committed

So...it's official, woke this morning to find out...both my mum and I are coming back to Portland. She's divorcing my stepdad...for many reasons, but the main one being he is abusive. *cries* Yesterday he beat my puppy..Ripper..over the back with one of those steel/metal flashlights and beat him into the barn...pinning him in the corner and punching him in the head several times with his fist. How can someone be so cruel and overbaring to such a small puppy that doesn't even belong to him...I wish that I could've been able to do something physical to get him off my dog...I am so hurt and fuckin pissed off and just on my last thread of hope. He has done many other things from what my mum says...that are fuckin mindblowing and she couldn't even tell me. Ripper's back is swollen and he is head shy now...I'm taking him to the vet today to see if it's something major. Yes, all this on top of what I am already going through, is fucking uncool.....by the way...I have surgery again tomoz...hopefully nothing major...and they just screw around with my wires...(that sounds kind of kinky)....

Life is so unexpectingly overwhelming sometimes.....