So... I've discovered a new issue. Apparently since unmasking, I'm now terrified of driving. I guess honestly I always was. I was just better at hiding it from myself.
Thursday night I got a call from a friend who does deliveries as a side gig. He got a flat, and was stranded, so he asked me if I could pick him up. He lives a good, 20-30 minutes away. But he's helped me out a lot. In fact, he's one of the people I mentioned in the dedication page of The Ones Left Behind. So, despite the fact that I was shaking at the prospect of having to make a long drive, in an unfamiliar part of town, I went to get him. I managed to get him there and get myself home alright.
But I was fucking terrified the whole time. It's fun discovering new things that I can't do anymore. I realize that I did manage to drive, but it took a toll on me. And I'm both angry and sad now.
