trixel

that was hot...I wish that would happen to me..*sigh*

...close....but not quite

Nothing was ever as traumatic as watching The Blob. I think I saw that for the first time when I was six, and I was traumatized for years! I would stare at the air vent in my room for hours, coveres pulled up halfway over my face.Hardly moving until I passed out from exhaustion.

I never doubted that someday it was going to come through the vent, travel across my floor and devour me as I lay in my bed.

Celery?

IM? AOL instant messanger? can you stream audio through it? I know so little about the IM software out there, it truly amazes me

"Chimera," eh? When did my "favorite word habit" wither away? Why can't I bring it back to life!

(note to self!)
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p.s. trixeltrix, I'm enjoying your word sprinkling.

wooo, how did you manage that?

lol of course it would be small and shortlived...But just think about it...Standing outside when all of the sudden theres a few seconds where everything just stops and moisture is getting sucked streight up and its all quiet and theres no storm no rain.. just you standing there..

Thats the feeling i was looking for. but who knows. oh well didn't happen. talk to ya soon

Cool. Sounds good., I'd be happy to send them along. and yeah, that girl's gonna own his ass

Haha! Night!

oh, and the art...well, I kinda like yesterday's better myself.

The one thing that stood out in ur entry is the "indulged in drugs and sexual deviation" comment. I have wondered where I would be if I did not follow that path myself. Perhaps I would have got my mfa and would be teaching art to a bunch of wannabees or maybe I d have a house mortgage wifie kiddies and tonnes of debt.

Perhaps the choices we made years ago were meant to be and although where we are now is a result maybe its not a bad place if you consider the alternatives. I have to speak for myself of course. Sounds like your taking forward steps which is great. For me though I still wonder what it would be like making 100k+ a year

And I wish my friggin lawyer would phone me to tell me if I really did screw up a decade ago!

I like that poem..
and you said..."I'm leaving it up to my determination to start off down a path..." .....I guess that's how I view life's plans..

an engineer with such a poetic soul? what a strange yet intriguing combination. glad to know you weren't gone for good...

Cows are very tasty indeed. I feel bad eating meat, and I've tried to go vegi several times... and then I get the blood lust, and I must have a rare steak. What can you do? I am a human, I have my weaknesses...

hey glad ur back

more later

Thank you for your vision, it's beautiful and terrible, and reminds me of all the reasons to feel intensely. Rejoice in your expression, and your clear eyes.

In many ways we are all that old woman, and all the children. True enough I can walk to a super market with an outlandish even gaudy amount of food in it, and yet as a youth I often went hungry, and my mother took from refuse to feed. You account is a touching one, but not in a place most like to think about. Suffer though we do, we continue on, and are happy with what we can find.

Americans suffer a interesting malady of thinking the wealth our nation contains, and the influence it wields allows us a special place among all people. Truth is we are as likely to generate our own suffering as to bestow it explosively on others. I could go on for hours.

My thumb: Blood yes, bloody ... not really. The better part of my thumb nail is a mottled purple, and still not really useable.

wow - cool. feel like i know you a bit better. i like watching strangers too - i used to make up my own stories about who these people were and what their jobs were etc etc....

yeah that animation is actually from a Monty Python website... it's funny...

yes i had only 1 cigarette today - yay for me! your a good writer by the way......

chau amiga

Oh jeez, you crack me up. Your photos are the liveliest things in my journal! That's one hell of a story there. I enjoyed that.

it takes strength to wear some scars, and strength still more to know how to love them. I love this story, every word, and I don't want to imagine not having read it.

I'm going to be thinking about this one for days, looking to explain to people what I've read, but it won't mean anything to them, and so I'll stay silent, and smile at myself, and think about it some more.

I am in love with a canadian...though i'm in cali and there is just too much stuff to work thru to try to make anything work...ah well

thanx for the comment you left in my journal and i meant every word of what i said in the comment i left in the group.
and it's very nice to see someone happy...seems it's harder and harder to find someone who truely is

I've spent the last three years feeling so beaten down and aging and lost.

aha - i can totally relate to that.... i feel like i have been put through the ringer so to speak at different times in my life and i think that the past year has been something of that nature...... i have lost focus in school - life - what my goals are anymore - whether or not i will ever find love again - blah blah blah.

of course the plus side to this is that i feel i am coming out of that funk - so that is good. i now have motivation to finish some projects that i started over 2 years ago - i am going to go for a BFA - and might even change schools to find a better art program - i have been meeting some new people - finally - going out more and socializing (which can be good ar bad depending) and just overall been dealing with some of the demons that have been haunting me.

sounds like you met a great person - never take them for granted - those good people that come into our lives.

here's to hoping that your night went well and that you have a good sunday..........cheers!