txakurgorri

My first journal entry from my new laptop.

I'd like to apologize to my now six-year old iMac for no longer spending as much time with her.

Stayed home today. Had a violent pain in my back as if someone had stabbed me there. Took some really strong pain medicine and took a ride on the prescription meds train to lalaland. Woke up confused and depressed, again. This whole thing, this break up, is wrecking havoc on my sanity, or what little is left of it.

I seriously wanted to drown my sorrows in vodka last night and for a time there, while I was incapacitated. I have not drank since February of this year and even before that, I'd only drink a beer a week. I used to be a heavy drinker but stopped for a number of reasons. Don't get me wrong, I still like a good time, I just want to remember it better.

One minute I am happy, which confuses me, the next I am looking for Stoli. What is up and what is down?

That, I have to go back to work tomorrow since my manager is out.

I need to get out...