mei

i like your brain.
i wish more people had brains like yours.

of course....you've seen how mine works....

you and me, we need a world all to our own....loon howls, leaves falling, rainbow lights....some place you and me can retreat to for a few minutes a day and.....collect.

ya know?

or am i all alone here?

I know Im totally getting redundant with this, but in all honesty, every time you write something about your childhood, I totally feel like Im there. You're a really amazing writer.

And, if it helps in any way, I like your brain. It's a nice brain. It's that good kind of brain that you only find on physicists or koala bears. That didn't make any sense. Yeah, forget that last part. I just mean that you are a really damned intelligent girl and I hold you in the highest regard. Which is pretty impressive considering we've never met, huh?

And that "pat the bunny" thing is easily the most adorable thing I've heard in the last 20 minutes or so.

Hehe. Nite dearie.

wow you are so beautiful, can't wait for your set, welcome to SG

damn girl, and I though i was having a shitty week!
i thought of you last Thursday while i was driving home. it was sunset and i was looking for my dragons in the sky. i still haven't seen them, they're tricky!
instead of a dragon, i saw an angels wing, huge and very clear. it was feathery and beautiful. i would like to think it was some sort of sign b/c that was the day the war started, but unfortunately i'm forever a sceptic.

I don't think I'll ever have the guts to go to an SG event either. I did go to the anniversery, but there were so many people it was like being in a packed bar so you didn't need to talk to anyone. And I did just that. You should go this year btw. It was best time I had at a bar in a long time.
The only bad part was by the end of the night; Ty and I had gotten so drunk that we actually stumbled over to Erin and asked about the afterparties. I think we scared her, but she handled us well she just said she was tired and going to bed so she didn't know where they were. I think I would have done the same, but it made me feel like a dirty old man.

Congrats on going Pink. Its a special day!

Yikes!! you're pretty....Sticky wasn't jokin'....I'm kinda...ummm...you know...ummm....well, lookin' your way a little...ummm....yeah...ugh!

Oh my god!!! You went pink!!! Yay!!!

congradulations on changing color

I didn't do the high school crap either, although I somehow got invited to one of those parties -- one of the cool people thought I might be shaped into something worthwhile -- and there was Jack Daniels and a magic room with a drape doorway into which the cool people took turns disappearing and ... I don't know. I didn't do it. I didn't drink any Jack, either, which would have made (I was to learn later) the other thing unlikely. Pass the clam chowder.

Well, you pain-and-grope beautifully. Perfect fantasy, too, I just noticed.

so am i.

medication is both a blessing and a curse.

I like to think of it more like I am the alpha and the omega, beginning and ending. That way when I'm really up I can always rely on the bottom to drop to keep me grounded, but when I'm really low I always look forward to zooming back up again and that keeps me level too. I tried meds but didn't like the person they made me and no one else did either, so I just decide to be the best lunatic I could be and it is mostly great. Of course I'm all positive and healthy sounding right now cause I'm really up so gimme a couple days to give different response. still hugs and kisses

i hear ya.
i'm a social 'tard myself.

although i did make tons of friends when i drank alot.
just could never remember who they were the next day.

I feel uncomfortable talking to new people sometimes but just because I don't like to play games and people rarely want to hear what you actually think.
I have trouble putting on the sensors so I just don't talk alot in those situations, I've heard that I am apparently very mysterious; so it kinda works for me.

I'm going to spend the day saying "ham laminated" over and over and over again. It'll probably make me fall asleep.

I haven't been to a good rave since the summer, well any rave since the summer so I hear you sister. Of course it is weird for me at them since the kids; they are all so wee. Most of them are around the ages I teach workshops to, so it feels strange. luckily we have a couple new clubs that are geared to an older crowd of ravers, just if I can get out to them. Maybe tonight.
had you eaten your pillow when you woke up or attempted too, if so, have a snack before bed.