dear diary,
current mood: apathetic. lolol
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*sigh* things are up and down. sadly my photoshoot, which was supposed to be tomorrow, has been cancelled. shit happens.
but i was really pumped for it. hopefully i'll be able to find time in the summer to reschedule, and if its a weekend i'll need a new location... any suggestions for Toronto places?? ideas for shoots in general? i like comments.
i feel kind of.. blah. things aren't too awful, really. i mean in the grand scheme of things, i have it pretty good. but for some reason i can't seem to get a handle on myself. i'm really behind in summer courses, surprise surprise. the whole reason i'm taking these courses is because i really fucked up last semester, and right now i'm not accomplishing anything but fucking up again. behind the depression, the anxiety, the meds, and all the shit thats happened, i just feel... bored. and lonely. i can't seem to motivate myself to do anything. how does one teach themselves to care?
i am excited to work full time in july and august, though. its at a day camp, and i'm a counsellor in the horseback riding program, so at least i'll get to ride every day. i'll have a reason to get up in the morning. right now i'm just kind of stuck. and trying to push myself to do school work when there's no classes or anything really sucks.
off to do some laundry...
current mood: apathetic. lolol
...
*sigh* things are up and down. sadly my photoshoot, which was supposed to be tomorrow, has been cancelled. shit happens.
but i was really pumped for it. hopefully i'll be able to find time in the summer to reschedule, and if its a weekend i'll need a new location... any suggestions for Toronto places?? ideas for shoots in general? i like comments.
i feel kind of.. blah. things aren't too awful, really. i mean in the grand scheme of things, i have it pretty good. but for some reason i can't seem to get a handle on myself. i'm really behind in summer courses, surprise surprise. the whole reason i'm taking these courses is because i really fucked up last semester, and right now i'm not accomplishing anything but fucking up again. behind the depression, the anxiety, the meds, and all the shit thats happened, i just feel... bored. and lonely. i can't seem to motivate myself to do anything. how does one teach themselves to care?
i am excited to work full time in july and august, though. its at a day camp, and i'm a counsellor in the horseback riding program, so at least i'll get to ride every day. i'll have a reason to get up in the morning. right now i'm just kind of stuck. and trying to push myself to do school work when there's no classes or anything really sucks.
off to do some laundry...
Find something you love to do, and do it, it may take some time to find that thing- but when you do, a lot will change.
As a side note, I noticed a couple of journals ago that you replied by commenting- most people don't go back and check the journals they commented on again so the best way to respond is in their current journal entry