trilobyte

motivation and messing with one's potential are dangerous things. i say go for the distraction, only good things, immediate pleasure, can come from that.
have a wicked weekend!

Amen.

i think you could totally pull off the bacon band-aids.

i also have potato and cheese pierogies in my freezer, but can never figure out quite how to prepare them or what to eat them with...

Absolute the world is what you make of it. Granted, we're all thrown tragedies and challenges our way. But who we are as people is definined by how we deal with those situations.

You got nothin? I don't believe you. You got the NIN single? You got rad headphones?

ah, but take comfort in the fact that when one door closes, another most certainly opens.

offended? silly boy
i got nuttin but luv for ya

That's what I keep asking.

If I tell you, wouldn't it inherently invalidate that suggestion?

Then we go bowling...

Ah, I wondered if that was the case.

I feel unaccomplished--I didn't get any academic accolades, apparently.

let's just pray we dont end up with pix of me in a tub with rubber duckies instead

i'm workin on tryin to get a week in june around that very time

Exactly...ah, well. I'll figure it out if I can. If not...perhaps my subconscious will work it out on its own.

So we should continue to allow people to spread misinformation in order to get people to join their cult?
I just get annoyed when people start spouting this gobbeldy gook at me to give reasons for their actions.
I do know some of the science and the fact is the real science is mindblowing without adding in a lot of nonsense.
They are basically saying "think positive" in a really roundabout and fallaciously supported way.
the funny thing is the people who I know who support it the most are all alreadyoutside the box thinkers.
They don't need Ramtha's go ahead. Fuck that shit.

How about professing your undead love.

damn you, first you bring upon the apocolypse in LA and now you must spread your evil in Nevada? Does the Trilobyte have no mercy?

Truth be told though, you have a run for your money in that place...evil may have conquered already

Okay. That makes more sense.

I started school at the normal age, realized I didn't know what I wanted to do, worked in various jobs until I thought I DID know (my most recent job, which I had for four years), and went back to school. As I was finishing, I realized I hated editing and hated English classes even more. I could have learned all of this from simply reading and analyzing and saved $25,000. Of course, I don't consider the education invaluable -- I was exposed to books I may not have read, normally -- but it does feel a little strange to be 28 and realize I've been on the wrong path.

Still, this means I just need to hop onto a different path. I've wanted to work in medicine ever since I was in high school, but I never thought I had the brain for it (I sold myself short, like most teenagers). As I went through my twenties, that conviction that I wanted to do medicine kept surging through me, to the point I explored career options and classes last summer. I've worked in medical offices before and like the hospital setting, so now I need to really explore it. I'm going to talk to different people who are nurses and respiratory therapists while I'm checking into schools.

The other draw is that the field for respiratory therapists and nurses is WIDE OPEN. They are BEGGING for people, in every hospital, in every city, in every state. The pay is twice what I'd make as an editor, the schedule is funky (which I prefer, actually), and did I mention the demand? Yeah. The demand is a big draw, coupled with my love of helping people, working with people, and feeling like I'm actually DOING something.

An English degree doesn't make me feel like I've truly learned anything I couldn't have learned on my own. I want to be trained in something. I want to really use my brain and feel like I've accomplished something. I crave a true challenge. Writing about the psychological undertones in "Hamlet" doesn't make me feel that way -- sure, it's satisfying, but it doesn't make me feel exuberant about overcoming a tough challenge. My brain needs exercise to stay happy.

Learning how to operate a new machine that will help someone breathe and learning more about the body will do that for me. I'll have the challenge of operating something correctly, learning what it does, learning how it helps someone, etc. Also, there's that whole "making someone better" challenge. I've always loved my human anatomy and physiology classes, so now I just want to take a few initial courses to see if it's a wise decision. If not, I can use those skills to get a job in a medical office.

(Wow... that was quite the novel... )

[Edited on Apr 21, 2005 1:51PM]

Oh, and as for your situation, it's hard to tell. I can't really say much because it's so very hard for me to trust people. I'm always looking for the games, convinced everyone plays them. I'm extremely honest and don't do that, so it crushes me when I realize someone else isn't being honest. Is it really so much to ask?

Anyway, I don't know her, so I can't really say. The only person who knows for sure is her, so you either trust her and keep going with it or trust your instincts and get out.

And that, basically, sums up your journal entry, so as you can see, I'm not much help.

Hi sweetie! (Cough! thread hijacker!)
I'll need directions to your party...if you please
I'm still going to the ren. even if no one else comes...cause i'm that self assured and i already made the plans.

Your party still sounds very tempting, though...wqould you drop me a note in the ole e-mail ?

Thanks much!
L, Wyn

Hey, are you still in L.A. or elsewhere, now?