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DON'T WORRY - I'M NOT GREY ANY MORE!!!
I knew that my complimentary memership was expiring this month but I wasn't sure when. If you happend to see that I went grey last night and into this morning - sorry
but NEVER FEAR because I still had another complimentary memership to use
Guess having 2 sets declined wasn't such a bad...
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DON'T WORRY - I'M NOT GREY ANY MORE!!!
I knew that my complimentary memership was expiring this month but I wasn't sure when. If you happend to see that I went grey last night and into this morning - sorry


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oracle:
no, although I do go to San Diego alot...the airshow is by Sacramento.
oracle:
ya definately will.
Story of the day...................
Holy SCARY moment for whitewidow last night!!!
So there I was......snuggled in my "cuddle" (AKA - my favorite gramma made blankie) with my trusty teddy bear (thanks to Schiavona)
when all of a sudden at 3:12 this morning I woke up in horror because I could not breath!
I tried sucking air into my lungs for a good 5-10 seconds...
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Holy SCARY moment for whitewidow last night!!!

So there I was......snuggled in my "cuddle" (AKA - my favorite gramma made blankie) with my trusty teddy bear (thanks to Schiavona)


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fellonearth:
Sounds like sleep apnea to me, it's not uncommon. Millions of people suffer from it and most don't even know, but treatment is available. Your sister told me that I stop breathing in my sleep (classic symptom). You should probably get it checked out, it can cause some serious side-effects (says the kettle to the pot). Still though, it could also be a symptom of some other problem which may mimic the effects of OSA (Obstructive Sleep Apnea). I hope all else is good, take care sis.
fellonearth:
I dug a little deeper and came up with a few other things that may have caused you your "fright night". Can you remember if you felt or tasted acid in your throat when you woke up? If so, you may be suffering from gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD). Stomach acid can travel up the esophageal tube and then be aspirated into the trachea, creating a blockage (yuck). In comparison, OSA is caused by the tongue sinking back against the throat (by gravity), creating a seal and blocking the airway. People who snore or are overweight are more likely to suffer from this condition (fatty tissue within the neck can contribute to the problem). I don't know about the snoring part, but I know you don't have a fat neck. There are also other things to consider. There may be a lot of particulate matter in the air where you are now living. Ash and smoke from cigarettes and soot from an oil burning heater may have triggered the onset of an asthma, giving you an asthma attack. You might also have something not so nice... Paroxysmal nocturnal dyspnea (PND), which causes the same symptoms as the above, specifically during sleep. PND may be caused by a heart problem, specifically, the left ventricle of the heart functioning improperly or with the narrowing of the bicuspid valve located near the left ventricle (yikes!). PND can also be caused by high blood pressure. Increased anxiety and panic attacks might also be the culprit. Sorry, I don't want to worry you, but it's always good to be informed (especially if it allows you to find a cure). I hope it isn't anything serious. Maybe all you need is some good, clean ocean air, it's a good thing you'll be visiting again soon, just try not too breathe too much of the crappy air in the L.A. to San Bernadino areas, it's full of smog.
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WHITEWIDOW IS OFFICIALLY GOING INSANE!!!!!!
Thats right - this is the longest I have ever gone without working since I was 12 years old.........and I HATE IT!!!
I guess I just have to keep my mind on the future and remind myself that this is only temporary.
I know that good things come to those who wait....but I have always been...
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WHITEWIDOW IS OFFICIALLY GOING INSANE!!!!!!

Thats right - this is the longest I have ever gone without working since I was 12 years old.........and I HATE IT!!!

I guess I just have to keep my mind on the future and remind myself that this is only temporary.

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faust3:
It can only get better...
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madscience:
Those are great. But trust me, 30 isn't so bad, just read back through some of my journal entries, espeically, oh say, the Thailand adventures or the Cancun chronicles, or the Belize stories, or . . . well, you get the picture . . . I've quite enjoyed my 30's, and you can too. 

supernovice:
Thank you very much, ma'am!
OK guys.........
Thats it - no more "melodramatic" journals. I can't do that to you anymore......and I don't like posting them anyways
I guess I just got into a bad frame of mind after losing 3 people in my life within such a short period of time. Being away from Pete is really starting to take its toll on me too. Top that off with...
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Thats it - no more "melodramatic" journals. I can't do that to you anymore......and I don't like posting them anyways

I guess I just got into a bad frame of mind after losing 3 people in my life within such a short period of time. Being away from Pete is really starting to take its toll on me too. Top that off with...
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caffeinemonkey:
Sometimes it is just good to vent. And this is a good place to do that. You have had a lot of loss in a very short period. That is a lot to handle.
I am psychic and I see no kidney failure in your future
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I am psychic and I see no kidney failure in your future


schiavona:
You deserve to be a bit impatient. After all, you need to get down there with PP so you guys can finally be together.
I don't know why, but from your last journal entry I was thinking you might be saying you were pregnant.
Don't worry, relax. All things will come to you.
Thinking of you lots.. I hope you are doing okay and no family drama has occured.
Love you.
I don't know why, but from your last journal entry I was thinking you might be saying you were pregnant.

Thinking of you lots.. I hope you are doing okay and no family drama has occured.
Love you.


Fuck my last post about "Life going on" because I am DONE with people dying on me
This morning I found out that my friends mom passed away unexpectedly
As well...........the story I was hoping to share ended in a way that makes it unworthy of telling.
I'm having a bad I miss Pete day too
I am really starting to get to the end...
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As well...........the story I was hoping to share ended in a way that makes it unworthy of telling.

I'm having a bad I miss Pete day too

I am really starting to get to the end...
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rodan:
awww...
*hugs*
*hugs*
Story of the day................
OK - I think that I am done with being sad for a while!!!!
The memorial service for Shawn was today and I wasn't able to make it
Probably for the best really since I woulda seen all of my friends in Moose Jaw and only got sad again when I had to leave. Guess this whole getting motion/car sick lately...
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OK - I think that I am done with being sad for a while!!!!

The memorial service for Shawn was today and I wasn't able to make it

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caffeinemonkey:
I hate funerals as well. I never feel I say or do the right things for the family and friends. But we all morn and give our support in our own ways. I know you will reflect on the good that your friend and aunt gave to the world and in that way they will live on.
Hope you have a wonderful weekend.
Hope you have a wonderful weekend.
frantic:
no worries, always there for ya!
have fun with house stuff, its a pain in the backside moving everything tho. its the whole packing part and you think "damn i have this much stuff?"
have fun with house stuff, its a pain in the backside moving everything tho. its the whole packing part and you think "damn i have this much stuff?"
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When it rains, it pours
Just as all of us who knew Capt Shawn McCaughey (Snowbird #2) are trying to piece together his sudden passing, I get the news this morning that my aunt passed away
This in turn means that I will not be going back to my base for the memorial service the military is holding for Shawn as...
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When it rains, it pours

Just as all of us who knew Capt Shawn McCaughey (Snowbird #2) are trying to piece together his sudden passing, I get the news this morning that my aunt passed away

This in turn means that I will not be going back to my base for the memorial service the military is holding for Shawn as...
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clarkekid:
Aww... you just can't seem to catch a break right now.
*hug*

*hug*
frantic:
sorry for your loss. feel free message me if you need to chat.
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Back from vacation. Today is not the day to fill you all in with details because I received a phone call this afternoon to find out
this
I mean no disrespect to all of you who shared in my vacation (I had tons of fun) but this really hit home for me because over the years I have been working with...
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Back from vacation. Today is not the day to fill you all in with details because I received a phone call this afternoon to find out
this
I mean no disrespect to all of you who shared in my vacation (I had tons of fun) but this really hit home for me because over the years I have been working with...
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clarkekid:
Aww... that is a crappy ending to a vacation.
*hug*
It was great seeing you though.

*hug*
It was great seeing you though.

pureevull:
wow one hell of a phone call to get i said a prayer after i saw the video
Story of the day.......................
OK - BYE everyone!!!


I am off to California for the next 10 days to spend some time with the hubby (FINALLY!!) so behave while I am away and I hope to come back with lots of stories, pictures and fun stuff



For those of you who live in and around the area...I believe we are planning on doing Disneyland on...
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OK - BYE everyone!!!



I am off to California for the next 10 days to spend some time with the hubby (FINALLY!!) so behave while I am away and I hope to come back with lots of stories, pictures and fun stuff




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schiavona:
Just stopping by to say I miss you. I hope this is a sign that you are having so much fun that you haven't had time to get up here.
Love you.

Love you.

