Saturday Jan 05, 2013

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So somehow i've managed to go through school, college and in general life being an outsider and a bit of a loner reclusive. I say somehow because I did have friends and I did do activities I was just inwardly so completely divorced from them that i may as well have been a stranger to those groups. Yet I knew of no other options...
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luscious:

Well I hope that you do not reformulate too much!
I suppose I am very blessed to live and work in the industry I do.
We have been able to work for ourselves to earn the homestead we will, hopefully, be purchasing this year.
I can no longer imagine "working for the man", it has been almost a decade since, and I honestly think if I had to, I would start slaughtering people...so good on you for dealing with it all, shows that you are strong.
But I hope that you do not lose sight of who you are, and what you want in life.
Our souls are so much bigger and older than the existence we now know, I used to not hear it.
But over the last few years it's a call I can no longer ignore, and it has really helped me see what my priorities are.

wildfarmer:

Thank you for the encouragement, its incredible to hear from my favorite gal on the whole site!! Good luck on the homestead!! You are an inspiration with a soul of my favorite goddess Freyja!!

I don't know what it says that I ended up working for the very man I wanted to free myself from. Its ironic but I now work at a power plant and all I have dreamed of is how to go off grid. Not prone to slaughter the innocent and ignorant, but I sure do think now and again about throwing in a monkey wrench in the grid and giving folks who complacently rely on systems that are destroying the earth a wake up call.....

I'm not going to lose sight nor compromise. Just got to fight for my next vantage and opening. It will come and there are many lessons in this process. You are so very right "or souls are so much bigger and older than the existence we now..." I'm listening, learning and am humbling myself to this fact. I will make my purpose happen. Obstacles merely sharpen the purpose and strengthen the will.





Saturday Jan 05, 2013

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So I'm sitting in half lotus meditation trying to slip into ecstatic synchrony with the both the aum and light, but no dice. Lingering tainted emotions from the last girlfriend shakeup I had keep rolling through my mind. I know why we didn't work out, I just have a hard time shaking off the feeling of loneliness. I do my best to send...
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