trials303

Hey. No, you didn't offend me at all. I totally agree with you. My kids come first - and there is the struggle. Because, ever since I have been married, I have devoted myself to my husband, and then my kids. And now my husband resents me for it. He doesn't respect me for having no job, and not a lot of friends, and a life outside of the house. So now what? And I have lost myself in this wife/mother thing. I want to find myself again, but not at the expense of my kids. My hubby is doing the "I'm not happy, is this all there is" stuff. And when I see that I could lose the family that I want to keep together more than anything, I see how little I have for myself. What would I do if my husband up and left? How would I take care of my kids? Should I be an empty shell if I don't have him? Keeping my family intact is the most important thing to me. I grew up without any intact family AT ALL and it was horrible. I don't want that for my kids. Do you see where I'm coming from a little?.......

Yeah we both come from severely broken homes full of whores, step fathers/mothers, eating disorders, suicides, mental health issues, alcholism, drugs, etc., etc. Not making excuses but sometimes I feel lucky that we have made it this far and haven't od'd or died or some shit.

It would take some chatting or something to fill you in; we go so far back. There's a picture of my wife at my 1 year b-day party for Christ's sake.

I take no offense to what you're saying. Some fucker in the navy nick named me vanilla ice. I got nothing but "ice ice baby" for years. SUCK! So fuck that guy. Peace & chicken grease foo!