Wednesday Sep 25, 2013

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It is now clear. To women, I can be friend, co-worker, acquaintance... everything that does not involve sexual attraction. As soon as I am seen, I seem to emit some kind of miasma that precludes any kind of consideration as a sexual pertner, and only those that are so desperate to either fulfill their Disney-mandated role or have any sort of company can overcome this...
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hitomy:

thank u :3

8treasurez:

No prob ^_^ It was great to read you achieved your goal!

Thursday Aug 29, 2013

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Everything in this world is but a marionette show. Thus we use the word gen.

In order not to throw away one's life, and achieve usefulness, times of great humiliation must be endured. Such is the Way.

- from the Hagakure

Wednesday Aug 28, 2013

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Another of these weird 270-degree turns that shape my life in the last 5 years. From totally alone to full weekend agenda. From no luck to re-encountering old friends and just maybe starting a new friendship, "with benefits" or without. On top of that, the luck of finding a good therapist on the first try. I'll never get used to the chaos, but I...
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Wednesday Aug 21, 2013

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-Hi, my name's X, I saw you from the other corner, I find you attractive and nice, want to get to know each other and maybe have sex if you're up to a session?

-No thanks, I don't find you atttractive

- OK, thanks, no problem, have a fun night

or

-Yes, I find you attractive too, let's find out what other...
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hitomy:

Thank u for the support have a great day Xoxo

Saturday Jul 27, 2013

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And how the mighty have fallen...
But it was to be expected; the maintenance of distorted, contradictory, illogical and unsustainable ideas, the product of a totally self-contradicting and structurally unsound system, can only lead to more and bigger contradictions and the ultimate negation of all what this unsound system says it holds dear. Pragmatism triumphs, and the holier-than-thou attitude that accompanies the sense of moral...
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Thursday Jul 25, 2013

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Everyone lives the lie. I am not afraid to live the truth. Chemicals, interests and dumb instinct, cloaked in nice words, are what move them. I am not better or worse; just different in that I have seen the reality and decided to do away with the sugarcoating. There is no love. There are no friends. Only their interests and their hormones, which will make...
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Thursday Jul 11, 2013

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That strange clarity of view that one gets when angry at something or someone... how anger takes away the dumb veils we are compelled to wrap around reality to keep its harshness from hurting us, and how it hurts anyway. Why, then, those veils? Just because everyone says they should be there? Because nobody wants to hear the harsh truth of interest and arbitrary will...
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Friday Jun 28, 2013

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Well, that's it. Lost it. Apparently. To each his/her own.

Wednesday May 08, 2013

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Today I was told that it IS possible to lead a solitary life without compromising my mental stability. I will have to get a second opinion on that. But if it is possible... well, that will be it.

Looking for the 1% of women who do not want the traditional lifestyle, then finding someone(s) among them who will accept me, and then repeating the...
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Sunday Dec 30, 2012

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I have learned something today: No matter what I have done, no matter how I have tried to behave, if I do not wish to conform to the Kinder-Kirche-Kche system, some woman will always lump me in with the assholes, the dishonorable, the liars and the abusers. All men are shit.

Very well, then I shall be shit. If I am to be humiliated and...
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Thursday Dec 13, 2012

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I know. The knowledge gives me peace. Peace makes the fight easier, though the enemy is powerful, and devious in his attack.

I know. Because I know, I can no longer believe. He who believes, abdicates from thinking. Knowledge can be tested.

Faulty knowledge can be replaced by better knowledge. Faith, once shattered, leaves nothing.

What is known is not feared. It can be prevented...
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Thursday Dec 13, 2012

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It is only the effect of some powerful substances on the brain. I"Its" mechanism ist the same as that of addiction; one becomes addicted to the other(s) during a brief period. It always goes away after, at the most, 3 years.

It is a lie, a Victorian lie, a product of the barbarous repression of a twisted, sad, equivocal age.

It has never...
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