wolfang666

Finals was last week and school is done I haven't been online at all the past couple of weeks because of school but now I'm back to the internet. I am missing writing on here I would like to do it more just talk about my life a bit my feelings someone where I can just put it down and no one will judge me for what I think. And for now I guess I feel alone. I have friends and family but no one I am close with I want a companion someone to love I want a partner a girl. The longer I am alone the more I get used to it the more this sadness feels normal like how the world is supposed to be. Tastes are getting bland and colors are getting dull. I think I have a problem I think I need someone to talk to but I don't want to talk to my friends they wouldn't understand, and i can't talk to my family they are stuck in there own world they can't see anything but sunshine and happiness. Even as I write this I am feeling like I am the only person in the world who could feel this way surrounded by people but all alone at the same time. What is wrong with me am i not good enough to be loved am I to old to start a relationship with why is it so hard for me to find someone. If anyone reads this and would just like to talk I could use a girl who would be willing to listen to me complain about my life someone who can tell me that it gets easier that life isn't all that bad. Is it selfish that i want a girl to talk to dose that seem weird that I want a female companion to talk to I have trouble thinking that its normal that i just want a girl to talk to. I want someone to cuddle with I want to feel close to her and feel like for once in my life I am not alone.