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Woke up late... very, very tired today. Need to make phone calls, take out trash and recycling. Dog needs food. Gahhh. Tired. I should do meth.

You know the part where I said I was done being depressed, that now I'm just bored? Yeah, forget that. I should just go back to sleep today. My dog can do it, so can I. How I ever got myself to this place where money is all that I can think about is beyond me. All I wanted was a nice house. Now every...
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So now that I'm getting over being depressed, at least a little, I'm starting to get bored. Depression gives you something to do. Sleep, grouse, drink too much, etc. Now I'm antsy. If work would pick up a little that would be something.

Anyway, I went to a bar last night and did some drinking. There was a drunk stripper that I sorta know there...
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Dude, The Incredibles was... err, incredible. Yeah, it was good. But it's also good to remember that you are seeing a kids movie so you don't get pissed and throw popcorn at a toddler for talking.

When all else fails, it's good to remember to do the things that make you happy. Sometimes I forget. I ignore myself too. Then I get "forced" to do something, and then I feel better. I'd like to be a self rolling wheel, but it's usually when I'm forced to do it, that something gets my wheels rolling, that I feel truly happy. My most...
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Yesterday when I got off work I was so exhausted and feeling sick that I came home and passed out. I woke up at 1 am and couldn't get back to sleep until 8 this morning. Then I had to be back at work at 1 pm. Weirdly, I'm feeling pretty good, now. I'll probably pass out again in a few hours but for now...
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So many things to do today. Today is the Day! Just like every other day, it IS the day! But, you have to make time to look at naked women. Yeaaaaaaaah.

And now, a pep song. Brought to us by Rob, John and Someone, known as NoMeansNo. From the album The Day Everything Became Isolated and Destroyed, it's "Victory".


When I set out on this journey, I thought it would never end.
When I started down that road I could not see then end.
And when I took that first step I fell in so deep....
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For some reason I don't want to spell out what my job is here. But then I think no one but laine is reading this so I guess it doesn't matter. And the last few posts... well, I've been venting. Venting is good.

Anyway, today, at my job, I performed my job for a blind person. Anyone else reading this won't know why that's weird,...
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Everything is falling apart and it's liberating in some dark way. It's what you've expected to happen for years, most of your adult life. You secretly hope to be a street person in the end, to have and be nothing. You also know that won't happen. You'll come through it like you always have, just a little more jaded and self centered. You try to...
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