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"Rage flows through my veins.
My blood, my body, my mind;
my own worst enemy."

I am able to control it. But not always. It creeps up on me, stealthy, as a panther slithers through the jungle growth hidden from sight. It waits, building up its strength for a moment of weakness. And I know it is there, but yet I dont. Only at the...
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I hate just being....

I apologize for my absence in the last few days. I was at my brother's wedding reception on Saturday in Chi-town. I was laptop-less since my soon to be ex-wife needed in order to find a job.

It was incredibly nice to see my family before my parents moved overseas. My dad's pension streches out better in Colombia then back in Iowa. It's probably the...
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It rained all day yesterday. Cook-outs suck when wet.



On the other hand, it could have been worse. Oh, no wait, it was.

Spending any amount of time beyond five minutes in a TJ Maxx or Ross or Marshall makes my soul cringe in agony. It is like the machine in "The Princess Bride" that just sucks away at your soul. It is the most...
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What defines a person in someone elses or even his or her own eyes?

Is it their nature, their abilities, their lack of abilities?

Gee, Bobby there sure is a good athlete.

Is it their words or lack thereof?

She is the quiet type, ya know.

It is their actions or their inaction?

Man, he is so lazy.

Is it their hobbies, interests, secrets, their...
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Felicitaciones al Once Caldas de Manizales, nuevo Campeon de la Copa Libertadores.

No se preocupen que Boca va volver.

Y a todas las gallinas, Papa ya va volver a darles una leccion en lo que es ser campeon.

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I hate it when my favorite soccer club loses.

Ah fuck, it still was a good day.

So, I wasn't wrong. Today was good.

I am trying to get out of old routines and into new ones for myself. I just cannot sit around and wait anymore. So, I'll just be bloody proactive and get something done.

I had emailed a friend this following quote to see if it would cheer them up, but I am not sure they got it, so...
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Today was a much better day.

Work still sucked ass and I wasn't able to have lunch with my favourite co-worker since she was way too busy. Lunch with her is the best part of my work day.

Yet, beyond all that, I was able to move on from the shit from this weekend. My wife isn't home and I was able to make my...
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This was a bloody awful weekend.

I am filled with anger, hurt; a feeling of absolute nothingness eating my sanity. Very Neverending Story. Except the Nothing is my own rage. The person in my life fills me with this rage. It is not her fault completely. Most of it falls to me, but I cannot help but be hurt by her actions and words.

The...
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My first journal entry from my new laptop.

I'd like to apologize to my now six-year old iMac for no longer spending as much time with her.

Stayed home today. Had a violent pain in my back as if someone had stabbed me there. Took some really strong pain medicine and took a ride on the prescription meds train to lalaland. Woke up confused and...
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I know I promised a translation of yesterday's poem, but I got my new laptop today, so.... yeah.

Work sucked. Commuting sucks.

I wish to be more creative. Yesterday's poem was my first ever one, and the fact that I wrote in spanish, a language I speak very well, yet have not written in for a number of years, is kind of weird. So, that...
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