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I've been quite unsuccessful at obstaining from masturbating lately. Thank my penis isn't wasn't a new years resolution so there's no guilt along with the stroke. Considering that it's something I've been doing since I was like seven or eight (no, I didn't ejaculate until a few years later) and probably touching myself since I found it, it's actually beeen pretty damn good lately. I don't know if it's a change in fantasies or that amazingly my technique continues to improve but let's just say that I've been going to sleep with a smile on my face

School is still going well. The instructor used my drawing as the EXAMPLE for the rest of the class. Ah pride, hopefully it won't go to my head, too much.

I've been drawing abstract imagery for quite sometime, but I had gotten away from drawing reality. Whatever exercises we are doing for class seem to have re-opened my 'eye' in terms of how well I see what I am drawing. My coordination has improved massively and is back to teh way it used to be when I could draw anything just by looking at it. It's as if by having a list of vocabulary terms for LINE, I can now draw a line with more authority (how silly). Regardless, something seems to be working, probably the whole process. I am awakening.

I got a puppy in a dream lastnight. He was so cute. I never really wanted an irish setter, but he was adorable. It was all about embrassing my "newly" found creativity and "training" it. Or not.

So I've added a couple of sketches from a while ago. They were'nt finished when I scanned them last year. I am not entirely sure they are done now, as I haven't looked at them in a while. They are sub-conscious reflections, so....without further adoo
for the sensation of becoming

and



the divine foot

I learned in class today that because they do not have high contrast (though I did just darken the background on one of them) between the figure and the (back)ground, that you will be bored easily. I suppose that I need to fill-in more area's with black. I didn't really do that because, especially wth the mushroom images, I intend to turn it or one like it into a painting. The other one was just for fun. I wanted to fill the whole page (11x17). I can see where I've gone astray with it. I suppose I am learning quite a bit, which is good because now I feel like I am getting my money's worth.

I didn't insert them because they are too large to be viewed in the width of the journal window.