Here we gooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
I just blurted to him that I think we should break up.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I told him hey we're both sexually frustrated, but you won't have an open relationship. I told him I love him no matter what and that I just think our relationship might be better in another form. I told him I want to save our friendship and I don't want the relationship to get old and us not even want to be around each other. I told him I think we might be able to grow more without the relationship.
I don't like how his energy changed. But you know what? I'll get used to it. I started the conversation that has needed to happen for awhile. I feel like I'm strapped in for a good ride now. I have no idea what's gonna happen. I feel really relieved.
***It's the next day now. So far no conversations have happened. He kissed me on the cheek before he left this morning. I slept on the couch.
I'm not scared anymore! No matter what I'll be fine. I have awesome friends there for me, and myself.
Speaking of awesome friends, what happens when:
One of your best friends got married before he came to believe he wasn't meant to. But he still wants to keep his commitment. But you're insanely attracted to each other. FUCK, last night he put his hand on my knee and sqeeezed it as he said bye...All these pictures of 'Xanax Night' (this time a while back where we all took Xani and me him and his wife had some fun...he wasn't supposed to be participating, but that is the one part I haven't blacked out..I know those hands weren't girly hands!) flooded my head. I wanted to be like, 'bye my ass, you're taking me with you!'.
Hey, no big deal though. I just haven't given much thought to the energy that passes between us and last night I could feel him watching me and it was wierd. He's like a brother to me. A brother whose lap I want to jump into. Maybe someday when he gets divorced, eh? Or when I get his wife in bed....
We'll see what happens. The drama that is my life continues!
I got my side lip pierced! I'm in love it's so sexy!
My lip is swollen huge though. But at least it doesn't hurt! I can't wait to get the other side done now!!!!!!!!!!
I just blurted to him that I think we should break up.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I told him hey we're both sexually frustrated, but you won't have an open relationship. I told him I love him no matter what and that I just think our relationship might be better in another form. I told him I want to save our friendship and I don't want the relationship to get old and us not even want to be around each other. I told him I think we might be able to grow more without the relationship.
I don't like how his energy changed. But you know what? I'll get used to it. I started the conversation that has needed to happen for awhile. I feel like I'm strapped in for a good ride now. I have no idea what's gonna happen. I feel really relieved.
***It's the next day now. So far no conversations have happened. He kissed me on the cheek before he left this morning. I slept on the couch.
I'm not scared anymore! No matter what I'll be fine. I have awesome friends there for me, and myself.
Speaking of awesome friends, what happens when:
One of your best friends got married before he came to believe he wasn't meant to. But he still wants to keep his commitment. But you're insanely attracted to each other. FUCK, last night he put his hand on my knee and sqeeezed it as he said bye...All these pictures of 'Xanax Night' (this time a while back where we all took Xani and me him and his wife had some fun...he wasn't supposed to be participating, but that is the one part I haven't blacked out..I know those hands weren't girly hands!) flooded my head. I wanted to be like, 'bye my ass, you're taking me with you!'.
Hey, no big deal though. I just haven't given much thought to the energy that passes between us and last night I could feel him watching me and it was wierd. He's like a brother to me. A brother whose lap I want to jump into. Maybe someday when he gets divorced, eh? Or when I get his wife in bed....
We'll see what happens. The drama that is my life continues!
I got my side lip pierced! I'm in love it's so sexy!
My lip is swollen huge though. But at least it doesn't hurt! I can't wait to get the other side done now!!!!!!!!!!
Ok,
Topic 1)Make sure you tell him exactly what you want so that everyone is on the same page. Define it! Otherwise this could be interpreted as a "faze" you are going through and that you may come around soon.
Topic 2) This sounds like an issue you should not be dealing with right now. Dont do anything you both could regret.
Topic 3) Ok, you cant just brag about your new piercing and not post a pick! How is anyone able to agree with you on its sexyness without seeing it???!!