Talked. We're cool. Both of us need to get our heads on straight. He wants some alone time, and I need a vacation from all the stress I've been under. So this weekend we're not hanging out and me and Garbage are going to Mexico.
Nick said I could call him anytime I wanted and that things between us are not over. More than likely...
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Nick said I could call him anytime I wanted and that things between us are not over. More than likely...
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broadwaybee:
Um....why don't YOU get on his jock??
daggers:
55 guys names juan and 55 bottles of cheep tequila 
I still have no idea what is going on. I stayed at his house last night, but I think he is upset with me still. I have to wait to talk to him again tonight. I can't stop crying.
I just want things to be good again. I just want him to care.
I don't want to hurt anymore.
Conversation from last night- it's long...
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I just want things to be good again. I just want him to care.
I don't want to hurt anymore.
Conversation from last night- it's long...
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carryavengeance:
well for your sake i sure hope you can get a straight answer
conqueringking:
That was damn awful. It makes me want to fly out there and pound him.... 
You are way to awesome to put up with this shit. Everyone I have as a friend on this site has something about them that makes them unique and awesome. You are no exception. He he can't see that he's a retarded. Then again anyone who says. "IF Im doing anything like pumping gas...then you cant come over." or something like that...that's fucked up....He's not paying for your gas. He's not begging you to come over. You're doing it of your own free will. You aren't demanding his time. It doesnt take much effort to cuddle.... He's trying to throw probably the best thing in his life away. And instead of being a man about it. He's acting like a little chicken shit and it's hurting you more. And then to make matters worse he's trying to place you in some kind of standby bootycall postion. Tell the Fatboy.."He cant have his cake and eat it too" I see exactly what he's really trying to do and it pisses me off so much right now. 
You are way to awesome to put up with this shit. Everyone I have as a friend on this site has something about them that makes them unique and awesome. You are no exception. He he can't see that he's a retarded. Then again anyone who says. "IF Im doing anything like pumping gas...then you cant come over." or something like that...that's fucked up....He's not paying for your gas. He's not begging you to come over. You're doing it of your own free will. You aren't demanding his time. It doesnt take much effort to cuddle.... He's trying to throw probably the best thing in his life away. And instead of being a man about it. He's acting like a little chicken shit and it's hurting you more. And then to make matters worse he's trying to place you in some kind of standby bootycall postion. Tell the Fatboy.."He cant have his cake and eat it too" I see exactly what he's really trying to do and it pisses me off so much right now. He is suck a fucking dick to me sometimes. All I ever need is a hug and a kiss and an "it's gonna be ok." And all I ever get is how I have problems, and how he doesn't want to talk about us, and his attitude. And how he doesn't love me, and how we're not bf & gf, and how he doesn't know...
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thescottness:
Text me, we'll hang out, have coffee, and bitch about how much people suck. It'll be GREAT! 
Feel better peaches, from the looks of your journal there are a lot of people who really care about you. Fuck him, you're what's important.
Feel better peaches, from the looks of your journal there are a lot of people who really care about you. Fuck him, you're what's important.
No word. I am really fucking hurt and upset. If I ever hear from him he better have some damn good excuses.
Today I am leaving my house and I am going to attempt to go to Mexico.
Adios fuckers.
Update: I have no one to go to Mexico with, AGAIN. I am scared to go alone though, somehow I don't think that would be...
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Today I am leaving my house and I am going to attempt to go to Mexico.
Adios fuckers.
Update: I have no one to go to Mexico with, AGAIN. I am scared to go alone though, somehow I don't think that would be...
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thescottness:
awe... don't cry.
how can you cry while watching Bea Arthur? That woman was born to make people smile.
well...
smile and cringe in terror over the thought of her nekkid.
awe... don't cry.
how can you cry while watching Bea Arthur? That woman was born to make people smile.
well...
smile and cringe in terror over the thought of her nekkid.
aaxxx:
I haven't been to mexico in years... At least 10 so I havent been there since I wanted to do bad stuff... Once some friends in high school went and had their rental car stolen... they were shiting it cause their parents didnt know they had gone to mexico...dumbasses 
Still haven't heard from dude, and I am too tired and depressed to do anything other than sit here. I want to call him, but what would I say? Why haven't you called? I give up.
I moved all my afternoon clients to Thursday. I am so lucky my boss is understanding.
I want a hug.
And now it's study time followed by Klonopins and...
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I moved all my afternoon clients to Thursday. I am so lucky my boss is understanding.
I want a hug.
And now it's study time followed by Klonopins and...
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steve_huge:
i just cant rid me of the bloody things....
bok bok bokAAAWWWW
bok bok bokAAAWWWW
being sedated sucks when it starts to wear off.
never heard back from dude yesterday. i guess he was still fixing his brakes as he was MIA all day. wish he'd called though. hopefully i'll hear from him today.
not one of my friends has called to ask how court went. this kind of bothers me too. like, everyone knew i was going...so what gives?...
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never heard back from dude yesterday. i guess he was still fixing his brakes as he was MIA all day. wish he'd called though. hopefully i'll hear from him today.
not one of my friends has called to ask how court went. this kind of bothers me too. like, everyone knew i was going...so what gives?...
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steve_huge:
hey sexy, havent been by for a while
hope the fella has rung by the time you read this, which im sure he will
how did the court go? hopefully it went well, it obviously didnt go to badly...
as for the pills.... you know how i feel, i know things get hard at times and they seem like they help but they are only there to make things easier... which although nice, making things easier is no cure... and the easy option is very rarely the right one
really try and take as few of those aspossible, they really dont help and long term they can make things a billion times worse.... but you know this already, i just worry...
as for friends... they're all the same unfortunately, genuinely caring people are very few and far between. as you said, the sooner you realise this the better... once you accept that you can not expect from others what you give yourself relationships become far easier, although you will get some back, its very rare to receive what you give...
other people have their own crap going on that they think is important and very few people think outside of their little bubble of problems... dont judge them too harshly, they're just trying to survive themselves.... but unfortunately lack the capability to look outside of their sphere to others who are in need... but quick to pull those around them into their sphere when they need the support... one of humanities more depressing problems...
anyway... sorry i havent stopped by for a while... i wont leave it as long next time
hope you are well
me
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that bloody chicken follows me everywhere... sorry
bok bok bokAAAWWWW....
hope the fella has rung by the time you read this, which im sure he will
how did the court go? hopefully it went well, it obviously didnt go to badly...
as for the pills.... you know how i feel, i know things get hard at times and they seem like they help but they are only there to make things easier... which although nice, making things easier is no cure... and the easy option is very rarely the right one
really try and take as few of those aspossible, they really dont help and long term they can make things a billion times worse.... but you know this already, i just worry...
as for friends... they're all the same unfortunately, genuinely caring people are very few and far between. as you said, the sooner you realise this the better... once you accept that you can not expect from others what you give yourself relationships become far easier, although you will get some back, its very rare to receive what you give...
other people have their own crap going on that they think is important and very few people think outside of their little bubble of problems... dont judge them too harshly, they're just trying to survive themselves.... but unfortunately lack the capability to look outside of their sphere to others who are in need... but quick to pull those around them into their sphere when they need the support... one of humanities more depressing problems...
anyway... sorry i havent stopped by for a while... i wont leave it as long next time
hope you are well
me
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that bloody chicken follows me everywhere... sorry
bok bok bokAAAWWWW....
thescottness:
what the fuck is a klonopin?
Not in jail. Yet.
March 14th is the do or die hearing. I have 2 weeks to get my doctors to explain to the Ontario County Courts why I do not need to go to jail. Unless everyone thinks I belong there, then that's another story. I've had about 10 people tell me I'm "out there" or "crazy" or "nuts" in the past week, so...
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March 14th is the do or die hearing. I have 2 weeks to get my doctors to explain to the Ontario County Courts why I do not need to go to jail. Unless everyone thinks I belong there, then that's another story. I've had about 10 people tell me I'm "out there" or "crazy" or "nuts" in the past week, so...
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jennrose:
yeah it really is a great game. that's why i want my friend to hurry up and beat it so i can see the ending! lol
garbage19:
Im down to kick it this week, then it'll be like three of the same people hanging out, i was barely able to get used to one other person like me. i have fatal frame 1 and 2 if you want to borrow them for your boyfriend. you know the drill, i work until 8 everyday, but give me a call or send me a message and let me know where to be at what time.
Anyone know where I could get a Valkyrie costume so I can go as Maude to Lebowski Fest in March?
Today was a waste. I didn't go to training because I am STILL hocking up a lung, I have an awful migraine, and I am riding the cotton pony straight to cramp central station at 90 mph.
Also, you get to choose what tracks you...
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Today was a waste. I didn't go to training because I am STILL hocking up a lung, I have an awful migraine, and I am riding the cotton pony straight to cramp central station at 90 mph.
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lores:
That one sentence makes me think I lead a really boring life 
broadwaybee:
Holy shit, dude. I used to be really fat, TOO. 
So I thought I had to be at the gym at 11 today. Yeah wrong, 1 p.m. Duhhhh Mary, way to read your email correctly. I need fucking glasses.
Last night I kept down some sushi and some green tea ice cream. Maybe going out with the girls helped ease some stress. Also maybe that glass of wine helped too. Either way go me. I...
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Last night I kept down some sushi and some green tea ice cream. Maybe going out with the girls helped ease some stress. Also maybe that glass of wine helped too. Either way go me. I...
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the_squishy:
Why, thank you violently. *hands you a lilly*
thescottness:
YOU HAD A DREAM ABOUT GAY SEX TOO!?
the part that confuses me is how the "interplanatary war" fits in to the whole gay sex motif. Were two guys standing on the bridge of a starship and were like:
"Ensign Ricky! Raise the shields and get us the hell outta' here!"
"Ei ei captain!"
"oh... and ricky.... drop your pants.... that's an order."
"EI EI CAPTAIN! "
now that sounds like a movie I would like to see.
feel better soon!
the part that confuses me is how the "interplanatary war" fits in to the whole gay sex motif. Were two guys standing on the bridge of a starship and were like:
"Ensign Ricky! Raise the shields and get us the hell outta' here!"
"Ei ei captain!"
"oh... and ricky.... drop your pants.... that's an order."
"EI EI CAPTAIN! "
now that sounds like a movie I would like to see.
feel better soon!
TMI FRIDAY!
I thought I started crimson tide last night, but it turns out my bfs cock is too big.
Ok. Still haven't studied, and I don't plan on it till Monday. In the meantime I have aerobics training all weekend, my best friend Mike D is coming into town on Monday, (which is also the date of my hearing- so hopefully I won't be...
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I thought I started crimson tide last night, but it turns out my bfs cock is too big.
Ok. Still haven't studied, and I don't plan on it till Monday. In the meantime I have aerobics training all weekend, my best friend Mike D is coming into town on Monday, (which is also the date of my hearing- so hopefully I won't be...
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thescottness:
like 5 pm?... damn.
though I'm sure I can make it out.. I'm not planning on doing anything tomorrow anyway.
though I'm sure I can make it out.. I'm not planning on doing anything tomorrow anyway.
gabriel_rain:
Its ok, i'm not quite sure how to make a wish list and to know that I made you happy makes me happy. I'm still a bit sick but am doing better than I was. I ran 5.5 miles on a treadmill in a hour with sweats on, that killed some of it and helped my immune system. I go to iraq in august but am going back to CA in june or july for two weeks to visit friends and family before i go. Oh, I found black vodka when i was in anchorage. It was good, but nothing different than the color, yet grey goose is probably better. When I'm a DD I usually just laugh at the drunks and make sure they don't get into too much trouble I cause for them. I hope you are well.
I'm still a bit sick but am doing better than I was. I ran 5.5 miles on a treadmill in a hour with sweats on, that killed some of it and helped my immune system. I go to iraq in august but am going back to CA in june or july for two weeks to visit friends and family before i go. Oh, I found black vodka when i was in anchorage. It was good, but nothing different than the color, yet grey goose is probably better. When I'm a DD I usually just laugh at the drunks and make sure they don't get into too much trouble I cause for them. I hope you are well.Oh joyous day, I feel tired and dizzy and have barfed up everything I have eaten in the last 3 days. Including water. Other than that, I feel fine. I don't get it. I dont feel sick. If this persists maybe I will have hipbones and I'll get to buy a new belt.
In spite of all the barfing I feel fat. I think it's...
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thescottness:
BWAHAHAHA! I've never heard "ride the cotton pony" before!
That seriously made my day.
Sucks ballsacks that your camera got stoldified. I'd give you mine, but my roommate stole it.
and yes... take pictures of you as Tammy Faye, and then make your boi dress up as that creepy over-tanned sidekick
who always wears pure white suits... that'd be awesome.
That seriously made my day.
Sucks ballsacks that your camera got stoldified. I'd give you mine, but my roommate stole it.
and yes... take pictures of you as Tammy Faye, and then make your boi dress up as that creepy over-tanned sidekick
who always wears pure white suits... that'd be awesome.
conqueringking:
That sucks. I wanted to see more pics...grrrr. I hope you tame that stubborn pony..
I really wanna go to Mexico today ADAMMMMM WTF? hahah
I'm evil.
I was thinking this morning about this guy I "dated" for exactly 12 hours. I can't remember his name, I think it was Mike. We met in the morning, spent like 6 hours talking and being like omg you are so cool I can't believe I've met someone like you...basically being gaga for...
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ADAMMMMM WTF? hahah
I'm evil.
I was thinking this morning about this guy I "dated" for exactly 12 hours. I can't remember his name, I think it was Mike. We met in the morning, spent like 6 hours talking and being like omg you are so cool I can't believe I've met someone like you...basically being gaga for...
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garbage19:
Dude, i had the best time in mexico after lunch today, i meant to call you and invite you but i totally forgot. the donkey show was incredible, i picked up some awesome sores on my dick, got some cat tranquilizer, and even did a little shopping (i got an awesome new sombrero). We should go sometime, its really fun. Goddammit, the bottom of my nose is really fucking itchy, what do u think about almost finishing a whole bunch of drinks tomorrow.
suzy_kabloozy:
I love Mexico! What did you end up doing instead?