I don't know the equations running through her head or what the solutions are in the end. Mary whispers poems about recreation through the Telephone wires thousands of miles away in blistering heat, She says she can hear me starving. But its not me that i see. Its all of you. Whoring yourself on brain numbing tv shows , whoring yourself with a corporate black...
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nights like this seem apocolyptic. My tragedy song haunts incessantly. Bill used to tell me i was in love with tragedy, With pictures of aids victims in uganda glued to the ceiling. we would fall asleep memorizing their faces so that even our dreams would be infected. If i could, i'd make a collage of the bones of this city. I think her heart has...
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mostwanted76:
Why don't you visit Boston we could get real ILL
todd31:
well as usuall it's great to hear from you 
hope your doing good 
hope your doing good 2 days of making the bad cells die and i left the white rooms with a 40 year old italian junkie. we fed off of each other like vampires and walked straight into the projects to buy a 28 dollar daydream in that lonely bathroom with holes in the walls and the door, and when i looked through them i thought maybe the outside world...
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mikael:
are you ok?
nocontrol:
I love this. Gorgeous, ugly words. Thank you for sharing it.
I need resurection. I'm a recluse under someone elses heavy blankets watching documentaries on war. all my dreams smell like gases and murder. I'm collecting scars to tell a story.
In a while this will just be another memory that i don't care to look back upon. So may fragments. Missed connection with this tattered soul. We keep chasing death and it keeps us from...
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In a while this will just be another memory that i don't care to look back upon. So may fragments. Missed connection with this tattered soul. We keep chasing death and it keeps us from...
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soma__:
* I'm collecting scars to tell a story. * best line ever. you have a way with words. and thanks for the b-day wishes 
Its quiet now in my head. just the sound of dreams and the breath of the sleeping. She said "Maybe the doctor can fix me" and then the emergency room became her home. Sometimes i can't breathe though and they all touch me like i'm not real, suffocating my thoughts and i sweat out everything. A trail of little things in highway ditches, Little things...
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pumpkineater:
funny, all i hear is the snoring of a girl who sleeps 20 hours a day next to me.
you'll survive, you'll make it. take a deep breathe - then you'll start making wonderful new memories.
you'll survive, you'll make it. take a deep breathe - then you'll start making wonderful new memories.
scumbag:
lily where are you i went looking for you but you were gone so i went and got from jino and i od'd yesterday and woke up in the hospital ;ast night so now i dont know if im moving or not where are you call me
What do you believe in?
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chazstrummer:
not very much these days 
alley_:
Myself. Life. Truth. Love.
Its like july 5th now. In Texas that is.
Can't get his psychotic eyes out of my mind when he said "I really think god sent you here to me" inside a locked fence with painted trash everywhere. for some reason i can't read people lately. all the killers and predators hold out their hands for me and i silently take it.
kill me you...
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Can't get his psychotic eyes out of my mind when he said "I really think god sent you here to me" inside a locked fence with painted trash everywhere. for some reason i can't read people lately. all the killers and predators hold out their hands for me and i silently take it.
kill me you...
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soma__:
sso good.
danielle:
how are you?just wondering?
"This is my friend Lil" Keisha says when she introduces me"She's from vermont, Oregon, Califiornia, Texas, Florida, New york." we smile at each other. She's got these puffy circles under her eyes from the crack smoke or the HIV. I missed north philly like a hole in the head. Smells like crack smoke and vomit and philly cheese steaks. everytime i come here someone else...
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tulipbooty:
oh no...jail.
im sorry, thats all i can say. after i went to jail i changed everything in my life to never have to go back again, and i was barely there. at least, comparatively. go ahead, brave girl. from these notes, there's obviously lots of love out here for you.
sometimes its not what weve done, or even remember. its a tough life, but a prettier one outside, for sure. take care.
im sorry, thats all i can say. after i went to jail i changed everything in my life to never have to go back again, and i was barely there. at least, comparatively. go ahead, brave girl. from these notes, there's obviously lots of love out here for you.
sometimes its not what weve done, or even remember. its a tough life, but a prettier one outside, for sure. take care.
wren:
I'll bake you a cake with a file in it.
Do you like chocolate?
Do you like chocolate?
I forgot just what this felt like. Feels real.
The city is miles away now and its cold.
My pretty whores with slash marks on their faces who carry around pieces of their old lovers , I'll miss you.
should of sweat this all out in that hospital bed while i had the chance and me and Ms.Natasha would run to the bathroom to turn...
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The city is miles away now and its cold.
My pretty whores with slash marks on their faces who carry around pieces of their old lovers , I'll miss you.
should of sweat this all out in that hospital bed while i had the chance and me and Ms.Natasha would run to the bathroom to turn...
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scumbag:
hey bitch have fun in jail ill send you books i love you dont ever fucking question that
crookshark:
lily lily how're you did you meet up with twwly say hi and lick her stump for me. i'm still bummed i didnt' get to see you in nyc you crazy crazy bitch.
almost gone. almost done. i've got this disease down to a minimal. I'm not scared anymore and i don't need you to tell me how to live my life like you know mine with all the tangled edges and in between all lines that you could never understand. we are all just cells man, its too self absorbed now. tell me how you are doing....
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nobodaddy:
I'm gonna be in NY on Friday June 4 and I wanna feed sushi to a superhero. Will you still be free?
crookshark:
hi lily billy. what's shakin' bakin'? county jail with the yee haws and the howdy doodies? gotta learn to chew tabacky an' teeth picks and brew up some damn fine shine. then when you hit the great white north we can hotwire a car and head for the yukon gold. we'll use your shine as fuel and drink and we'll blow fire up this fucking cold country's ass. fuck, this government fucking GIVES you money every year if you live up there. we'll dig a snow hut and eat baby seals. i get to suck the eye balls though. they're a delicacy.
I am selfish though, I want you to stick around. I admit it. The pain you eat and convert into diamonds grinds like shards of glass in my hope for your safety.
Peace Lily and to all of those who know you.