i'm going to repost my last blog for anyone that didn't see it, because i have a bit more to say but i want everyone to see it. so i'll spoiler the previous blog and then go on.
I'm worried about the person i will someday become...
I see myself being that person that lives with his parents for the rest of his life, because he can never afford to move out on his own. i worry that if i ever do end up moving out, i'll be that creepy neighbor that talks to no one, and who everyone in the neighborhood talks... Read More
I'm bored as all get out so i'm going to do a new blog, but i'm gonna make this a lazy one. it's gonna be full of youtube clips for various reasons. i'll start off with the obvious:
my two favorite TV shows as of right now.
Two songs i enjoyed a lot the other night
An older song with pure comedy apeal to me... Read More
So... good news i guess. Because of my Profound love and lust of Cosmo i have decided to not let my account cancel.
all joking around(although i do really like the guy he's super good people, and i've always thought of him as one of the celebs of Silliness) i'm staying because i feel bad leaving you all. i've had a bunch of you tell... Read More
/sigh. you guys aren't making this decision easy on me. and it's made me question whether i should even leave. and yes i know what most of you think about whether i should leave or not.
in unrelated news, Orange juice is my friend. you guys need to remind me of that more often. i started getting a sore throat late tuesday night, it was... Read More
Im so hooked on Tropicana OJ, its not even funny.
I also dont want you to go, but like I said, as part of my recovery and "better life" I wont be here as much as I used to.
And I have no comment either way on the dating site.
I will get on my knees and beg you if there's a chance you will stay
As for the dating site idea, hey, it might work. Marc found a girl through that kind of thing once, they really hit it off and things were going great but he forgot to say "I have a girlfriend and yeah, we're poly..." and he dropped it on her after about three weeks and she never spoke to him again. But asides from him lying to her I think things could've gone well. Hey, what've you got to lose? Well, except money.
i've changed my mind on my leaving plans i believe... i don't think i'm coming back now. the circumstances have changed. i'm too paranoid, and every time things get said on the boards lately i think they are about me. and there's a high chance that usually they are.
there's too much high school drama going on and i just really didn't need it, especially... Read More
The boards are too much of a moving target as far as lucidity and sincerity are concerned, so I glean what I can from blogs.
If you're not being selfish in whatever actions we're speaking of here, then I can't help but notice that's your habit for most things. Utter selflessness seems noble, but is destructive. To paraphrase some cliche, how can you help others without helping yourself?
So whatever you want to do with this account, with SG, do it for you. If time away from this will strengthen you, then spend some time away. If the support system here is therapeutic, and you're building strength, then stay.
I'm no therapist, so the only support I can offer really is this: If you do leave SG for a while, I promise not to take your screen name so that you can still have it when you come back.
This blog brought to you by the letter P and the number 1.
So here's something somewhat different. instead of bitching about how much i want a girlfriend and all that i'll tell you things i want a girlfriend for, but i'll spoiler it. then after that list i'll tell you all what i want in a girlfriend. these lists are subject to change and... Read More
One day a girl is going to be very lucky to have you.
Until then, maybe you should find another focus in your life, stressing about finding a girlfriend is driving you crazy and you're making it harder for yourself.
I'm beginning to realize that the only reason I'm single is that I'm afraid the girl will think I'm a going-nowhere looser who won't be able to hold her interest for longer than it takes for her to find out that I'm doing nothing with my life...
I'm also begining to realize that we need to cut ourselves some slack once in a while.
My situation is the result of a lot of shit I honestly cannot control... but is that a self-serving excuse???
If it is, so be it. Whatever helps me sleep at night until I feel confident enough to strike out.
Everyone's insecure about one thing or another they say.
If there isn't someone to truly love, who else is there? Your friends. So embrace them man, 'cuz for now it's all you have. Even with all your faults, people here seem to care about you... They don't seem to be asking for a reason to do so... you are though. So embrace your friendships and care for them like there's nothing else in the world for you, and give yourself a reason to think yourself worthy of such people.
And hope that the love you are looking for will come along soon enough...
My friend Chris is always saying I need to stop looking and just focus on myself... this is a guy who could go out every night and come home with a different girl... not the settling type at all...
Personally I usually dismiss what he tells me, but when I swallow my pride and look at the great relationship he managed to find I can't help but think "wow, maybe he's right"
"I never expected it", he says
So take a seat, have a glass of your favorite drink and rethink your life mate, 'cuz usually what you are looking for is right in front of you, and no matter what happens, it is the one or two real good friends one has that will be there for you every step of the way.
And hey, maybe you DO need to distance yourself... Sort whatever there is to sort out and go back to the people you know you can trust, because they'll be there for you when you come back.
Thank you. You know, you can't leave the site or I'll have no one to cheer me up when I'm being a pathetic loser face. And no one to crack me up in chat
I've issued forth a challenge to martini. i told her that if she can find me a girl within the week then i would not take my break from here. hey, it could happen right?
also note i'm very much thinking about getting the beard, as awesome as all of you have been about how much you like it, i'm getting pretty sick of... Read More
i went to the strip club and i got fucking depressed. what kind of fucking asshole gets depressed when naked boobs get rubbed in your face. there's something completely wrong with me. i am now questioning my decision to try and go out into the real world. i don't think it's a good idea.
i was going to post a happy blog about how i... Read More
Yea strip clubs aren't really the "real world." They are odd, a mood mixture of hornyness, loneliness, and business is not a good combo. I think most of the time they are super depressing, don't worry, it's easier in the real world to convince a girl you're a great guy.
Clearly you want an emotional attachment, not just boobs. That doesn't make you an asshole, it makes you a decent guy. There aren't many of those around.
Go out and try the real world. Do it! Do it I say!
A boy very close to me taught me something very important. He said "never say never, because you don't know what's going to happen. " And at the time I told him he was an idiot. And quite a large number of months later, he turned out to be completely right.
I've Been accused of being a liar. it's actually one of the reasons i'm leaving. but i can't get too much into the details of that. that being said let me explain my feelings on lying.
I grew up with a brother who lied like it was the most important thing ever. and he did it damn well. he knew what he was doing. he... Read More
that lonely feeling invades my heart. the thoughts of her sneak into my mind. i'm trying to feel better but am i trying hard enough? am i forcing myself to be stronger or just hoping that i am. i'm putting on a happier face but am i really happier than i was, or am i starting to numb? the tears come more when i'm exhausted... Read More
but least it's entertaining for the rest of us 
Randomness chat is definitely the shizznit
Was so hoping you'd make it out here before Hathor left on the 26th (everyone is leaving on my birthday... so not cool). Maybe Sept 4th?
but...was smooth, nonetheless.
PROPS!