Because I fly
I laugh more than other men
I look up an see more than they,
I know how the clouds feel,
What it's like to have the blue in my lap,
to look down on birds,
to feel freedom in a thing called the stick…

who but I can slice between God's billowed legs,
and feel then laugh and crash with...
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pimenta:
cool <3
freyahz:
Great

Dates, romance, relationships, on the other hand…

My experience with real dating is short and very disappointing; I can’t say I dated before October 2015, and not a lot since then, mainly because the whole exercise is so disagreeable to someone like me who is looking for a good time, literally and not as a euphemism.

Relationships before had to wait until the lady...
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I have now realized why I don’t like the whole construct of dating, romance, love, relationships, etc.

(Well, apart from the entitlement, the treatment of the other person like property, the irrational and wholly unfulfillable expectations)

The simple reason is… there is so much arbitrariness in it! So much falsehood and pretense!

Right after my last date (and it will be the last, ever...
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8treasurez:
Well, the system teaches us to view sex as a medium of exchange and an instrument of power, and many people find it hard to decouple sex from its systemic meaning and handle it as another expression of affection towards a friend...
8treasurez:
And, yes, being sincere and straightforward would make things much easier for some of us... but it would deprive the conventionals of their cherished complications, and they are a much larger bunch =D 

Well, I finally discovered WHY exactly I am so bad at dating and, generally, love/romance/hookups.

I default to safe. Or, in engineering terms, fail safe.

What this means, generally, is not that I always look for the safe alternative; it means that when I cannot calculate a risk, I return to the safest course of action, which is, normally, to do nothing, or...
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Things keep happening that make me think ... somehow I have been living in a strange, totally surrealistic peyote dream since 2008. Ever since I abandoned the conventional relationship track (aka got divorced), things just happen in a completely weird cascade of crazy.

The latest thing my life has given me the chance of (re)living is a twisted, totally unsought, totally out there take on...
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avrora:
It is not easy, but I hope you can save best you had from this, and save the experience. I never had a long distance relationships because I think it is just impossible. But reading your words make me feel what you feel, i think
8treasurez:
This was the first, and it will be the last. It was not an experience I want to repeat... the whole thing has me very confused, it's the only area in my life that hasn't moved forward or had any improvement in decades and I've run out of ideas about what to do

Following @camy 's excellent little Fragebogen...

📏height: 6 ft - 183 cm

⏳age: Paleozoic =D (45)

👀 eye color: Hm. Sometimes blue, sometimes green, sometimes gray. Depends on what I wear.

♒️ sign: Born on 4 Ixcuintli, under the lordship of Mictlantecutli, the Lord of the Dead. Cem Anáhuac, Tenochca Tlalpan!

💁 hair color: Not much when it's cut to a mere buzz

🎲 favorite thing: Flying ^_^

🎨 favorite...
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nebula:
Thank you for sharing :)
sleuth:
Amon Amarth is the shit! ☺ 

Ever had the opposite of a nightmare? A dream so vivid, in which you feel so good, that you wish it would never end?

A dream from which you awaken with the feeling of her skin on your lips, and the sound of her voice still ringing in your ears...

Damn cold winter. Damn oxytocin. Damn my fertile imagination.

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So, what does one have to do to be able to cuddle and be besties w/o suddenly being asked why don't I plan for our whole life together?

My life is quite unstable at the moment; work is brutal (and will be more so, I'm transitioning from local to national role), I want to change career paths in 5 years to flying...
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Looks like fun... let's do this, like @rambo & @missy intended ^_^

1. I was legally blind in one eye for about 2 years, before my LASIK

2. I have a CIA case number since I was 17, because of my English teacher and her funny friends; this means second revision EVERY time I go to the USA =D

3. Despite my eye, I...
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Once again, I am left with that sensation: futility, uselessness.

I hurt someone who I didn't even want to hurt, and all for nothing. One or two shared moments, some hormones, some shared oxytocin, and suddenly I'm the bad guy again, the one who "knows how to hurt", the one who's to blame for everything, the one who callously won't heed...
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