Not you specifically, random person reading this.
I can't be alone in this, can I?
I feel like I'm just a way station or something, a resting point that people use to stop for a moment, rest, get some clarity, before moving on. You need a bit of therapy? Need someone to unload your troubles on? Maybe someone to give you a bit of attention when you're feeling unwanted? Well, drop into my world for a minute, use me, and leave me when your done.
I always try to help after all. But tell me, is that all I'm good for? Aren't I good enough, not just to stop at momentarily, but to include on your journey? Or to stay with?
Sure, every so often they bring little offerings. Little trinkets to show some appreciation for what I do. But they still leave in the end. Don't get me wrong, I'm still grateful for the efforts, such as they are.
Am I selfish to want more? Is it wrong to want to be somebody's first thought every once in a while, instead of just the after thought?
Don't mind me, I'm just feeling sorry for myself. I'll be back to people pleasing at my own expense soon enough.
