Why is it that at 8 in the fucking morning when I'm trying to sleep, my stupid brain decides that it's a good idea to replay every fuck up I've ever had? The prevailing topic on the clip show of failures is the loneliness and the complete lack of love life. I just remembered a few missed opportunities where I could have been with someone if only I wasn't so god damned oblivious. But the horror show that is my life doesn't end there. No no, next I get to start thinking about how directionless I am and how I've been on this earth almost thirty fucking years and amounted to all of nothing.
Sigh... and then I decide to annoy the handful of people who actually read these blogs with another pity party of a rant. Sorry guys.
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wolfwood1203:
@baalseraph I'll try man. I'm just hoping to avoid another nervous breakdown.
libris:
Talking about what's on your mind is good! I think everyone thinks about "I should have done this or that", but you didn't, and that's in the past. Just let it go; there's absolutely nothing you can do about it now. Focus on what's going on in the moment. You're almost done with grad school! That's a huge accomplishment you should be proud of and you're a talented writer!