ok so drunk blog posts are fun(see previous lol)
anyways...having our christmas party here today im excited. still need to get ahold of a few people. but it will be good.
i have hiccups.
after the whole matt thing happened when i got home i have been having some issues having pannick attacks its really shitty i had to take medicine and i have been...
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anyways...having our christmas party here today im excited. still need to get ahold of a few people. but it will be good.
i have hiccups.
after the whole matt thing happened when i got home i have been having some issues having pannick attacks its really shitty i had to take medicine and i have been...
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i am sho drunkx
i went1 to the bar and idrank a lotshes.
yes,
andi found out htings and i feel sad but i am glad to be home and i mis people in cali too. but i dot now what i want. i do a lotta crapy and unthoughtful things but i am not as bad as some peopel andi need to not beat...
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i went1 to the bar and idrank a lotshes.
yes,
andi found out htings and i feel sad but i am glad to be home and i mis people in cali too. but i dot now what i want. i do a lotta crapy and unthoughtful things but i am not as bad as some peopel andi need to not beat...
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joshxcor:
You are silly. 
We miss you too!
We miss you too!
shanni:
oh man, i can imagine trhe tough times your going through (couldnt help but notice your comment on Freddys blog-it broke my heart)
i dont know you but ive kinda been in similar situationa nd i jus want you to know that if you wanted to talk im down, seeing as i have no life lol
But either way, even if you just ignore this comment-keep a smile on that pretty ass face! Beauty is what runs the world hahaha and you def have a large amount of it so keep the shit rollin muh darlin. You seem too sweet also to be sad =(
males suck=/
but yea, hope you arent snowed in lol. Im sooo bundled up right now
-Shani
i dont know you but ive kinda been in similar situationa nd i jus want you to know that if you wanted to talk im down, seeing as i have no life lol
But either way, even if you just ignore this comment-keep a smile on that pretty ass face! Beauty is what runs the world hahaha and you def have a large amount of it so keep the shit rollin muh darlin. You seem too sweet also to be sad =(
males suck=/
but yea, hope you arent snowed in lol. Im sooo bundled up right now
-Shani
sigh*
anyways....things are going good. ben hanging out with my friends and what such. i dont wanna leave yet
but i been having so much fun it seems time is flying by like crazy.
seeing my nephew is the ebst gift i could ask for. he is so god damn adorable.
my sister makes me laugh cos i never seen her this happy.
i still...
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anyways....things are going good. ben hanging out with my friends and what such. i dont wanna leave yet
but i been having so much fun it seems time is flying by like crazy.
seeing my nephew is the ebst gift i could ask for. he is so god damn adorable.
my sister makes me laugh cos i never seen her this happy.
i still...
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triplegold:
so your leaving
psylentmike:
That's all you really can do. Just cut those people and their shit out as soon as they start to bring you down.
Good to see you're doing better.
Merry Almost Christmas.
Good to see you're doing better.
Merry Almost Christmas.
there is no point in being angry anymore....
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psylentmike:
Hope you're doing better today. :\
joshxcor:
Lame.
Don't cry.
You'll be fine.
I'm sorry....people suck.
My couch is super comfy whenever you need it by the way.
Don't cry.
You'll be fine.
I'm sorry....people suck.
My couch is super comfy whenever you need it by the way.
i made it home(back in MOSHIGAN)...i drank too much last night.
i knew this was gonna happen.
and it prolly wont be the last time this week either...sigh*
yup.
thats all i got.
i went out with an old friend last night. it was....fun i drunk dialed a lotta people...if u were one of them. i am sorry. ha.
or not.
i miss this fucking...
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i knew this was gonna happen.
and it prolly wont be the last time this week either...sigh*
yup.
thats all i got.
i went out with an old friend last night. it was....fun
i drunk dialed a lotta people...if u were one of them. i am sorry. ha.or not.
i miss this fucking...
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merkury:
Sweet! How long you gonna be in michigan for?
Sweet! How long you gonna be in michigan for? 
laponne:
call me anytime
well....im on my way home from san d via train...(barf). 9 more hrs wasted traveling.
going home just to get ready to leave again.
i am going home. i couldnt be happier.
going home just to get ready to leave again.
i am going home. i couldnt be happier.
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brittymon:
thanks for the add 
clio:
that whole festival was so ridiculously good 
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antipunk:
"we all need a place we are wanted to feel whole."
What if no one desires us anywhere?
What if we could not make anyone desire us?
Then what? Should we commit suicide?
Should we kill the gift of experiencing life because others did not want us?
Or worse, should we live miserably because we were undesired?
Scolding the brilliance of light, cursing the beauty of a rose, damning the waves on a beach...rejecting beauty because we could not be wanted?
Should we not feel whole experiencing these places?
Should we really place our feelings on the reliance of others?
People aren't perfect, they will fail to do for us as we desire.
What then remorse, lament and torment?
What reason should we have to sacrifice our happiness should none feel to give it to us?
Life is joy, misery is pain, love is empty, death is relief, sanity is destruction and money is colorful.
Addiction is absolution.
I can't save you. I won't placate your cries for help with empty words.
Truth is viciousness in blood, retching the mind free from love. It kills without seeing our hands bloodied up.
We scream in revolt or pass softly into its arms giving up. Some will fight but none can win.
Come hell or high water we are all freed from misery one way or another.
For you save yourself.
Imagine the results of your dilemma intently.
You learn truth in the most turbulent of times.
This moment in your life you'll learn what you truly value and what really matters.
What ever you decide...
give everything you've got to getting what you want or you'll regret.
The mind is a palace awaiting completion. You are the architect and know how best to build it.
Pray for whatever you desire, courage, direction, faith, love, peace and it will be so. If you build your life incorrectly, to your subconscious plans, only then will you find that you fail. In this have faith that all actions are for your benefit, whether they appear bad or good.
Let go of expectations, let go of desire or struggle to keep them. Peace will come one day and you will release them, for they are not yours to hold.
It is not your burden in life to be burdened through life. You have the precious Now it needs you desperately. It is going to die without your help. The help that only your love can give it. Keep to it, provide it tender care. It is alive and needs you for it to thrive into something wonderfully breathtaking! Without you it will wither up and decay. The now is alive and every moment is its beautiful blossom. Let us tend with the care of gardeners to our lives cultivating good will, pruning unwanted growths and admiring each aspect with intent observation. Oh how wonderful the colors are, changing, fading clashing and blending! How intoxicating the sound is; sweet, sincere and enthralling, I could get lost within it! Oh what a sensation touch is, soft, hard, fast, smooth, I love it! The bliss of taste and the desire of smell there is no substitute!
What a magnificent gardener you are.
What if no one desires us anywhere?
What if we could not make anyone desire us?
Then what? Should we commit suicide?
Should we kill the gift of experiencing life because others did not want us?
Or worse, should we live miserably because we were undesired?
Scolding the brilliance of light, cursing the beauty of a rose, damning the waves on a beach...rejecting beauty because we could not be wanted?
Should we not feel whole experiencing these places?
Should we really place our feelings on the reliance of others?
People aren't perfect, they will fail to do for us as we desire.
What then remorse, lament and torment?
What reason should we have to sacrifice our happiness should none feel to give it to us?
Life is joy, misery is pain, love is empty, death is relief, sanity is destruction and money is colorful.
Addiction is absolution.
I can't save you. I won't placate your cries for help with empty words.
Truth is viciousness in blood, retching the mind free from love. It kills without seeing our hands bloodied up.
We scream in revolt or pass softly into its arms giving up. Some will fight but none can win.
Come hell or high water we are all freed from misery one way or another.
For you save yourself.
Imagine the results of your dilemma intently.
You learn truth in the most turbulent of times.
This moment in your life you'll learn what you truly value and what really matters.
What ever you decide...
give everything you've got to getting what you want or you'll regret.
The mind is a palace awaiting completion. You are the architect and know how best to build it.
Pray for whatever you desire, courage, direction, faith, love, peace and it will be so. If you build your life incorrectly, to your subconscious plans, only then will you find that you fail. In this have faith that all actions are for your benefit, whether they appear bad or good.
Let go of expectations, let go of desire or struggle to keep them. Peace will come one day and you will release them, for they are not yours to hold.
It is not your burden in life to be burdened through life. You have the precious Now it needs you desperately. It is going to die without your help. The help that only your love can give it. Keep to it, provide it tender care. It is alive and needs you for it to thrive into something wonderfully breathtaking! Without you it will wither up and decay. The now is alive and every moment is its beautiful blossom. Let us tend with the care of gardeners to our lives cultivating good will, pruning unwanted growths and admiring each aspect with intent observation. Oh how wonderful the colors are, changing, fading clashing and blending! How intoxicating the sound is; sweet, sincere and enthralling, I could get lost within it! Oh what a sensation touch is, soft, hard, fast, smooth, I love it! The bliss of taste and the desire of smell there is no substitute!
What a magnificent gardener you are.
ineedtocomeup:
I doooos need ur number dude. Shoot it hottie!!!
well folks...ill be in san diego till monday. fun times.
ill be up to la a few times between for some stuff.
then i leave on the 12th for michigan.
yup.
lifes just one big adventure...atleast ill have a min between san d and mi to do laundry....lol...
yea
XO
ill be up to la a few times between for some stuff.
then i leave on the 12th for michigan.
yup.
lifes just one big adventure...atleast ill have a min between san d and mi to do laundry....lol...
yea
XO
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kaise17:
laundry...darn i might wanna do that...i'm not sure where most of my clothes is right now. darn underwear gnomes
5729d:
Got some family in SD. They could totally show you where all the old people hang out.
The 12th!
The 12th!
tommorrow i will be in la around 6 or 7. my friend cant pick me up till around 11 at night. i need someone to hang out with. if anyone wants to put up with me for a few hrs id appreciate it...i dont know LA at all. and yea....
if anyone doesnt mind or whatever please PM me.....
if anyone doesnt mind or whatever please PM me.....
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nymph:
damn i wish I lived in LA...
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elusive:
....and thanks for that!
Enjoy your world tour, rock star!
Enjoy your world tour, rock star!
xfinitex:
Sweet holy goodness. How are things?
ohhh
this is my dream
and i- i hold it so-oooh i dont know
that i am letting go
maybe i did
a year or two ago
and its time to let go of me...
you never got the best of me
and...
what you couldnt see....
all the things i ever said ohhh
i am sorry
but i am still not half way
and...
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this is my dream
and i- i hold it so-oooh i dont know
that i am letting go
maybe i did
a year or two ago
and its time to let go of me...
you never got the best of me
and...
what you couldnt see....
all the things i ever said ohhh
i am sorry
but i am still not half way
and...
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vigor:
thats how i roll
man you have nothing
cool im still waiting for
a awsome offer ..besides
thos hats arent hard to find
but i like your excuse to flirt
man you have nothing
cool im still waiting for
a awsome offer ..besides
thos hats arent hard to find
but i like your excuse to flirt
vigor:
well you know where i live
so coming and get it
so coming and get it
i didnt get to bed till 830 this morning and i am sick. i spent half the night fighting with someone i decided i want nothing to do with. yea...you know who you are and i can make undirected immature references also in my public blog for all to see. i have been avoiding this kind of drama and bs for a month now and...
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smokebombhill:
Well, do come back soon! 
destijl4:
I saw what they wrote. That person really should have been smarter, but you shouldn't run away and hide when you have plenty of friends. As well, you are the strong one, not them... You have more control of your own life than you think and in my opinion everyone on here should respect that. (which for the most part I think everyone does).. rest up.
But then again, being early 20's has certain other advantages...