well....looks like my last day on here is monday July 11th. Do not much see any reason to continue my membership...if anyone wishes to keep in touch, email me and let me know. Otherwise, see ya and take care.... 
loe:
Why is there such a sigma on suicide? I mean if the person is wounded, sick and no hope for recovery, why not end their misery and let them finally have peace in the next life they could not find in this life? Incurable illnesses and the hell it puts the victims and their families through can be too much to bear. Why not let...
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Ok...some asked me for some of my deviant thoughts in writing. Here is something I banged >;-) out in about 2 hours....
Celestine Wagner sat cleaning one of her .357 Colt Pythons (nickel plated of course-flashier) as was her routine after doing her three times a week target practice. She usually only shot a hundred rounds per practice, but today she was preoccupied and need...
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Celestine Wagner sat cleaning one of her .357 Colt Pythons (nickel plated of course-flashier) as was her routine after doing her three times a week target practice. She usually only shot a hundred rounds per practice, but today she was preoccupied and need...
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neyrissa:
hehe thanks!!!!
ladywook:
well don't be shy, u can email me any time. sometimes venting helps.
miss chatting with u too hun
take care
*hugs*
miss chatting with u too hun
take care
*hugs*
Ok.. really quick here: Have any of you all seen Devilyn's set. In the words of Max Bealystock in "The Producers": WOW-WA-WOW-WEE-WOWY-WOW-WOW!!" (Might have misspelled his name-oh well. One of my fave movies {Gene Wilder and Zero Mostell were great together}).
Re: Devilyn-I know what I want for my birthday mmmm (smaking lips). Tasty I'm sure...
Re: Devilyn-I know what I want for my birthday mmmm (smaking lips). Tasty I'm sure...
keltdruid:
P.S.: Those EYES!!! Drool...
karalynn:
I have those same pillows. Seriously.......
Haven't upated in a while...
Went to see some friends at a local strip joint...after close, we all went to one friend's (actually, she is also my landlady) place and drank and talked, etc. It was fun and the most attention I have had in a while. Ended up at another friend's house (she works there as well). Watched Smallville re-runs and talked. Got home...
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Went to see some friends at a local strip joint...after close, we all went to one friend's (actually, she is also my landlady) place and drank and talked, etc. It was fun and the most attention I have had in a while. Ended up at another friend's house (she works there as well). Watched Smallville re-runs and talked. Got home...
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ladywook:
sounds great, hun. it's really good to see you get out of the house...nothing helps me more to forget about "certain" things than going out with other folk and enjoying myself
glad to hear from you
glad to hear from youSomeone I greatly admired "Let slip the fragile mortal coil."
Not sure if it was natural or self induced. Really does not matter.
Tried to express my condolences to the family and friends. Why do such displays fall so short and mean nothing?
Not sure if it was natural or self induced. Really does not matter.
Tried to express my condolences to the family and friends. Why do such displays fall so short and mean nothing?
karalynn:
I agree those moments are very hard to get your point across with. I remember when my aunt was dying from Pancreatic cancer. I sent her a card that it took me a good long time to write. The card actaully arrived when my mom was visiting and she said it was very well recieved.
It is so hard to express the right feelings at those times especially to someone who is grieving. Having been in those situations it is onlyl the very special attempts at conveying feeling that will be remembered. At least for me personally, other than that it is wave after wave of "I'm sorries."
It is so hard to express the right feelings at those times especially to someone who is grieving. Having been in those situations it is onlyl the very special attempts at conveying feeling that will be remembered. At least for me personally, other than that it is wave after wave of "I'm sorries."
i am thinking of leaving this site...just so many other things I could devote my time and money to. Not sure I am getting out of this what I expected/wanted. I have met some cool friends on here..was hoping I could network and get to see some really cool people here...and I have; but just not enough for me to continue spending cash on. Not...
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_catalyst_:
If you're really that disappointed with your life you should do something about it.
So how did 'all that shit' bring you heartache and all that?
So how did 'all that shit' bring you heartache and all that?
_catalyst_:
what about finding new beliefs that do make your life come together?
there is always hope my friend.
do you want to be miserable or not? that's the first question.
if you choose to be miserable then miserable you will stay, and life will bring you all kinds of miserable experiences.
but what if you realise you don't like this and you really want to be happy? what if you focus on finding better feelings and finding things to make you smile? what then if life started bringing you all kinds of wonderful things you never thought possible before?
thought=vibration
action=vibration
things=vibration
so...what if you just need to change your thoughts to change your reality?
what if the thoughts you choose to focus on--whether positive or negative, attract experiences that match?
there is always hope my friend.
do you want to be miserable or not? that's the first question.
if you choose to be miserable then miserable you will stay, and life will bring you all kinds of miserable experiences.
but what if you realise you don't like this and you really want to be happy? what if you focus on finding better feelings and finding things to make you smile? what then if life started bringing you all kinds of wonderful things you never thought possible before?
thought=vibration
action=vibration
things=vibration
so...what if you just need to change your thoughts to change your reality?
what if the thoughts you choose to focus on--whether positive or negative, attract experiences that match?
Ok...Time for an update:
As you can tell, I have not checked out. Thought things were finally looking up and I could do the things I need to get done. Was spending time w Melissa-the ex prior to my most recent ex. Thought things were going smoothly and great with us-taking it slow, as we are both cautious and wounded. She calls me last night...
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As you can tell, I have not checked out. Thought things were finally looking up and I could do the things I need to get done. Was spending time w Melissa-the ex prior to my most recent ex. Thought things were going smoothly and great with us-taking it slow, as we are both cautious and wounded. She calls me last night...
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karalynn:
Thanks for the B-day wishes. I never got so many messages so fast. 
ladywook:
Hiya hun...sorry I missed you on IM the other day...forgot to sign off when I was at work...
hope your ok
hope your ok
FUCK THIS SHIT!!! I'LL GIVE IT ONE MORE MOON CYCLE AND THEN IF THINGS HAEN'T CHANGED, I'M OUT OF HERE. SEE YOU ALL NEXT LIFE. I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.
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karalynn:
Sorry I haven't been corresponding lately. How have you been?
neyrissa:
...maybe...
Been a while since I updated. new things are going on...Spending quality time with Lynn. She is the ex I was living with when I met and started dating the passive-aggressive-bi-polar bitch-alcoholic. Things are great. She is as awesome as ever and I see that we both needed to spend time working on things until we were ready. Taking it nice and slow...but good. I...
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lillithvain:
Sitting at home updating and wanted to say hello to you!
lillithvain:
today is gonna be the day when they throw it all back to you...by now you shoulda somehow realized what you gotta do....
and yeah....cause I feel like dancing like a
and yeah....cause I feel like dancing like a
UGH!!! I am so sad. I hate my life. I hate the job I have to prostitute myself out to. I hate the New Year already.
Had a friend over for New Year's and she was so depressed. Went to another friend's house. That was fun, but came home and the depressed friend ended up staying the night. Up until 4am. Then NY's day I...
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Had a friend over for New Year's and she was so depressed. Went to another friend's house. That was fun, but came home and the depressed friend ended up staying the night. Up until 4am. Then NY's day I...
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laurannahidabing:
Lemme tell ya, the holidays always suck for me! Next year Buy nothing christmas and no new years. Don't you hate the fact that your life is run by time? I don't understand why we celebrate such occassions 
karalynn:
Happy Weekend Wishes.
xoxo
xoxo
I HATE fucking New Year's!! Work was over booked, so they told me to go home. Was wanting to work to keep my mind off of things. Oh well...
New Year's Eve was when SHE and I got together for the first time, six years ago today. She invited me over then and we were a couple from then on out. Sigh.
Here's to hoping...
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New Year's Eve was when SHE and I got together for the first time, six years ago today. She invited me over then and we were a couple from then on out. Sigh.
Here's to hoping...
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susannahjoy:
damn holidays. i hate them. hopefully yours gets better!!! is there anything that you've been putting off that you can do? that usually makes me feel better.
laurannahidabing:
The only way to make the New Year better is on your own. My holidays went badly as well. I feel that the stress and pressure of it all brings out the worst in people.
Next year... Buy nothing christmas..... New Years with my best friend, and the resolution of PARTYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYing.
Next year... Buy nothing christmas..... New Years with my best friend, and the resolution of PARTYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYing.