Sleep-wracking Memoria : The 39 Week 15 Round Up/Update [T39W15RU/U]
Most of this week has been... odd... home-wise.
While the past couple years it's been sleep a few hours, wake up middle of the night, then sleep again a couple hours - not this week.
this past week I've been lucky to sleep those few hours *sighs*
I'll fall asleep, wake up - thinking it's the middle of the night... only for it to have been maybe an hour.
I'll lay back down... but end up unable to sleep... until it's finally the middle of the night and THEN I'll sleep a couple hours.
Doesn't help that I keep waking up due to dreams - not frightening ones (I actually like having those)...
dreams that are a mix of memoria... as if my brain finds a pattern between memoria and decides to merge them.
Not. F'n. Cool.
By the gods I'm so hoping this is a temporary thing, I really do. I kinda need sleep... when I'm tired I get, well, "weird(er)."
[ trust me - ask the ex-wife, if she remembers... she'd told me many times that when I'm tired I get quite odd - especially when I fight it ]
Semi-related, I had a friend remind me of how I was always the night owl/night hawk, up all night and not sleeping until daylight...
demn, have things changed! now I'm lucky if I sleep past 5a *sighs*
ANYways... been ponderin' writing about some of the recently-recurring memoria, but since most of my memoria is of harsh(er) moments of my life...
well, mayhaps I will - just not this time
and if I do, I'll probably do 'em as spoilers/"hidden-until-clicked" to keep people from thinking I had some kind of horrid life...
honestly, I've had a LOT of good moments in my life... I just don't dream about them as often
Most of this week has been... odd... home-wise.
While the past couple years it's been sleep a few hours, wake up middle of the night, then sleep again a couple hours - not this week.
this past week I've been lucky to sleep those few hours *sighs*
I'll fall asleep, wake up - thinking it's the middle of the night... only for it to have been maybe an hour.
I'll lay back down... but end up unable to sleep... until it's finally the middle of the night and THEN I'll sleep a couple hours.
Doesn't help that I keep waking up due to dreams - not frightening ones (I actually like having those)...
dreams that are a mix of memoria... as if my brain finds a pattern between memoria and decides to merge them.
Not. F'n. Cool.
By the gods I'm so hoping this is a temporary thing, I really do. I kinda need sleep... when I'm tired I get, well, "weird(er)."
[ trust me - ask the ex-wife, if she remembers... she'd told me many times that when I'm tired I get quite odd - especially when I fight it ]
Semi-related, I had a friend remind me of how I was always the night owl/night hawk, up all night and not sleeping until daylight...
demn, have things changed! now I'm lucky if I sleep past 5a *sighs*
ANYways... been ponderin' writing about some of the recently-recurring memoria, but since most of my memoria is of harsh(er) moments of my life...
well, mayhaps I will - just not this time
and if I do, I'll probably do 'em as spoilers/"hidden-until-clicked" to keep people from thinking I had some kind of horrid life...
honestly, I've had a LOT of good moments in my life... I just don't dream about them as often