And, yes, that statement alone can be construed in multiple ways - perhaps intentionally ;)
I have never looked the way I see, let alone feel, myself to be.
This is one of the several reasons I avoid mirrors like the plague and if I could remove them entirely, I would ( particularly in the bathroom - what an ostentatious, possibly offensive, and unquestionably pointless place to have one! )
Aye, I will take the occasional photograph of myself - but this, at least, has a feel to it of manipulation, of... un-realness... to it that, while not particularly acceptable, is better than other forms of self-imagery
mirrors *ugh* - there's something far too deceptive and 'real' to them for the image reflected to be acceptable to me...
thankfully I have enough self-awareness and situational/area awareness that I have little need for mirrors - I do not use them when doing things with my hair ( shaving or otherwise ) or when I brush or [etc] that it appears most people do...
mayhaps part of that has to do with the fact I'll let my hair do as it pleases and rarely put pick or comb to it - merely the hair-dryer after a wash or severe wettening :)
I find amusement in most peoples' first impressions of me...
( assuming, of course, they hadn't already 'met' me online and set forth an expectation )
usually the initial assumption/impression is a soured one - go figure! - particularly if I had been open-mouth smiling or laughing, neither of which are relatively attractive, I'm afraid
I've been told, when ones' dare tell of it, that they've assumed me a snobbish-partier, an uncaring neuveaux-riche type... even a 'token white-boy racist' or a paedophile *laughs*
sorry to disappoint on all accounts...
co-workers amusingly continue to think I have one helluva life outside of work - Oi! even when I do tell them otherwise, they think I'm being funny
if only they knew how boring of an individual I truly am
aye, I have stories to tell, but all of these stories from my past could easily fit into a years' span of the lifetime
...which, by-and-large, leaves the rest of my life a very, very stale and skip-worthy film *laughs*
the cold is upon is - aye, even with yesterday & day-before's semi-decent temps, it's returned back to pain-weather
*ach* I hate the wintertide - and it's not surprising that one week they tell us to expect a cold & long winter and the next to expect a mild & short one...
I expect the former, but only because anytime temps drop below mid-40s it's cold & long to me *sighs*
weirdly I've been feeling a lack of energy and incentive the past few weeks - like this wintertide has already sucked me dry :(
it's even seeped into work a bit, feeling semi-lethargic but pushing through as best as possible...
*shrugs* hopefully it passes soon else this will be a longer wintertide than usual
told the GM the other day my intent to take/saving-up for an april vaca in Hawai'i/O'ahu...
he was surprised and - it appeared - intrigued... essentially told me everyone should visit there once in their lifetime :)
aye, it won't be cheap - won't be the most expensive trip I've taken, but not as cheap as a roadtrip would be by a longshot
but it intrigues me historically, culturally, naturally ( if that makes sense ), & relaxingly *laughs*
...assuming I could ever truly "stop & relax" - I'm one that likes to keep moving, to keep seeing, to keep experiencing :D
ANYways... that's all my brain has cooked up for this edition/rendition of post-worthly (un)liveliness ;)
Farethee well for now, my Lovelies & Gentlefolk - and, who knows, mayhaps someday I'll see a few or two of you in my horizons :)
weeks' worth of twittage ::
10/1 : the "smokestink-yardtrash" neighbours have been force-evicted... //shocker// yeahhh, they didn't last long...
10/3 : 've called someone a "piece of fuck" before - but I've got my own little quirks & sayings that sometimes drive people just a little bit 'huh'
I've po'd religious neighbours with "godfuck me jesus," confused a co-worker with "what the sam-fuckleby are you talking about?," and've called several people "jackholes" in my lifetime - all of which are me-isms that I use semi-often :) <3
10/4 : 10yrs divorced as of the 1st... and a full moon on the 2nd - coincidence ? the more things change, as the saying goes :)
10/4 II : Additional "Thom-isms" : 'I couldn't give 2 shits & a hand grenade' ( few decades old, have had to use a lot lately ) & 'fuck me running backwards up an escalator w/ a chainsaw' ( an obvious expansion of the Heathers saying I've used since HS, enhanced by my love of chainsaws )
10/6 : why, yes, friendly yet automated voice programmed to respond as if you were real ( almost ), I suppose it WOULD be interesting to know why "my vehicle" has been recorded as in an accident when I haven't owned a vehicle since '99, let alone how... *yeesh* why did I even answer ?!
10/7 : seriously, what in the 7 hells is happening with people in this area, disrespect & disregard for laws & rules - neighbours that moved out last wknd ( not the ones kicked out ) appear not to have told the mgmt, still had mths on their lease, no check-out or forwarding address >:(
10/8 : intriguing restaurant/fast food ad : 'Now Open In Your Area!' *looks up location online...* yeahhhh, 4 miles away isn't quite in my area, you bastards - that's one helluva walk even if it WASN'T pre-winter pain-weather *shivers* ... making me all hungry now, you bastards !
10/12 : just a couple years ago or so people were actually bitching about how hot it was... to the bleedin' lot of you, I say "fuck you, you miserable bastards, look what you've done, take your cold pain-temps and shove 'em the 7 hells up your ass" ... with all of my love
10/14 : apparently my daughters were not expecting - nor desiring - to hear my sing Eye Of The Tiger this mornin' *laughs* ... a fathre's duty is to drive his daughters to the edge of insanity, ain't it ? :D
10/14 II : my spawnlings put it nigh-perfectly and plainly this weekend: "dad, you're lucky but sometimes so very, very unlucky - it's kinda weird and scary at the same time" ...yes, my lovelies, it kinda is, was, and likely will be for the rest of my life... but thankfully I have them :)
10/16 (5:20p) : someone working at a local Holiday Station tried to send a fax to my number... weirdest thing ever *laughs*
10/18 : finally have a decent late afternoon/eve ( this mornin' surely wasn't! ), but I have zero incentive & energy to get out and do a bleedin' thing *sigh* - s'been one helluva month, feel on the edge of burnt, mentally & physically
10/19 : saw 1st poli-ad this AM that wasn't anti-President or anti-opponent - unfortunately it was a "knows what MN wants" ad without saying a demn thing about their intent ... seriously, tell us what you intend to do ( other than "voting against [the President]" ), it's f'n annoying !
This Week's Random Playlist (albums) ::
Doro - Forever Warriors / Forever United
watched recently :
via rental/streaming:
Disenchantment (1st Season)
Doctor Who (multiple & new doctor)
Ant-Man & The Wasp
Killer Mermaid (aka Nymph aka Mamula)
House Of The Dead
Lost Girl (1st & 2nd Season)
Day Of The Dead: Bloodline
The Magicians (1st Season)
The Gifted (2nd Season)
Cloak & Dagger (1st Season)
Puppet Master: The Littlest Reich
The Shape Of Water
ownedflix:
Alfred Hitchcock's Psycho
Masters Of Horror (1st Season): The Fair-Haired Child
Masters Of Horror (1st Season): Pick Me Up
George A. Romero's Day Of The Dead
Stephen King's The Langoliers
Hardware: M.A.R.K. 13
Virus
Slipstream
Halloween: The Curse Of Michael Myers
Teachers
Prometheus
Alien: Covenant
Odd Thomas
The Addams Family
Addams Family Values
Grabbers
Doghouse
Tales From The Crypt (4th Season)
-thom Wolfox sR Rhose, AK/GOT (OOP)
unusualist - I have yet to find a religion and/or spirituality that fits my own personal beliefs... other than, of course, the fact I am a (fallen) god.
( y'just now figured out that I'm basically a non-practicing hedonist? "if it feels good, do it, if it feels bad, you're doing it wrong" )
( "I believe in the proven power of willpower and the truth we are the gods we created. No one being created this universe and its wonders." )
( "the words of wisdom I follow will be the words I've written myself based on the life and experiences that I have Lived, Enjoyed, & Survived" )
( "may the platelets of justice travel the bloodstream of villainy, clog its arteries with honourable vengeance, and induce a coronary of truth" )
( "we are all inmates in the same asylum, some of us are just better at bribing the guards" )
( "In a previous life I was the engine block to a '56 chevy, I lost my heart to a Volkswagen Bus... er, wait - or was that a '57?" )
( "Godfuck Me, Jesus!" )
"Lately, we've been playing music by this chap named Bieber, gosh, you should hear the screams"
"Just fear me, love me, do as I say, and I will be your slave..."
"Oh, man. I'm sensing something very canadian about this place..."
"It's all true, god's an astronaut, Oz is over the rainbow, and Midian is where the monsters live..."
Jax : "yay for you, do you want a cookie or a bozo button?"