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how can I help when you are in SD? at least you are on this side of the country...

oh well. wish I could help.

hey there, it's sounds like you and I have a lot in common (energetic healing, nutrition, the spiritual stuff...that's rad!) Have you ever read anything by Ken Wilbur? I find him fascinating. I've been listening to his Kosmic Consciousness cds.

I am also struggling to maintain a yoga routine...I need to just do it on my own, because the gym schedule isn't workin for me.

Anyway, it sounds like you know how to have fun too, so if you'd like to come to a big 'ole beach party on the 24th for my birthday, I'd love to meet ya! Check the SDSG group boards soon for the official announcement, or you can contact me if you want me to mail you an evite......

I would love to dance in the forest, however, I'm afraid I will be too busy preparing for the parteeee. (Hey, I didn't ask to be born on Earth Day!) If you find out any details about drumming circles, tho, I'm in!

It sux when family lets their belifes over-ride their instincts of love and nurturing for thier children. my mother said that if i were christian, the things that happened to me would not have happened. i hung up on her. she has since apologized...but it was still said. take care. email if you want to talk.

be strong. truth is that which resonates as such within you. you know your truth. hold it close to you. they will either get it or they wont. it hurts to lose family members but living as less than what you are hurts more.

be a realist, like me. shit happens from time to time. it's not the first time and probably won't be the last. identify the problem, deal with it, and move on. work to avoid the same problem in the future. everybody takes their lumps in one form or another. it's all about how you deal with it.

"improvise, adapt, overcome"

it works for me anyway.

I don't know, babe. I have been here for almost 9 months, and I still do not what to replace it with.

sounds like you could use this.

It seems pretty clear that you are not in the right place as far as work is concerned. Why dont you post a resume on monster .com and see what comes your way? Even though you may feel trapped ,its in a box of your own making. My suggestion is to get the heck out of it and move on to something your more happy with.

Now you and him are back where you started(emotionally) and the circle is complete. You now have everything you need to start fresh. Use this time well! And smile more!!

you re so sweet!!

Advise forthcoming................................
Ok,
Topic 1)Make sure you tell him exactly what you want so that everyone is on the same page. Define it! Otherwise this could be interpreted as a "faze" you are going through and that you may come around soon.

Topic 2) This sounds like an issue you should not be dealing with right now. Dont do anything you both could regret.

Topic 3) Ok, you cant just brag about your new piercing and not post a pick! How is anyone able to agree with you on its sexyness without seeing it???!!

When faced with many confusing questions in your head,always look for answers in your heart.....

:What my plp had to say:
"aint life grand? yesterday was my 2year and i didnt even get lucky. WTF? at least i got stoned and passed out before i could dwell on it i totally understand your frustrations girl...its like your getting everything but, and the question is are we being too picky or are we settling? i guess the real question is what buts are we truly ok to settle with. i can settle with a hotdog without relish, but a carneasada burrito without hot sauce, hell no! so are our buts relish or hotsauce grade? this is where it gets tricky...hmmm?
More of my blabbing:
Fuck all that, I want my fries AND ketchup, my Krispy Kremes AND milk. In this consumer based society I should be able to custom order everything exactly the way I want right?!

But I wouldn't get rid of my car because I want a faster, prettier one. Because how would I ever get to the better car without the one I have to take me to work to pay for it?

Ahh, so here I sit. I will just keep pretending to myself that we are already just friends and that there won't be any breakup drama, until it happens that way. In the meantime I will work towards my self reliance.

I know I will have much more complete and meaningful 'relationships' in the future, because I will let them be what they are without limiting labels and rules. I know there are many people out there who could make me want to fuck all the time, and eventually I'll have at it. I know that if he and I are meant to be friends forever we will be. I know that if my main goal is self reliance I have many better things to do and think about than agonizing over this AGAIN.

eed out candykids in huddles on the floor? The smell of vicks vapour rub,cloves,cigs,weed and sweat in the air? People asking for light shows? Its like the 90's all over again!! LOL The fact that it ended around 3am makes it an offical oldskool, neosapiens, rave, party! Its unfortunate that I never had a good time at the Neosapiens parties. It seemed that right around the time I was getting my grove on the shit would hit the fan! The worst one was when someone called in an Anthrax scare. If you can imagine people in antiviral suits showing up at a party and putting it in quarantine?!! I had alot of fun at smaller and bigger parties though. Then of course the outdoor scene called and I never looked back. lots of memories.......

I hear ya. I was always more into the dancing, music, and vibe than I ever was into the drugs. I miss the old days. I don't even go to clubs that much any more because it just reminds me of an era that, for the most part, is gone.

Sorry to hear about your job and boyfriend troubles....
Sometimes there are just relationships where you have learned all you can and to grow as a person you need to move on. Its great that you 2 will probably stay friends though. He'll be a great person to talk to later on when you need insight into future problems.Breakups always suck but It sounds like you both will weather it. You have alot of change coming soon so I suggest you party your ass off at Primal Trance this weekend! Celebrate everything you have had, and everthing that is to come! (and party twice as hard for me since Ill be stuck in 9hr classes all weekend )
The sun is just below the horizon and a new day is dawning. Go for it!

Glad my profile makes you laugh. I am all about the hilarity, you know. One thing I've learned from reading your profile is just how little I know about trucks.

Here's what my best friend had to say about my above post:

"bisnach! dude my life consists of mostly sitting on my as at either home or work, hello this is why i joined a gym! you know i will come sit on my ass at your pad alls you got to do is say when. and you know that your my ..1. And dude when have we ever had anything in common... has that ever mattered? umm no because we appreciate eachother for who we are. this is the beauty of or friendship. its not about, "oh my god i love that song too, and wow i think hes cute too were so the same he he he" its deeper yo. you inspire me bethany, you help me see things from a different set of lenses, this is why i love you (that and your exqusite sense of style). plus your the only chick i know that thinks like a guy, which is always helpful. were different patterns but we are made of the same damn cloth! you are the best, a special blend of flavor that has been discontinued, actually just one of a kind! hence the best in my best friend. doof give me a call!"

Wow. What can I say but how fortunate am I to have such a kickass friend?

I'm glad it worked out. I have the same worries with my friends from time to time, but they always surprise me with their radness.

Hi, by the way. Found your profile randomly.