Heres how the night started. She got here around 11pm, she knew we were gonna talk soooo when she pulled up and got out of her car, looking like the essence of beauty bottled mind you, she gave me a hug, except this time her hug wasnt heartfelt...i sensed it. I kinda went on the worry mission lol. I said you ok? She replied "yah im fine"....bullshit i knew she was lying. Statisically "im fine" is the one phrase women use the most in their life, true or not, most of the time its not true.
I said ok, well lets go inside and talk =) well we got into my room she sat on my bed, i sat in a chair. I asked her how her wedding went for her friend, she spent about 20 minutes explaining it, sounded lame. Even she had a bad time. I then asked her if she wanted to go to this neighborhood bar, Ali-Bi's, she agreed. We stopped at my old job to get smokes, saw my roommate cause he was working, even he saw that she wasnt happy. I was preparing myself for the worse when we left the store.
We got to the bar, i got her a vodka and cran, i myself had a white russian. We sat in the back area, away from the drunks singing Karaoke =P. The talk started, i opened it up. I was just like well, you know how i feel about you Holly, theres nothing i wouldnt do to be with you, she looked down for a minute. FUCK. She looks back up and lays it on me. She says: "Jason, i like you alot, more than i should." Great....
She then re-itterated the fact that right now she doesnt want a relationship, but wants to keep dating me to get to know me better. She also says that she can fully see a future with us, said shes even envisioned it. Cool, i guess. I reminded her that, if she didnt wanna continue to date or even think there would be a future then we can sincerely be good friends, she said she would love that, but thats not what she wants right now, just wants to date, get to know me better instead of jumping into a relationship which is all shes ever done and they've never lasted, she says she wants to do things right this time.
Ok, acceptable. I told her ya know, it really would hurt me if she started dating someone else as well. She then said Its not like im looking to date anyone else, i guess im the only guys shes done anything with or dated for the past year, BUT she also stated that neither one of us can tell if say tomorrow, the day after or a week from then one of us meets someone just as cool or whatever and start dating em, true. A motherfucking heartbreaker to hear her say that, but its the reality of it all really.
I told her, i refuse to date another person while im putting my effort into her, i absolutely will not do it. She said she isnt out looking to date people either but theres still the chance she may meet someone thats interesting even if shes not out looking for someone to date, i hate hearing that come from her.
Well, its settled, i told her: Ok so to clarify, we're dating? She said yah, but if you dont wanna put your effort forth i understand because i know you want a relationship right now and im just not comfortable yet, i need to do it right, get to know you better. Acceptable, painful but acceptable.
Dating.
I then told her the truth, said hey ya know, i really thought i was gonna lose you tonight, she said she had the same feelings to and thats why she wasnt all lovey dovey when she got out of her car, "didnt feel like hugging and kissing and stuff if this was gonna be the last night we were anything" she said.
I then said i feel relieved in a way she said her to and shes really happy that we can continue to date and see where it goes. Good i guess?
Well we just kinda chatted about small stuff the rest of the night ya know, like appreciating each other, saying how stoked we are its not over etc.
I asked her "Just a question, did this rack your brain at all since you been gone for a day from me and all, just curious." I was surprised she replied and said "Yes, the whole entire day and a half i was trying to figure out what to do, i thought about it constantly" I hope thats good lol.
Well we got comfortable again with that outta the way, kissed a few times, touching etc etc.
Bartender says its time to go......fuck 3 hours just blew the fuck by...quick.
We left she came back to my house. She came in we went downstairs to my room. Layed on the bed started cuddling, then kissing......by this time we're feeling each other, not touching wise i mean in tune with each other, i start kissing her neck, nibbling, ran my tongue across one side of her collarbone, to the other then started kissing the other side of her neck. I stopped myself, and said we should stop. She grabbed me and started kissing me, here we go. Started the whole kissing making out dry humping thing, then after about 20 minutes of that i said "Can i play with you?" She said yah, so........
I started undressing her, and her I. I went to go south and play with her but she kept pulling me up, never got to.
We continued the foreplay for a good 40 minutes. We took the remaining clothing articles off, my boxers, her thong/bra etc etc....I kept teasing her with....bah you guys dont get those details
We made love for 3 hours......it wa so fucking intense, it was and i will gladly admit the best sex ive ever had. We just flow so well together when making love, no off rhythm movements, everything was water. We finally both started tiring (especially my legs lol)cand i kissed her passionately. I layed there on top of her and we just stared into each others eyes, smiling. It was excellent.
I asked if she wanted some water, she said yah so i went upstairs and got her some, when i got back she was asleep Well i woke her and said heres your water sleeping beauty ill brb i gotta use the restroom. It then dawned on me....wheres the condom? Oh fuck, it was gone......i told her hey....the condom is gone....but she had already "taken care of it" i asked where it was, she just said i dont wanna know.
I went to the restroom got back and she was dressed, she needed to go home. I walked her out, in the course of walking her out we kissed, hugged deeply quite a bit. Gave her my old cellphone to use since i have no use for it, Just got a new one today, so now she has a cell, she got in her car i kissed her under the most beautiful fucking skyline ever, No clouds, im a mile high here in denver so the stars were fucking blazing, absolutely beautiful.
Thats my night guys,let me know what you think if please shed some light on the her just wanting to date me for now thing, it kinda scares me maybe i just dont get it?
Mysluttyfamily, thanks for leaving the replies, you guys doing better? let a brotha know
I said ok, well lets go inside and talk =) well we got into my room she sat on my bed, i sat in a chair. I asked her how her wedding went for her friend, she spent about 20 minutes explaining it, sounded lame. Even she had a bad time. I then asked her if she wanted to go to this neighborhood bar, Ali-Bi's, she agreed. We stopped at my old job to get smokes, saw my roommate cause he was working, even he saw that she wasnt happy. I was preparing myself for the worse when we left the store.
We got to the bar, i got her a vodka and cran, i myself had a white russian. We sat in the back area, away from the drunks singing Karaoke =P. The talk started, i opened it up. I was just like well, you know how i feel about you Holly, theres nothing i wouldnt do to be with you, she looked down for a minute. FUCK. She looks back up and lays it on me. She says: "Jason, i like you alot, more than i should." Great....
She then re-itterated the fact that right now she doesnt want a relationship, but wants to keep dating me to get to know me better. She also says that she can fully see a future with us, said shes even envisioned it. Cool, i guess. I reminded her that, if she didnt wanna continue to date or even think there would be a future then we can sincerely be good friends, she said she would love that, but thats not what she wants right now, just wants to date, get to know me better instead of jumping into a relationship which is all shes ever done and they've never lasted, she says she wants to do things right this time.
Ok, acceptable. I told her ya know, it really would hurt me if she started dating someone else as well. She then said Its not like im looking to date anyone else, i guess im the only guys shes done anything with or dated for the past year, BUT she also stated that neither one of us can tell if say tomorrow, the day after or a week from then one of us meets someone just as cool or whatever and start dating em, true. A motherfucking heartbreaker to hear her say that, but its the reality of it all really.
I told her, i refuse to date another person while im putting my effort into her, i absolutely will not do it. She said she isnt out looking to date people either but theres still the chance she may meet someone thats interesting even if shes not out looking for someone to date, i hate hearing that come from her.
Well, its settled, i told her: Ok so to clarify, we're dating? She said yah, but if you dont wanna put your effort forth i understand because i know you want a relationship right now and im just not comfortable yet, i need to do it right, get to know you better. Acceptable, painful but acceptable.
Dating.
I then told her the truth, said hey ya know, i really thought i was gonna lose you tonight, she said she had the same feelings to and thats why she wasnt all lovey dovey when she got out of her car, "didnt feel like hugging and kissing and stuff if this was gonna be the last night we were anything" she said.
I then said i feel relieved in a way she said her to and shes really happy that we can continue to date and see where it goes. Good i guess?
Well we just kinda chatted about small stuff the rest of the night ya know, like appreciating each other, saying how stoked we are its not over etc.
I asked her "Just a question, did this rack your brain at all since you been gone for a day from me and all, just curious." I was surprised she replied and said "Yes, the whole entire day and a half i was trying to figure out what to do, i thought about it constantly" I hope thats good lol.
Well we got comfortable again with that outta the way, kissed a few times, touching etc etc.
Bartender says its time to go......fuck 3 hours just blew the fuck by...quick.
We left she came back to my house. She came in we went downstairs to my room. Layed on the bed started cuddling, then kissing......by this time we're feeling each other, not touching wise i mean in tune with each other, i start kissing her neck, nibbling, ran my tongue across one side of her collarbone, to the other then started kissing the other side of her neck. I stopped myself, and said we should stop. She grabbed me and started kissing me, here we go. Started the whole kissing making out dry humping thing, then after about 20 minutes of that i said "Can i play with you?" She said yah, so........
I started undressing her, and her I. I went to go south and play with her but she kept pulling me up, never got to.
We continued the foreplay for a good 40 minutes. We took the remaining clothing articles off, my boxers, her thong/bra etc etc....I kept teasing her with....bah you guys dont get those details
We made love for 3 hours......it wa so fucking intense, it was and i will gladly admit the best sex ive ever had. We just flow so well together when making love, no off rhythm movements, everything was water. We finally both started tiring (especially my legs lol)cand i kissed her passionately. I layed there on top of her and we just stared into each others eyes, smiling. It was excellent.
I asked if she wanted some water, she said yah so i went upstairs and got her some, when i got back she was asleep Well i woke her and said heres your water sleeping beauty ill brb i gotta use the restroom. It then dawned on me....wheres the condom? Oh fuck, it was gone......i told her hey....the condom is gone....but she had already "taken care of it" i asked where it was, she just said i dont wanna know.
I went to the restroom got back and she was dressed, she needed to go home. I walked her out, in the course of walking her out we kissed, hugged deeply quite a bit. Gave her my old cellphone to use since i have no use for it, Just got a new one today, so now she has a cell, she got in her car i kissed her under the most beautiful fucking skyline ever, No clouds, im a mile high here in denver so the stars were fucking blazing, absolutely beautiful.
Thats my night guys,let me know what you think if please shed some light on the her just wanting to date me for now thing, it kinda scares me maybe i just dont get it?
Mysluttyfamily, thanks for leaving the replies, you guys doing better? let a brotha know
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i am pretty sure she will be cool. if you want it, there might be a chance of her falling into the relationship anyway... unbeknowced to you. Just wait, and kick it, she will play into your hands.
~the angel*
fucking flirt.