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Update, Monday, 10:40 - Binge Count, 5 nights. Last night and the night before were spent mostly in oblivion. Fucking lovely.

Not out of the woods yet. If anyone wants to know what happens if you drop off a waterfall, I'll tell you. What happens, in fact, is you fall straight down, down and down, and you fall farther and faster and straight into the...
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absence (in association with alcohol) makes the heart grow fonder.

| THREE OF THEM |

what were we up to there... it was over $250 wasn't it? easy work... "yeah, maybe for you..." (internal monologue's a bitch)

i refuse. i simply flat out refuse.

i'm an insecure boy.

look down at my legs, think about my chest, up the stairs my knee twists and i think about that too, skinny arms, and i wore the...
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I have a personality not unlike Jello. That is to say, that rather than describing my traits in people-descriptive terms, it's much more accurate to use those of Jello.

Example:

Bob was a nice man. His courage inspires us all. And when you go to the store with him, Bob is not only a price savvy bargain shopper, he is also the master of finding...
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Benni danced while we all gawked.

Tegan showed me around the Mall of America earlier.

Trixie played Interpol and thus gained at least one hundred and fifty points in my cool person book.

ViolentlyHappy was just an all around standup guy and gave me CocaCola to drink and may possibly have had just slightly too much to drink himself.

Roby was an absolute sweetheart and...
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you honestly WISH you were me 30 minutes ago.

no, i'm serious.


...and why? (you might ask...)


i'm not tellin'!

Can't even remember how long ago it was, but it was cold like it is now.

County Road 13, less than a mile outside of Ada, MN. Driving through at night, crossing this for the first time since


She said her kid dropped something. Three of them in the van, the middle or older one in the front with her, she looked down to pick...
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time again to go home. i hate it, but i love my family. i have to.

i'll leave it at that for now.

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the Judas set, makes me glad for a multitude of reasons.

glad like him -

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i miss someone who i'm afraid doesn't care. i should be happy right now, but i can't be as much as...
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we need more words for snow, like the eskimos have.

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i have an idea of a painting for you.

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i'm a "square peg trying to fit into a round world."

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i'm going home. i hope it distracts me, but it will more likely do the opposite and focus me in...
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update, 2:35 - 12.17.04

driving home today came very near to a collision. a truck driving with a mattress strapped in the bed, it was ahead of me. the road and town were dark, the sun had set not too long ago, and after a literal minute of driving on the highway i saw something move in the back of the truck.

i couldn't quite...
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