trixel

"You were the sudden summer of god
The jangling belldeath and the rain rains
I wished you would fall on me like a tender judging
Oh yes
Oh no
And still I do, my dear"

-Into the Bloody Hole I Go by Current 93

Just as I was close to giving up on magic, the universe envelopes me in it.

I had an experience tonight that I've never had before. I'm not sure I can express it, as it seems to be a close satellite of the ineffable, a moon around mystery.

I talked to someone tonight who is a few thousand miles away. Our words made everything slow down and disappear. Our genders dissolved, my blood ran into his veins, his breath issued from my lungs, I took him and he entered me. We seemed to become each other; we were each other for a few moments. I cried. I cried out. It was scary as hell and the most comforted I've felt for as far as I can remember.

I have no words to adequately describe what happened. I wish I could share it properly instead of sounding crazy. Maybe I am a little crazy.

If this is crazy though, I thank everything for it. And to think it was only words.

Words are powerful beyond imagining. They are what allows us to imagine.