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sid:
@naulite well, the good news is, my computer still works and the only thing that got messed up was one fan. We ordered a replacement. It makes a weird ticking sound when it's turned on, only sometimes though, so things aren't as bad as I thought they were! It was sauce for my gyoza that I mixed up, and I went to dip one in the sauce, forgot the movie we were watching was streaming from my computer, so at least it was mostly closed, and only one small (maybe a quarter of the whole thing) got some sauce on it when the bowl slipped from my hands... I just feel so fucking stupid lately. I'm forgetting simple words mid-sentence, and getting pissed at myself for all the mistakes I'm making. I think my brain is slowly dying...
naulite:
@sid I understand your frustration and pain. I wouldn't dare claim to know how it feels for you, but after skimming some of your posts and reading up on some of the medical problems/symptoms I can sympathize with you. I face similar symptoms from over various compounding medical issues, but not as sever as you. But I completely understand the self directed frustration when my body doesn't do what I and telling it to. Dropping things because my hands don't work they way they should, knocking things over, trying to to cut your own damn fingers off while making dinner. The pain, weakness, and reliance on medications you hate to take. I can completely sympathize. I don't know your pain, but I wouldn't wish mine upon my worst enemy. It's a cruel fate to endure. And I'm not sure whether it's better or worse to know that you are not alone in this.