Did a good deed today. Friend wanted to come up and see me, We woud have ended up in bed, we both knew it; but she had a boyfriend. So I told her not to come see me despite wanting hto see her so much. I thought of this guys she was with, and how I woudl hope that no one would ever do that...
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You know, it's funny how when you are at your last string on the subject of human relations, someone comes to you for assistance. And you don't want to turn them away, because they themselves hang by a string; so you sum up all your faith and hope that you've put away and try to rekindle it in the service of another person. Then you...
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You ever get to that point where you don't even want to bother trying to meet people. Like every person you meet is just more shite than the last and you just start snearing at people when they greet you. I hate that. I wish I could still have all the hope I had a few years ago, but I'm losing it. Now, I keep...
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I tell you...there is one thing a man can do that a women cannot. I don't mean this in any kind of sexist way. A man can grown a beard...and let me tell you, sometimes that is divine. Now I'm not saying I would like women more if they could grow beards, far from it. But to grow a beard, to alter your appearance like...
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kosomot:
Piss on a wall standing up.
Doom is on his way. It's funny how you can set things in motion, knowing the eventual results, and still do it. Its like you almost don't believe it because you can't actually tangibly touch the doom...but then you do it, and everything is in motion. Then all you can do is wait and prepare. Prepare for it, be ready, look for opportunities to cheat...
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liquid29:
The trick is not to run, or hide, or try to cheat it. You sit and you wait it out. It's not easy, it's not fun, it's not anything short of Room 101. That's the worst part, too. It's yours, only yours, shaped by you and the experiences that have led to it. No one else can really help, they can only offer small ways to build that singular wall that only you can hold. Doom is terrible and strong, but impatient. It flickers in the wind like a firefly, here and gone again before it has registered in your eye. The real secret is to be able to withstand the brightness of that painful light. However brief it really is, it will seem like an eternity.
Tired.
I am the driver. I drive everywhere for everyone.
I guess that I like it, but sometimes I think I forget myself in it. Sitting there in that car, driving for hours by myself, through the night, music loud, I forget that I am anyone beyond the mind of a moving machine.
You know that moment, when the road is coming at you, and...
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I am the driver. I drive everywhere for everyone.
I guess that I like it, but sometimes I think I forget myself in it. Sitting there in that car, driving for hours by myself, through the night, music loud, I forget that I am anyone beyond the mind of a moving machine.
You know that moment, when the road is coming at you, and...
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...I suppose there isn't really a point so much as time to waste until you don't have to do anything anymore. If so, then life is a galatic test of patience...
There is something to be said of a good shoulder bag, a list of things to do, and a comfortable pair of shoes. At times, the simple feeling of use can be nearly as good as the love. But only nearly.
miss_magenta:
i'm not much for birthdays and you may not be either... but i hope you had a great one my friend.
The second book is always harder than the first one.Most writers never get past the first one. They finish that first book and it's almost as if they expect the world to just burst into song as they lay that last letter down on the finished copy of their book. But nothing happens. So they start sending the book out and get repeatedly walled by...
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Should life be beautiful? I mean there's the myth of life being sweet and nice and everyone being who they want to be but no one actually lives that way. And when you try to, others laugh and bully you down. "Live beautifully! Are you fucking crazy. Get to work and sell your soul already." It's what it feels like for christ sake.
But only...
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I am the black god of the sun.........I am the black god of the sun....I am your morning sky, I am the trees' sky, the shining sea, the everything, the black god of the sun 
liquid29:
I'll give ya a black god of the sun...
rameshacklee:
Should life be beautiful? I mean there's the myth of life being sweet and nice and everyone being who they want to be but no one actually lives that way. And when you try to, others laugh and bully you down. "Live beautifully! Are you fucking crazy. Get to work and sell your soul already." It's what it feels like for christ sake.
But only those who have challenged life and really tried for what they wanted have ended up happy, ended with a beautiful life. Sometimes that beauty is hard, sometimes it hurts, but I would rather live as I am than a life that is set forth for me. In that sense, how much of my actions are my own and to what degree am I just following out the psychology sets society has worked into my system.
Too much psychology, too much philosophy, too much reading. I worry sometimes that at the end of this all I'm going to be so weird and so unable to understand normal people. But...in trying to really be yourself, you have to accept that you are seperate and possibly very far from society's lines. Babbling again.
But only those who have challenged life and really tried for what they wanted have ended up happy, ended with a beautiful life. Sometimes that beauty is hard, sometimes it hurts, but I would rather live as I am than a life that is set forth for me. In that sense, how much of my actions are my own and to what degree am I just following out the psychology sets society has worked into my system.
Too much psychology, too much philosophy, too much reading. I worry sometimes that at the end of this all I'm going to be so weird and so unable to understand normal people. But...in trying to really be yourself, you have to accept that you are seperate and possibly very far from society's lines. Babbling again.
"There's cracks in this armrest," Rameshacklee said, rubbing his elbow across the now blemished vinyl of the armrest.
"Should have gotten it in leather," Delancie said, still looking out the window. Rameshacklee poked at the two cracks for a few moments then groaned.
"Shit," he said, "it's enough to make you want to swear off chairs." At this he expected a witty reply from his...
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"Should have gotten it in leather," Delancie said, still looking out the window. Rameshacklee poked at the two cracks for a few moments then groaned.
"Shit," he said, "it's enough to make you want to swear off chairs." At this he expected a witty reply from his...
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[Edited on Apr 29, 2005 10:57PM]