wantingseed

music is killing me

nothing sounds good anymore. it all feels so stifling. it seems i don't even have the energy to explore anything new. the thing that sucks is everything sounds like something that has already been done. it gets very tiresome to constantly hear whomever a band's influences are through their music.

writing has been bland too. anything i write has been all whimsical and comical. i have not been at all interested in putting to paper any insightful looks into life. all of that seems a waste of time lately. it serves as a constant reminder of how serious people take themselves.

seems the hardest thing about realizing that nothing matters is knowing that nothing matters.

all i have been interested in lately is joyous expression. everything else is boring. the tendency we have to make things more complex by injecting our own misconstrued notions into things is so wasteful. i have done my share and i'm sure i will do so again. right now its just droll. face value works. find simple answers to complex questions. use occam's razor with gusto!

people in the raw are interesting. when it is unintentional and they are giddy like children. when they can throw inhibitions to the side and just be in awe of what is happening. find it somewhere and watch it for as long as you can. learn it and become.