I've been feeling so low lately, it's awful.
I want a hug and someone to cry on. I don't know what's the matter with me.
I want a hug and someone to cry on. I don't know what's the matter with me.
Holy frijoles, what do you know? I'M DOING LAUNDRY.
Today I'm hitting the gym twice. I wanna lose 10 pounds asap, so its weights in the morning and kickboxing at night.
I know I'll probably get shit on for this, but I feel fat. I feel like a huge ass whale and I know I can't be. I went from being a size 13 a...
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Today I'm hitting the gym twice. I wanna lose 10 pounds asap, so its weights in the morning and kickboxing at night.
I know I'll probably get shit on for this, but I feel fat. I feel like a huge ass whale and I know I can't be. I went from being a size 13 a...
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aaxxx:
Yeah i know what you mean... I lost 60 pounds... I was a real fat ass... and even though I went from a waist size 44 to a size 32 I dont really notice the different unless I compare it to an old picture... yeah I don't know where I am going with this but I wouldn't mind losing 30 more pounds... or at least toning up what I got... but I dont know I want to be the skinny kid...that'll never happen 
eazy:
Cheesy lingerie = good.
Working out to feel better about urself = good
Working out to make other people feel better about u = bad.
Starving to fit an impossible dream = bad
Hanging out with ian = good
Working out to feel better about urself = good
Working out to make other people feel better about u = bad.
Starving to fit an impossible dream = bad
Hanging out with ian = good
Hey internet,
I'm RETARDED.
After 2 hours at the gym kickboxing and lifting weights like a girly man, I feel a lot better. Now I am going to drown in the tub if I can crawl my way to it and I am sad I don't have any fun bathoils or beads and what have you. Must remember to buy nice smelling stuff. Then I...
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I'm RETARDED.
After 2 hours at the gym kickboxing and lifting weights like a girly man, I feel a lot better. Now I am going to drown in the tub if I can crawl my way to it and I am sad I don't have any fun bathoils or beads and what have you. Must remember to buy nice smelling stuff. Then I...
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steve_huge:
pirate.... thats the way to go... why has no one done a pirate set yet... and if they have why havent i seen it...
cant help with the bath unfortunately... waaayyyyyy to far away.... what about you tell me what time you're having the bath, and i'll have one at the same time... it'll be more like a spiritual bath... doesnt really help with the hair though...
was going to get my girlie to do a pirate set... but if you beat her to it i'm sure i'll think of something else
cant help with the bath unfortunately... waaayyyyyy to far away.... what about you tell me what time you're having the bath, and i'll have one at the same time... it'll be more like a spiritual bath... doesnt really help with the hair though...
was going to get my girlie to do a pirate set... but if you beat her to it i'm sure i'll think of something else
lores:
Damn, can't help you - my arms are jello too after snowboarding. I've invented loads of, er, 'rad' new tricks though. Most of which involve sliding down the mountain on my face.
Well, I made it 29 days without getting drunk.
Last night Karla and her bf broke up so I took her to dinner, only intending to have one drink. I ended up having 5 big ones, ended up at a biker bar, made friends with some old biker dudes, got hookups to the Queensryche show, got offered a ride on a Harley, and got a...
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Last night Karla and her bf broke up so I took her to dinner, only intending to have one drink. I ended up having 5 big ones, ended up at a biker bar, made friends with some old biker dudes, got hookups to the Queensryche show, got offered a ride on a Harley, and got a...
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malloreigh:
you are a sexpie. a sexual pie god damnit.
steve_huge:
hey you... sucks about the job... but thats not a definite no... not that that helps but...
nick sounds... different... is the nicest way i can put it, and you do go through some real highs and low's... simple fact is, you can do better... no i dont know you and no i dont know him... but... i do read your journal and with those differences, you can do better. he may be the nicest guy in the world be if he does not fulfill what you need personall that means you can do better as nice or not, he's bad for you if he cant be what you need...
as i say no moping more doing... works well for material things... not so well for emotional... thats a different kettle of fish entirely unfortunately...
but be happy in the fact that you are smart, a nice person, caring and not that its an important factor, but you are attractive as well. just because the person you want to geet something back from doesnt give it, i'm sure the majority of people you do care for, give to and go out of the way for appreciate it loads... i appreciate it when you comment in my journal, it makes me smile... which means it was worth the five minutes of your time to do it...
it gets you plenty to give... makes you feel good when at least one person appreciates it doesnt it, makes you feel good when you genuinely make someone smile or happy, makes you feeel good when someone appreciates you back, nick or otherwise, thaat makes it worth giving for...
on top of that just look around each day, specially when things seem their worse, there'll be something there to make you appreciaate what you do have... and its worth giving... even to those that dont appreciate it... at least yyou know you're not like them... which puts you in a far better position than they'll ever be...
i care and i appreciate the efffort you put in just to say hi on my jourrnal when i'm down, i know it doesnt stand for much, but at least you know someone appreciates the effort you make and as much as that isn't a hug its the best i can offer from where i am... that and you managed to make me smile today... so the day wasnt a totla loss
anyway yet again i've rambeled on... sorry... i do that a lot
i hope somewhere i've been able to raise a smile... if so... thats makes me feeel good... you lokk far nicer smiling i'm sure
if you ever need a chat...
x
nick sounds... different... is the nicest way i can put it, and you do go through some real highs and low's... simple fact is, you can do better... no i dont know you and no i dont know him... but... i do read your journal and with those differences, you can do better. he may be the nicest guy in the world be if he does not fulfill what you need personall that means you can do better as nice or not, he's bad for you if he cant be what you need...
as i say no moping more doing... works well for material things... not so well for emotional... thats a different kettle of fish entirely unfortunately...
but be happy in the fact that you are smart, a nice person, caring and not that its an important factor, but you are attractive as well. just because the person you want to geet something back from doesnt give it, i'm sure the majority of people you do care for, give to and go out of the way for appreciate it loads... i appreciate it when you comment in my journal, it makes me smile... which means it was worth the five minutes of your time to do it...
it gets you plenty to give... makes you feel good when at least one person appreciates it doesnt it, makes you feel good when you genuinely make someone smile or happy, makes you feeel good when someone appreciates you back, nick or otherwise, thaat makes it worth giving for...
on top of that just look around each day, specially when things seem their worse, there'll be something there to make you appreciaate what you do have... and its worth giving... even to those that dont appreciate it... at least yyou know you're not like them... which puts you in a far better position than they'll ever be...
i care and i appreciate the efffort you put in just to say hi on my jourrnal when i'm down, i know it doesnt stand for much, but at least you know someone appreciates the effort you make and as much as that isn't a hug its the best i can offer from where i am... that and you managed to make me smile today... so the day wasnt a totla loss
anyway yet again i've rambeled on... sorry... i do that a lot
i hope somewhere i've been able to raise a smile... if so... thats makes me feeel good... you lokk far nicer smiling i'm sure
if you ever need a chat...
x
Be prepared to die from a cuteness overload...I present to you my puppy: APOLLO CREED! 
I had originally posted pix directly to here, but it started taking 47 years for anything to show up, so go look in my pictures section for a couple of shots of his royal puppyness.
Weekend was good, slow, watched some horror flicks, got some sleep, some lovin, some sushi,...
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I had originally posted pix directly to here, but it started taking 47 years for anything to show up, so go look in my pictures section for a couple of shots of his royal puppyness.
Weekend was good, slow, watched some horror flicks, got some sleep, some lovin, some sushi,...
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lores:
I have a friend who has a real weakness for cute puppies. If I send her any of those pictures, I think she'll implode in some kind of sqealing pink cuteness-vortex
eazy:
Whenever ur free I will find a way to meet up with you. I work an average of 16 hours a day Mon-Fri, but I will find a way so we can make this a reality. It is time to change u from member to GIRL.
So today, or yesterday rather, I ate a bunch of crappy food, slept through kickboxing, then woke up and got my hair done and then went on a date with my hot redheaded friend Karla to get burgers, ice cream, and see a movie. We saw Life Aquatic, and I wouldn't reccommend wasting the money to see it. I don't hate it, but I don't...
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acidevangelist:
Makeout sessions never get old...
steve_huge:
ok i've been with my girl 7 years (just had our 7th anniversary)... honestly...
no, never, is all good... if anything they should get better... you lose the need for sex... now dont get me wrong... the need or want for sex should never go... but... its nice to just spend the nite making out and fooling around
fuck me boots, long coat... like the bow tie, i've never had that one, had the rest though... trust me... if you can pull it off without smiling... he'll be a happy happy men... i was... but don't expect to just make out afteer that though
you sound happy
is nice
no, never, is all good... if anything they should get better... you lose the need for sex... now dont get me wrong... the need or want for sex should never go... but... its nice to just spend the nite making out and fooling around
fuck me boots, long coat... like the bow tie, i've never had that one, had the rest though... trust me... if you can pull it off without smiling... he'll be a happy happy men... i was
... but don't expect to just make out afteer that though
you sound happy
is nice
I think I got a new job The guy I interviewed with today wasn't the main hiring dude, but he seemed really impressed with my knowledge and, not to sound conceited or anything, but I think he thought I was cute. So hopefully he puts in a good word, but I have a really good feeling about this gym. Woo!
AND THERE ARE NO SALES!...
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The guy I interviewed with today wasn't the main hiring dude, but he seemed really impressed with my knowledge and, not to sound conceited or anything, but I think he thought I was cute. So hopefully he puts in a good word, but I have a really good feeling about this gym. Woo!
AND THERE ARE NO SALES!...
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trebo:
You are a good friend 
! As far as the procrastination goes well...lets talk abou that some other time!
! As far as the procrastination goes well...lets talk abou that some other time! 
gabriel_rain:
I'm glad your doing well. Congradulations on the near job. I hope tomarrow is good for you too.
I keep having dreams about my bike, this time that I crashed it going really fast and my tire was totally ripped and some broad wanted to charge me $100 for a new one. Oh and I dreamed about a car that had 1000hp and could hit 700mph in like 5 seconds. And it could go invisible. I don't get it.
Today:
Doctor's appointments up...
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Today:
Doctor's appointments up...
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aaxxx:
I had a dream where I was kat and I turned invisible. 
doll_:
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i wish there was some way to just make huge letters......
i love you
i llve you
i love you
you make me soooo happy
i wish there was some way to just make huge letters......
i love you
i llve you
i love you
you make me soooo happyGood grief I'm bored. I should do laundry and clean today as I have nothing else to do and my kickboxing class isn't until 6 p.m. but I just don't want to. I don't want to do anything really. Ugh. I am wishing this damn rain would stop so I could go bike riding or rollerblading, or SOMETHING. Christ.
So I have an appointment tomorrow...
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So I have an appointment tomorrow...
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whiskeybent:
thanks for the positive energy vibes, I feel better already
aaxxx:
PUNK ROCK... a little obnoxious
I just watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind for the very first time, and now I am all weepy and I don't know why.
No, I know why. I just don't want to admit it.
I just want to be loved. I just want someone to care about me the same way I care about them. I just want security. I just don't want...
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No, I know why. I just don't want to admit it.
I just want to be loved. I just want someone to care about me the same way I care about them. I just want security. I just don't want...
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trebo:
I 
U!!
U!!
doll_:
i love you my little pirate broad... dont be sad......you have me!
sorry you're feeling blue.
for some odd reason this kid just made me laugh. Perhaps it's because the fingers on his right hand look broken.... hehehehe.
yeah. Ichi the killer is pretty much all blood and guts, but it's blood and guts WITH A PURPOSE!
and the main villian in the movie just kicks ass.
hope you feel better... Cherrios always makes me feel better.