mavericka

News Years was the best ever. Christopher Robin showed up with his hair all fluffy and kinda scruffy like i love. He sounded sad when he had talked about how he had to work the day after new years because new years is the one day he really goes all out so I brought a few drinks and a J for him thinking it was...
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emo sg song (its a song not a poem flow is different)

I wish I wasn't emo
I wish that the stars didn't shine so bright
I must hide from their brilliance
and sometimes the closet gets real tight
So I log onto sg and somehow it just feels right

Its so hard so hard to find something that rhymes with angst
so I go...
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i had a great time eating out with my friends from SG. All my friends in my hometown think its wierd i hang out with them, they think I'm gonna have a threesome with them. everyone has dirty minds. I have nothing in common with my country bumpkin friends. I'd go crazy if i didn't have my sg friends to talk to.

so like today i got a new tattoo, its a white rabbit on the side of my calf. Then I ended up having to be around this person that went insane on me one day, i swear i didn't touch her husband, and i had to pretend nothing had happened and i tried to be really nice and sympathetic to her new problems and interested...
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Its so cold here. I got the job as the stage manager for the play so that should keep me busy, My cuddle buddy sent me sweet text messages today he wants to do something new years that makes me so happy

all i've wanted to do today is sleep. I had a good weekend with my cuddlebuddy. had to go to the dentist today. not much else going on.

sometimes sleeping is more exhausting than being awake. one twisted dream after another messing with my head. who are those people i fuck in my dreams will we ever meet? going to bed cold and waking up sweaty. going places i've run from.

Every moment is so raw
as my heart begins to thaw
I don't know what to do
will I always want you?

I covet you
and not deep inside
but all over
and with pride
our sins together, are here to stay
niether tears nor blood can wash them away
I'll keep them near and dear and always true
because thats all I'll ever have of you.

There is only Now
Your hand touching mine
We can hide in the dark
And make our own sun shine
And then you can have your forever
And I'll have what is mine
Because Now we are forgiven
For our moment in time

Damn so many clubs on here require a journal. I'd rather be mysterious. It's not like I have much to say anyway. Hmmm well I've decided God likes me bad. I always seem to get rewarded when I do something wild and crazy. Lots of luck, lots of grace. I try so hard all the time to be good and I'm not good at it...
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