile pic DOES look like the paris hilton sex video! (which turned me on none.) But its cute! I read your long ass post re: the girl who is fucking your mind all up. Reminded me of myself (your situation... not the girl). If you ever wanna chat or whatever, you can hit me up, you seem particularly interesting. And not to mention your list of Music blows my brains out. Sucks you live so far away, or else id make you come over and play PnP rpg's with me. Oh well.
-Gina
p.s. i say "dude" alot. Im from Cali.
-Gina
p.s. i say "dude" alot. Im from Cali.
alright, back from the seeing garden state with the girl i dig (see left sidebar). where do i start, there was the $35 parking ticket i got in front of her place while i ducked in to smoke with her and her roommate before the show. that was a good indication of how the night would turn out. i should mention we are friends, but...
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fiendclub:
You really shouldnt smoke alone...come smoke w/ me!
its a long story and ill go into it later, but the end result is that right now this song is in my head. im beginning to realize that i have a hot date with total obliteration tonight.
extra croutons for anyone who can identify it.
i've seen broken people smiling, la-aaah
you can't buy us with your dollar bills
you can't rule the world...
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extra croutons for anyone who can identify it.
i've seen broken people smiling, la-aaah
you can't buy us with your dollar bills
you can't rule the world...
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just joined, gonna have a look around now...
brite_red_scream:
hehehe...your pic lighting reminds me of the Paris Hilton video 
deceptacon:
rightly so, in the picture shes spread eagle on the bed behind me 
but seriously...i saw that video, she sucks in the sack. jenna lewis, the survivor babe, is much more entertaining to watch, but its sad how she keeps mentioning how they absolutely have to erase that tape...
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but seriously...i saw that video, she sucks in the sack. jenna lewis, the survivor babe, is much more entertaining to watch, but its sad how she keeps mentioning how they absolutely have to erase that tape...
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