And the one in my spine is bigger too. I cannot afford to do anything about it. It's like I have to sit on the train track and watch the train hit me.

It's like 1.5" now. I'm waking up with swollen eyelids, head pressure, trigeminal neuralgia pains, stiff neck, partial paralysis and of course, deafness and tinnitus.

SO fun.... I hate this country.

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jozsef:
Hey sweetie, that's obviously not good. A friend of mine has trigeminal neuralgia so I know what it is. I don't know where you can go from here but don't just sit on those tracks. You tick all the boxes for being an awesome person and you're a beauty on top of that. If there is any room for compassion or whatever in some decent hospital, you are going to get people on your side and they will take you. When our parents suck at their job of raising us in a healthy environment, we complain but at the same time, we have no experience of what a better situation looks like. The fact is, you can expect tremendous kindness from any civilized person. When I said marry a Canadian or really any guy from almost anywhere but the fucked up US, I wasn't kidding. Real countries have health care that isn't a damned business. You're a treasure and any sane person will see that right away and jump at the chance to help you. ❤️
fredhincanada:
I agree with @jozsef, you can't just sit on those tracks waiting for the train.  You are such an amazing person and so many people love you.  There is a path through this.  It just has to be found.  ❤
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olgakulaga:
So beautiful
sdawg74:
Very beautiful 🩷
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sorcerer333:
Sucks when that happens. I just got up, myself. Reach out if you wanna talk.
jozsef:
Sleeping all day when you feel lousy seems like not a bad thing. Except being up all night might not be fun, I suppose. Bless you for being in touch. I really appreciate knowing how you are. We're here for you if there's anything we can provide. By we, I mean me and the other people here who have the intelligence to appreciate what a treasure you are. ❤️
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My poor little booby decided to pounce a hornet today on the porch this time....... 😭. She'll never learn you don't pounce stingy boys 😖. He little foot is so swollen. I had to drug her up on benadryl which doesn't thrill me very much.... She's so upset 😭😭😭


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pyromethious:
IDK, stoned kitty can be fun to watch. :p
skisby:
Ouch! 🍀 😘
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skisby:
I find journaling often helps, the act of writing it out can be cathartic. https://hbr.org/2021/07/writing-can-help-us-heal-from-trauma   Sometimes it’s not immediately helpful but looking back can show how much you’ve progressed.  When you realize what you’ve gone through the last 2-3 years, there’s a lot to make sense of. 🤗 🍀
skisby:
Sorry, working on not always being the “fixer”…& failing!
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If the sun don't shine on me today....

And if the subways flood and bridges break

Will you lay yourself down and dig your grave

Or will you rail against the dying day?

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godfather:
Splendid you
hisnameisaliv3:
Never settle for anything less than your best effort and the sun will smile on dying days drying rushing rivers while bridges lay in lonely places without reason.
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fredhincanada:
Goodness that is sexy! ❤️
jozsef:
It's always a joy to see you, and your smile is an added delight!