In case any of you haven't already heard, i've decided to let my account cancel for now. i need a break from the site for several personal reasons. my last day it says to be August 26th. for those keeping count that's my brother's wedding day, my father's birthday and the girl i can't get over's birthday. it seems like a fitting day to go...
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Ok so i'm gonna elaborate a tiny bit of why i'm in a current mood, the other part of it i don't believe i'm allowed to talk about.
ok so last thursday My "friend" IMs me, and we're talking a tiny bit and i mentioned a girl or two at work, and he starts what seems like a lecture to me. so i say "why...
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ok so last thursday My "friend" IMs me, and we're talking a tiny bit and i mentioned a girl or two at work, and he starts what seems like a lecture to me. so i say "why...
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cptpyjama:
*hug*
allegro:
Then you are a high-quality man. I send enormous hugs your way, bloody vagina talk or no.
[s]How I Feel: /wrists[/s]
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martini:
the correct IRC coding for that feeling would be "/me slits wrists"
to which i must respond... SHUT UP!!
love love love love love...
i should send you a present or something.
xo
to which i must respond... SHUT UP!!
love love love love love...
i should send you a present or something.
xo
tex13:
Cheer up my friend. I will tell you the same thing one of my friends has been telling me. You have more friends than you realize, and they will be there for you when they are needed.
I understand what you are going through, for most of my life I have had the same feelings that you do. There are so many reasons why I am screwed up the way I am, and most of them have made it hard for me to trust people. Going through life and second guessing what people say to you, or theway they act about you is so very hard on your mental state. I wish I had some wonderful advice for you, but I have not figured it out myself.
And as for people here, bond with the people that mean the most to you. It might not always work out the way you want, but at least you stand a better chance of making and keeping the close friends that way. Thats is what I've done and for the most part it has worked very well.
I understand what you are going through, for most of my life I have had the same feelings that you do. There are so many reasons why I am screwed up the way I am, and most of them have made it hard for me to trust people. Going through life and second guessing what people say to you, or theway they act about you is so very hard on your mental state. I wish I had some wonderful advice for you, but I have not figured it out myself.
And as for people here, bond with the people that mean the most to you. It might not always work out the way you want, but at least you stand a better chance of making and keeping the close friends that way. Thats is what I've done and for the most part it has worked very well.
so apparently i can't stick to not staying here. i blame it on the boredom and lack of anything to ever do.
so yeah, i've been pushed back into an unhappy time. i hadn't told anyone but i was sort of trying to patch things up with the kid i used to consider my best friend and i thought that was going to happen. the...
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so yeah, i've been pushed back into an unhappy time. i hadn't told anyone but i was sort of trying to patch things up with the kid i used to consider my best friend and i thought that was going to happen. the...
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cptpyjama:
Maybe they thought you weren't coming back and were tidying up their friends lists? I do that sometimes.
Also, you can do anything you like but I don't intend on getting fed up with you, so you're stuck with me I'm afraid
Also, you can do anything you like but I don't intend on getting fed up with you, so you're stuck with me I'm afraid
mockingbird:
Why a bad idea?
Steven Segal touched me inappropriately as a child.
Ok so to start off, i've made a couple of decisions. first off i can't go so long before checking out blogs, cause i have so freaking many to go back and comment on since i've gone so long. secondly i've decided i need to push out about 4 blogs a week, and i'm only allowing myself...
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Ok so to start off, i've made a couple of decisions. first off i can't go so long before checking out blogs, cause i have so freaking many to go back and comment on since i've gone so long. secondly i've decided i need to push out about 4 blogs a week, and i'm only allowing myself...
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alleycake:
Haha not even close yet. I'm super slow this time around. I like so it so far though, (like ch. 17) this trip home screwed my finishing-in-two-days routine lol.
I'm glad to see how you've been.
I'm glad to see how you've been.
brightredscream:
/beef stew?
Vagina flavored lolipops.
ok so yeah been back from anon for a few days and haven't been around all that much on the boards. why you ask?(probably not) because i was reading the last Harry Potter book. Finished it last night. i liked it a good amount, even the epilogue which was one of the things i hear a lot of people dislike.
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ok so yeah been back from anon for a few days and haven't been around all that much on the boards. why you ask?(probably not
) because i was reading the last Harry Potter book. Finished it last night. i liked it a good amount, even the epilogue which was one of the things i hear a lot of people dislike.
Been...
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missvavoom:
ahhhh tis true! so very lovely then! haha
so very lovely then! haha
tex13:
Just finished the book myself and liked the epilogue too.
Word.
made a stupid mistake in deleting my friends list. and now i must rebuild. i've requested friendship from as many people as i can remember being on my friends list. so yeah if you've accepted sorry for deleting you.
also i'm now accepting requests for new friendship. if you have me bookmarked, and are reading this, or you've said to yourself hey i...
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made a stupid mistake in deleting my friends list. and now i must rebuild. i've requested friendship from as many people as i can remember being on my friends list. so yeah if you've accepted sorry for deleting you.
also i'm now accepting requests for new friendship
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savana:
hashahahahahahahahahhaa :
brightredscream:
I will whore you out and make people love you 
people are such a letdown to me it's ridiculous. i'm giving up on my real life friends now. and all that goodness.
i'm feeling so crappy i can't even read the new harry potter book yet.
at this point in time i no longer want a relationship. and i don't want crushes on people. they're not worth it for me, because nothing will happen from...
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i'm feeling so crappy i can't even read the new harry potter book yet.
at this point in time i no longer want a relationship. and i don't want crushes on people. they're not worth it for me, because nothing will happen from...
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societyspliers:
Well, this is sad.
Immerse yourself in the book. Can't hurt. I'm not having a good Life right now myself, and have no food or way of getting any (only until after my gig tonight - then I'll have a few bucks) but I forced myself to start reading an old Michael Crichton book I had never read (Andromeda Strain) and in fact, fell asleep during the movie version when I was real little and it was first in the theatres and had the hardest time trying to start.
But, now I'm into it far enough that it absorbs me and blocks out reality for a while.
Hope you feel better.
Immerse yourself in the book. Can't hurt. I'm not having a good Life right now myself, and have no food or way of getting any (only until after my gig tonight - then I'll have a few bucks) but I forced myself to start reading an old Michael Crichton book I had never read (Andromeda Strain) and in fact, fell asleep during the movie version when I was real little and it was first in the theatres and had the hardest time trying to start.
But, now I'm into it far enough that it absorbs me and blocks out reality for a while.
Hope you feel better.
kindle:
That was a shock to see you in that request box! Don't scare me like that again . Read the book dammit!
. Read the book dammit!Ok this is gonna be a small post cause i'm feeling bleh as usual but i don't wanna bitch to much.
first off i posted this in my last blog but i got no response on it and i really am curious what people think about the idea so here it is again:
Ok so next order of buisness, been thinking about getting my first...
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first off i posted this in my last blog but i got no response on it and i really am curious what people think about the idea so here it is again:
Ok so next order of buisness, been thinking about getting my first...
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kekelyn:
i know; i love it!
cptpyjama:
I'd go with you but I'm not exactly local, and single... well officially but my love life is just a leetle bit complicated
Ok Here it goes again kiddies.
first to start off a lot of people have made mention of my friend being flaky and such, so i want to explain what went on after the previous post, and a little of before it too. so yeah i was having a really crappy week, and being that me and the guy work kinda opposite schedules we didn't...
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first to start off a lot of people have made mention of my friend being flaky and such, so i want to explain what went on after the previous post, and a little of before it too. so yeah i was having a really crappy week, and being that me and the guy work kinda opposite schedules we didn't...
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savana:
"oh how i miss skating, well ice skating but still close enough. are you trying to look up the other girls pants?"
HAHAHAH.. it's a hobby really
HAHAHAH.. it's a hobby really
izzy:
oooooh lucky you getting it tomorrow~!
i'm getting it at 12:01 exactely, and then staying up to read
EEEEH so excited
i'm going to dress up as Tonks, i've decided
i'm getting it at 12:01 exactely, and then staying up to read
EEEEH so excited
i'm going to dress up as Tonks, i've decided
How the hell does Angels in the infield qualify as a cartoon? BAH! we just got power back not to long ago, and i wake up from my nap(which i started because of lack of power) turn on Cartoon network in hopes of maybe some decent cartoons and it's Angels in the Outfield. so messed up those bastards. oh well.
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kyletastic:
So he didn't want to do something just with you but if the other guy called he would do something!? I would have told him to go fuck himself! Not cool... you should come live in Canada man...hang out with us we would never treat a friend that way! At least those of us in BRS's posse We make time for each other even when we are tired or feel moody or cranky! Especially then in fact!
Unless your an asshole...which for some reason I highly doubt!
Don't really have a favourite candy... I am more of a salty snack kinda guy...chips, dry roasted peanuts that kinda thing! mmmmmmm....salty goodness!
We make time for each other even when we are tired or feel moody or cranky! Especially then in fact!Unless your an asshole...which for some reason I highly doubt!
Don't really have a favourite candy... I am more of a salty snack kinda guy...chips, dry roasted peanuts that kinda thing! mmmmmmm....salty goodness!
lilyfly:
Well, it's good to hear that he did try to be a good friend. It seems that the outside issues you were having, plus the fact that your schedules just have not coincided recently, has kept you two apart. Perhaps just wait a few days, and contact each other again. Good luck 
ignore me.
Enjoy the break - sometimes the only way to get out of a rut is to crank the wheel hard left.
It also helps to talk things out. I'm seeing a professional myself, and it's slow (damnably slow) progress, but I honestly think I'd be dead without it.
Again, good luck. You're a good man.