violently

Good grief I'm bored. I should do laundry and clean today as I have nothing else to do and my kickboxing class isn't until 6 p.m. but I just don't want to. I don't want to do anything really. Ugh. I am wishing this damn rain would stop so I could go bike riding or rollerblading, or SOMETHING. Christ.

So I have an appointment tomorrow to get my Klonopins refilled. I actually felt much better after taking my last one yesterday, so I'm guessing this is just how it's gonna have to be for awhile, until the gym really kicks in and I get some more endorphins flowing through my system. At least I have not put on any more weight unless my scale is wrong. I am still tempted to buy a bottle of Leptoprin anyways though, for $153 a bottle it better make me lose "20 pounds or more!". I would love to weigh 112 lbs. Haha omg that'll be the day. If I weighed less that 120 I'd probably get seriously sick.

I wanna do something fun and feel pretty or something today. But I feel like it's pointless getting all ready to do something when there is nothing to do, and by this afternoon I'll be a sweaty mess anyway. Blah blah blahhhhh.

4 more days till I see Nick and puppy, yay! I dreamed I had puppy with me last night, and that we were delivering hay on bicycles to some remote jungle area with some angry men and my gramma. Oh and puppy's name wasn't Apollo, it was Oppenheimer Flesh. Wtf?

Someone come steal me for a few hours.



P.S. My sister and I have decided to start working out together daily, and my brother just gave me a full pack of Murad skin supplies. I will be buff and non pimply once again! Woo!